When was the FIRST time you realised you were Bi?

[zizzy]

I started realizing I was bi when I was about 10 or 11 when I watched a lot of porn with my cousins. I realized they only watched porn for the girls but I liked both the girl and the boy. When I first masturbated I was around 12 and I enjoyed dreaming of boys and girls (still do that today). I masturbate about boys and girls at school, work, TV and etc before I got to sleep at night. When I was about 13 I had a step cousin who used to flash his 8 inch penis at me and I hate to say it but it turned me on. Currently I have a major crush on a guy at my school I 've been crushing on since I was 15 and a crush on a girl who works at my job.

[Cid87]

Good question, when I think back I know now that my sexual interests were mostly towards the opposite gender but not entirely. If someone would have taught me or explained to me exactly what bisexuality was at that time I would maybe have realized it sooner. I was a very late bloomer, so my physical and mental growth was later than probably everyone at my age and I remember I was scared of sexual activity until I was 16-17 years old.

I also remember that there was never any mention of bisexuality, it was completely unheard of until I was about 15 which was about the same time I started to consider I might be bisexual.

I was probably bisexual since I reached sexual maturity, but didn't think of it since I seemed to have a greater interest in the opposite sex and also didn't get any information on what bisexuality was...

[yewtahjim]

What a fascination storyline to follow....most of us could write the same story over and over....with minor deviations, (no pun intended) we pretty well came to our lifestyle thru the same happenings....In my case, at 5 years old, I used to suck the cock of a neighbor boy who was older....by 8 years old, my parents had moved us to another city, and upstairs from us lived a single father with an 8 year old boy and 6 year old girl...over the period of many months, I sucked the son and licked the daughter...getting much more out of doing the boy, since the girl just sort of went along with it.... at 9, almost ten, my folks moved again, and within days, a neighbor boy, older than me by two years, and obviously gay, were in my bedroom, when out of the blue, he asked if I ever played with myself. I admitted I did, he asked if I had "cum" yet, and I really didn't know what me meant, explaining that I played with it until it felt soo good, I had to quit. WELL, he took it out, and started to jack me off....to my first "discharge"....AWESOME....he then started to suck me and again I came and he swallowed. Even more awesome...he offered his cock to me and I proceeded to suck him off and swallow for the first time in my life....was different, not sure I wanted to do that again...but thankfully I did...over the period of months, I pretty well made it with all the neighbor boys in our "clubhouse". One of the guys had invited me to sleep over, and not knowing it was just social, not sexual, I made a move on him and he got out of bed and told his father. Father sent me home but, told me to come see him the next day. Fearing for my life, I did reluctantly go over when I saw he was home from work. I asked what he wanted and he started a chat about the earlier evening with his son, and thru questioning, I did admit that I like sex with boys. But had only been with my peers. He asked if I had ever been with a grown man, and I said no. Next question, would I like to be with someone who could teach me about love, as opposed to getting off....duh........ he held me, he kissed me, he undressed me, he sucked me, I sucked him...and then the shock of my life, he lubed me up...and after suggesting that I could fuck him in exchange for him fucking me...I agreed very excitedly. I had no idea you could fuck a boy....hahahah WOW blew me away, again, no pun intended. I had enjoyed sex before, but this was unbelieveable....he filled me with cum, and I in turn filled him.....all excited, when I left, I sought out the older gay who introduced me to orgasms and told him guess what I had learned and proceeded to have him fuck me, within the hour of having my first....and from 12 to 15 I knew "queer" and figured I was just that.....however at 15, a 46 year old lady friend of my father's took me to bed and taught me the beauty of f/m sex too. I had no idea what was the alternative to queer, but whatever it was, I now was equally as hungry for pussy as well as cock. During a long marriage to my departed wife, I also had a male lover on the side, and the beauty of being with him, he had the twin to my penis and so I was able to enjoy the pleasure of being fucked by my own cock, in a sense...so anyway, that's my story, I hope it caused a little "excitement in the shorts" *S*

[MarieDelta]

Thats a tricky question for me, because I pretty much kept that part of me "compartmentalized". In other words, I never acknowledged it openly, but also, I think I kept it secret from myself for a while too.

