Well, yeah, title sums it all up. Currently I am dating a wonderful woman who makes me feel so happy just to even be with her. Kissing her is magical, dates are STILL a blast, and whenever it's time to part ways for the night, I always feel a sharp pang of sadness.
Usually, like most posters here, my bisexual urges appear to come and go, meaning sometimes I feel straight, other days bi, other days gay, sometimes none of those. I know that I like women, or I wouldn't feel the way I do about my current girlfriend. I mean, we've only been dating a few weeks, but I do quite enjoy her Now for no more sappiness.
Simply put, I just feel an incredible sense of guilt and frustration for my newfound sexual attraction to males. I mean, I've had these fantasies about a year or two now, and still haven't acted on them in real life. Whenever I have the chance to explore these attractions, I have declined them, preferring instead to masturbate over them for some reason? Or feeling repulsed.
More than anything I wish I didn't get aroused by men. I try to suppress it but it always comes back eventually. My attraction to women stays constant. I guess I just don't know what to do to come to terms with it. I'm in pain for dating this great woman and still having these feelings while she remains unaware.
Sometimes I'm not even sure myself...and that's a hard way to feel.