Originally Posted by
hgf33
Unlike most gays who say they knew at a young age, I didn't really figure it out until I was about 20. I guess it started before then, though. I'm a perfect example of that Katy Perry song. I kissed a girl, and I liked it! I used to make out with my best friend bc guys liked it and it was harmless fun. We'd fool around above the waste, but we were just party girls and never thought anything of it. Then, I was at a point in my life where I had mostly guy friends, so it became sort-of a habit to agree on which girls were hot and which ones weren't. Even straight girls can do that! I had also been enjoying lesbian porn, but even after all that, I still had no idea. I just assumed I was comfortable with naked women (open-minded and secure with myself) and I liked the porn because I could watch oral, which you don't always see in straight porn.
Looking back, I've realized I did have a girl crush when I was 20. She was beautiful, and we'd just met but became instant friends. We used to talk about sex a lot, including the possibility of being bi. The thought had never even crossed my mind before! We didn't do a whole lot together, sexually, minus a threesome with a guy friend of mine... But I was awful, I didn't have a clue. We hung out after awhile, even after I met my current boyfriend, but eventually, she moved away. I've tried to contact her, to no avail. It bums me out because I've figured out that I SERIOUSLY wanted that girl, and I wish I wouldn't have been so damn shy! She was amazing. *sigh*
Last year, my boyfriend let me have a "girlfriend". It didn't work out, but at least now that I've been with a woman, I know that, without question, I am definitely bisexual!!!
My biggest regret in life is that I wasn't able to figure it out when I was younger. I sure missed out!!
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