For me my awakeing started with relizing that I was indeed Trans, I won't bore you with the details but yes, I compartmentalized and shut down emotionally.

When I finally accepted that part of myself, it was then that I felt OK about my attraction, not just to one sex, but to both.

I had repressed both my gender and my sexual identity until I was about 30 years old. Kept trying to "cure" myself, or drink myself out of it. The things I tried to become a "man" were just stupid. Pushed myself ever harder to be one of the boys, which was never gonna happen.

Anyway, thats my story.

[lucky7]

First time I realised I was bi was extremely recently. I have always felt emotionally attracted to women, but only to certain females. The average, every day woman doesn't physically attract me. I have never had a stable relationship with a guy, in the sense that I have never been extremely emotionally involved with a guy to the point that I truly love them, or would care to be apart from them. I was watching a TV show on bisexuality and a doctor was saying that many women don't believe they are bi because they aren't interested in having sex with another woman, but instead they just fall in love with another woman. That is the instant everything made sense. I, unfortunately, have fallen in love with two of my best friends (not to their knowing) but I am not interested in sleeping with them. I was out partying just recently.. and I mayyy have been using illegal drugs, and in those few hours everything was extremely clear. I was so attracted to my friend, and I felt she was feeling the same way, but once the drugs wore off.. there was noooo desire at all to be with her sexually. It may just be me. Maybe I'm not a sexual person. Who knows, right?

[Skater Boy]

I, unfortunately, have fallen in love with two of my best friends (not to their knowing) but I am not interested in sleeping with them. I was out partying just recently.. and I mayyy have been using illegal drugs, and in those few hours everything was extremely clear. I was so attracted to my friend, and I felt she was feeling the same way, but once the drugs wore off.. there was noooo desire at all to be with her sexually. It may just be me. Maybe I'm not a sexual person. Who knows, right?

Heh, well, it raises the ol' debate about what "Bisexuality" really is again. If you fancy women mentally but not physically, are you still Bi? I would be careful about making life decisions based on epiphanies that you experience whilst under the influence of illegal substances. But then again, they do have a weird way of "clarifying things" sometimes. Or maybe they just reduce your social inhibitions and allow your unconscious mind to take over for a while. That, coupled with repression might explain why your lust for her disappeared once the drugs wore off. Or maybe you just got high on crack and had some strange thoughts about your friend. you're right... who knows? Certainly not me. Yawn... time for bed.

[PuddleJump]

Hey, this is my first post. I've been lurking for a little while but never really had anything to comment on as this is all pretty new for me. I saw this thread and thought, what better thread to introduce myself in? So here goes:

I only recently started considering bisexuality as an option. Like others have said, it never really occured to me that there was something other than being homosexual or heterosexual. Even after first learning about bisexuality, it never occured to me to consider it. I suppose I should have suspected it but it's just one of those things that I didn't want to consider so I didn't.

I remember my mom coming into my room once when I was around 7. A girl I knew and I were in my bed, stark naked. I can't remember what we were doing but I suspect it was my idea.
We moved not long after. I became best friends with another girl pretty quickly. I think it started as just "comparing" our bodies but eventually, she and I would play "strippers" which typically turned into stripping down and pretending to have sex. We always stopped shy of touching each other pussy though. I do remember her spreading my legs and looking at what I had though. Again, we moved when I was eleven. I still talk to her from time to time; she's completely hetero and we never discuss what we used to do. Sometimes the conversation gets close to it and we fall into an awkward silence.

