Hey guys.
I'm 27 and recently have started thinking I want to sleep with a woman... I'm not sure what this means.
I came out as gay at school when I was younger and got beaten up for it - but stuck with it. I came out to my parents too. Soon I was seen as this great 'example' of what being gay is about - coming out early - saying 'fuck you' to the world.
Since then I have slept with hundreds of men. But no women.
Recently I've been seeing this bi-guy. Well, he identfies as a 'gay man who sleeps with women'. Which is totally his business. But it got me questioning my own gayness. Now...
I don't believe that I could possibly be straight. I do fancy blokes loads and loads. But recently there is just something nagging inside me that suggests I want to try it with a girl, and when I think about it - and there are some girls I can imagine sleeping with.
It's just all so confusing - because people see me as so damn gay!
I told a friend of mine and she suggested a MMF threesome with the boyf. But I think that I would feel intimidated what with it actually being my first time with a girl and all that. In fact- I don't have any plans to sleep with anyone outside of the relationship irrespective of gender.
I'm just curious to hear from other people who may have had a similar experience to me - come out as gay/lesbian, and then tried out the other possibility...
How did it feel?
The weirdest bit about it is that I definately check out boys 99% of the time, and VERY occasionally see a girl that 'I could sleep with'. Now that sounds pretty gay - except that before last year my answer wouldn't have been 99% boys - it would have been 100%.
Really confused about all this- and just kinda looking for some info. I mean maybe I am gay, I've just never questioned it before and at 27 it all seems a bit weird having been SOOOO gay all my life thus far.
Also weird being 27 and seeing girls as quite alien and untouchable - not having 'had' one (pardon the vulgarity) whereas boys are common turf so to speak.
Does any of this make sense or am I the only person in the world who has ever felt like this?
I also feel silly - like I should just 'accept I'm gay and get on with it.'
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