But, as is the case with many, college opened my eyes. I just finished my first year of college and found myself falling for my best friend. I met her the first day after moving into the dorms. By late October, I'd moved in with her and her roommate. We did everything together. We started flirting, seeing how far it'd get before one of us got creeped out and backed off. Eventually it got so far as moving in for a kiss, always pulling back before our lips actually touched. She would express how weird it was and a few times she said that she had to ask herself if she was a lesbian, always concluding that no, she liked guys. I don't think she's ever considered the possibility of being bi. Anyways, every time we came close to kissing, I felt exhilarated, half disappointed that it hadn't gone further, half relieved that it had stopped when it had.
We stopped with the flirting after we came dangerously close to kissing. However, I started sleeping in her bed with her for part of the night, spooning.
I'm always torn between wanting more and being terrified that something more might happen. But the idea of sex with her isn't at all appealing. That's what confuses me most. I get moody and jealous when she goes on dates or shows interest in guys and I dedicate more time than I should to her. I'll face the question, I could write my paper that's due tomorrow or I could watch a movie with her. I always choose her over school, family, anything.
So that's the short version of my story (ridiculously long, too!) Sorry if it's kind of hard to follow. I've never told this much to anyone, in person or online so I'm freaking out a little bit!

[dickhand]

I guess I would have to say that knowing that I was Bi came in the late 70's . As I have told my story of the 1st time else where , I won't waste space here with it again . My first sexual encounter was with a male cousin around 69 or so more out of availabilty then any great attraction . I think we both thought that when females were available that our playing around would end . Well it didn't . By the late 70's we were both married and still found time to get together . I also found time to be with his wife . Niether one knew about the other doing it with me . I don't think the term bi-sexual was available to us just then , but I know when I did hear about it for the first time , I knew right away that it fit me . I liked to have sex with both male and female partners . Oral , vaginal or anal was good for me .Both giving and receiving .

[open4bizness]

When was the FIRST time you realised you were Bi?

When I had a penis in my butt and liked it.

[lastlaf44]

I started to consciously think about the idea of being straight/gay/bi around grade 7 when I started having physical attractions and fantasies (as opposed to a simple "he's cute" crush). I mostly had thoughts about guys up until grade nine when more thoughts about girls started creeping in. I was finally able to...not admit. Admit is the wrong word...it's not like I was trying to hide it from myself or something. I finally...came to the conclusion (after sifting through a lot of myself) that I was bi in grade 11.

~Lastlaf~

[fallenpandora]

this is my first post so here goes lol

i first relized i was bisexual ( or more relized there was a word for it) when i was 15 and i made a new friend who was very open about her sexuality when i saw that she liked girls i started to think about my past and remembering stuff that had happened like when i was 13 and me and my friend ( who i asume is hetro now) were talking about lesbains and i said i wonder how they have sex so we tryed to act it out it didnt go that far just rubbing against eachother kissing and touching. i also relized that all the fasination i had with past friends may have been more then friendship lol from there i have had a few experiences and dated girls.

i more consider myself bi curious, i LOVE girls and im curious about guys lol

[childofwinter]

I've always seemed to be somewhat bicurious,especially from the age of 15 or 16. I felt comfortable enough to consider myself bi around two years ago when I was 19. However, noone I knew outside of the Internet knows that I am bi - I don't feel like I have to tell everyone what my sexuality is, because staright people don't do that, so why should everyone else?

[eatmeplz_803]

I think that I always knew that I was bi. It started at a very young age maybe 7 or 8 me and my girl friends would always play "boyfriends and girlfriends" is what we called it. We would mostly pull our pants down and hump on each other. Probably when I was in the 5th grade one of my girl friends ate me out for the 1st time boy did that feel great. Me and her fooled around alot I always wonder is she bi too but I haven't seen or talked to her in many years. but now as a women I still enjoy hummping other females and eating them out and them doing the same to me.

[fishfry29]

My first M/M experence was when I was 13 and a adult sucked me off...Ive had numerous experences since then, In the Military I would let a "queer" swing on my cock when I didnt have money to go to Tijuana to get laid, and then afterwards I would meet men at the adult book stores and let them suck me, or I would do anal with them but as the "top". I was always the passive partner and never sucked another man or did anal untill I was about 35, in the early 70's when there was no HIV to worry about.....I decided that since I liked recieving, I would try sucking a man for my first time...I was hooked when he came in my mouth. It took a few times before I swallowed, but I was hooked. I was / am married at the time, but never let the wife know untill we decided to experement with swinging the later 70's.

[brunette]

when i was eight one of my neighbors and i played "doctor." we were completely naked, but we just played with each others tits. the next day, we did the same thing, but she had asked her mom about masturbation, and then proceeded to touch my clit, which had never been done. i felt really wrong about that, and she and i stopped hanging out.

all through high school, i was very sheltered. all of my friends said they were straight, so i just assumed i was. i really didn't do anything sexually with either gender until college.

in college, many of my friends were open about sexual orientation. i dated a few guys, and then got into a long term with one of them. the whole time though, i was really in love with a lesbian that lived close to me. we never did anything but flirt because we were both in relationships, and when she broke up with her gf, i was about to break up with my bf just to be with her when she immediately got another gf.

i discovered my bisexuality with this lesbian (before then, i kissed girls, but that was just for fun). in one of our classes, she was talking about gaydar and how she knew if someone would eat pussy, even if they claimed to be straight. i thought "that describes me perfectly."

then, i met my current husband and that was the first time i had sex. then we had a threesome with a very out bisexual girl, and i discovered that i loved eating pussy.

so now, i love and am very dedicated to my husband, and he doesn't mind if i have girlfriends on the side.

[biSteve969]

Hey im steve.

Im New to the forum.

I have recently just relized that i might be bisexual.

When looking at pornography i have been more curoius. It started when i started looking at Shemales. I noticed how beautiful they looked. Then i started to looking at Bisexual Pornography. I was really turned on with it. I am a virgin so i have yet to try anything sexual with a man or a woman. I do know though that i have more of a sexual feeling for men than loving. Woman i do Love and have sexual feelings for.

phew it feels good to tell someone

Thanks for Listening to My Story

Steve

[Skater Boy]

Welcome to the forum, Steve. Thanks for sharing.

[bicurious_1]

I think I have been curious for several years now, but have only really started talking about it with the wife in the last couple of years. She actually had an experience with a friend of hers a few years ago and discovered that she wasn't THAT curious, but I have been intrigued by watching the act of oral and MMF oral for a while. Thing is that I am not turned on by guys very much at all. In fact, my view goes straight to the waist on a naked guy because I don't find guys that good looking at all.

[Duneman69]

Eighteen, on the beach on Galveston Island. Always preferred to wear as little clothing as possible, always got the skimpiest Speedos I could. One day, an incredibly buff guy in a thong hit on me and fifteen minutes later I was giving him my first ever BJ in the dunes.

[wanderingrichard]

so, reading over this and sevral other threads with similar themes over the year or so i've been here, it seems that the majority of us started to realize our true selves in our early to mid teens.. which means we are pretty "normal", then.. [ ducking under desk to avoid the stones, etc being thrown at him for using the N word]

[bigdreams3250]

One always has regrets in life. When i was about seventeen and working at a large department store in London the aftersales serviceman for the department that i worked in came downstairs to the storeroom with me to pick up product. the storeman was there and when we walked in he locked the door. After a bit of discussion where my options were explained to me he grabbed my wrists and pulled me across the table. The serviceman reached around and took my trousers right off, not just down to the ankles,, got a jar of vaseline and give me a pasting with that. He got is cock out and with a bit of difficulty he fucked me until he came. They then changed places and the storeman, who was much larger and rougher gave me a good fucking before cumming. I didnt know what to do. Then the storeman held my arms whilst the service guy got down and gave me oral sex. First time for every thing. Borderline rape. But i kinda liked it. Never went back for any more because it was 'naughty' although the invites were there. Whilst i have had many female lovers and kids, it has only been recently that I have developed a very strong desire for male attention. I just like fucking and being fucked. By both sexes. Good eh???

[the sacred night]

Damn folks, some of you have had some hot experiences! Mine have been, for the most part, significantly less hot.

When I was a young kid, like 10ish, I remember catching myself looking too hard at a woman and being afraid I was becoming a lesbian. I was terrified and would not even let myself look in the direction of a pretty girl, and would pray for forgiveness and that God wouldn't let me turn gay. After awhile of this, I managed to repress it completely and convince myself that the idea of two girls together was gross. About a year or so later, a friend told me her brother was bisexual, and my first question was "what's that?" She said it meant you dated both boys and girls, and I just shrugged and didn't say much about it. I was surprised because it hadn't really occurred to me that it was possible, but I still didn't recognize that that was me because I had stopped thinking of girls "that way." I also stopped masturbating around this time because I thought it was a sin and felt terrible guilt over it, and succeeded in pretty much repressing my sexuality as a whole, not just my sexual orientation. Through this period I continued having crushes on boys, but trying dilligently not to think too hard about it, and having crushes on girls without even realizing it. I would be staring at a girl in class, thinking how beautiful she was, and how interested in her I was, and would sometimes even think the word "crush" in connection to these feelings, but would quickly reprimand myself and tell myself it wasn't a crush, I just found her interesting was all, nothing sexual about it. I would be afraid I was teetering on the edge of lesbianism until I reminded myself of how much I liked boys, and breathe a huge sigh of relief, sure that I had to be straight if I liked boys that much. It wasn't until my junior year of high school, after I had shed my religious devotion (thank the Lord) and started to become more accepting of homosexuality and bisexuality that I thought, well, could I ever be interested in a girl? I thought not, but realized that if I ever was, I would be ok with that. I didn't think it likely to happen, but decided that if I ever did become attracted to a girl, it wouldn't be such a bad thing. As soon as I decided that, I started to have more "friendly interest" in girls my age, and kind of considered I might be attracted to them, but still didn't really think I was into girls that much. Then, the summer between my junior and senior years of high school, there was The Moment. A couple of my female cousins were staying at my house for a week, and there was a pool at my house, so we went swimming a lot. One cousin has really big boobs and her bikini was too small, and there was a diving board involved... suffice it to say I was wet in more ways than one watching her jump up and down on that thing. I couldn't stop looking, but looking was all I did. I was also starting to get involved with a guy at that time too, though, so I was really confused. One day I'd be sure I was a lesbian, then the next day I'd be making out with a guy. After a week or two of this back and forth that practically gave me whiplash, I suddenly remembered there was this thing called bisexual. Some people liked both, and it became clear to me that I was among that number. I became really eager to experement with a girl, but I was involved with the guy at the time, and I almost broke up with him to explore my other side, but he proved so accepting when I came out to him that I couldn't say the breaking up part, although he briefly did think I was breaking up with him just by coming out. I didn't break up with him, but I figured hell, we'll break up eventually anyway, so I'll just enjoy this for right now and date a girl next, whenever that is. A year later, the guy and I were not only still together, but got engaged. This woke me up to the idea that I might never get to be with a woman, and that scared me. I told him I didn't want to get married without having tried that, and we discussed the idea of FFM many times throughout our engagement, but it never happened. Now we are broken up, I am single, and I just went on my first date with a girl a few months ago! Nothing happened and it was kind of a boring date, but hell, you can't expect much your first try, right? I'm looking for a girlfriend now, still have yet to do anything sexual with another woman unless you count cybering; I've done that on this site a few times. Hopefully the start of classes will see me meeting a lovely bicurious lady, keep your fingers crossed for me!

[diamondfly82]

I think that I always knew that I was bi. It started at a very young age maybe 7 or 8 me and my girl friends would always play "boyfriends and girlfriends" is what we called it. We would mostly pull our pants down and hump on each other. Probably when I was in the 5th grade one of my girl friends ate me out for the 1st time boy did that feel great. Me and her fooled around alot I always wonder is she bi too but I haven't seen or talked to her in many years. but now as a women I still enjoy hummping other females and eating them out and them doing the same to me.

OMG We played that game too lol! I was always the boyfriend but I am soooo fem its ridiculous!

[citystyleguy]

some how i think that i have answered the question some where else here; dont remember my exact answer but i was like any one and horny as hell in my adolescent years, but found my interests wanting both girls and guys!

then the talk was only straight or gay, and talk about being confused!!!; by university, though still confused as hell, i no longer gave a damn, and plunged head long into a serious relationshiop with the most fanatastic guy on the planet!

some where along my sexual discoveries and what i was willing to do, some one put a name to my confusion, i said great, and kept plunging head-on into my relationships

so i knew that guys turned me on as much as girls, somewhere in my early teens, maybe even pre-pubescent, i just didnt have a moniker for by state of being!

[spartyhard]

when I was 12-16 i use to always jack off to porns or mags and I loved looking at the hot ladies and their pussies but the guys cocks always seemed to grab my attention. I really didn`t think about it but as I started to get older and had a girl friend I loved eating her. When she sucked on me I use to stare and wander how it felt to have a cock grow inyour mouth. One night a couple at a bar asked me over for a drink. She was hot and her pussy looked so good. as I started to eat her he came and stood by us she grabbed his cock and lifted my head to see it in front of me...well my chance to see finally happened.Now I still love eating pussy but also love having a cock to hold and suck on too

[69luvr]

I always was fascinated with women and their breasts. I was in a pool one day and a guy I knew joined me. We started talking about sex and I was looking at his sister. She was well developed. I was extremely hot and I suddenly felt his hand on me. I loved it. I reciprocated and enjoyed holding his. His sister was enjoying what she was seeing. I reacvhed out and touched her breast. He put his hand in my suit and I was in heaven. The three of us had several encounters after that and I learned how to kiss a male and swallow. I have been doing it ever since. She was great at experimenting and loved having her breats kissed. he loved having his manhood kissed as I did ! It was a great time for all of us.

[loopfruits]

This is my first post. I joined about an hour ago, lol.

Yesterday, after what felt like a long personal battle (I'm only 20), I finally admitted to myself that I am a bisexual woman. And I feel SO happy about this revelation. Calling it a revelation doesn't really fit. That sort of suggests that one moment I was straight, and the next POP I'm bi. There have been a lot of instances I've always cast to the side. Instances I ignored out of shame.

It all started when I was about 5 or 6, and there was this little boy who would spend the night sometimes. One night he asked me if I knew what sex was. Obviously I didn't. And he proceeded to show me. Mostly we just played with each others privates. But what I liked the most was when he would perform oral on me. All I knew is it felt amazing. As this went on, there was a girl I was friend's with in class who I was obsessed with, and who I wanted to be my girlfriend. I just thought it was all normal. Years later, I was friend's with this slightly older girl. We did everything together. We kissed the same boys and during the summers, spent every night in her bed. I looked up to her. I wanted to be her. She was so pretty, and I was such a tomboy back then. I remember this one instance where she mentioned a friend of hers said she was bisexual. My friend said that she didn't believe bisexuality/homosexuality was right. So I think that one conversation with her is one of the biggest reasons I've kept myself from the truth. One day she and I were driving around, going nowhere like we always did and she smiled at me in a way no one ever had before. I think I fell in love for the first time in that moment. From then on, whenever we were together I was constantly testing myself. Wondering if I wanted to kiss her or more. Truthfully, I didn't. But I would have if she wanted to. The only thing we ever did was feel each other up. It wasn't sexy at all though.

Around the same time I had this other friend. We held hands a lot, and one of the first times I slept over her house, it was me and another girl. The other girl fell asleep right away. So me and my friend stayed up talking. And then we were spooning, and she started caressing me in a playful/chaste way. I really liked it. I was about 12 at that time. After high school, I had this friend whom I'd known for a while, we just never really spent time together outside of school. There was this weird energy between us. I could never really make it out, until at this lame party we were all playing spin the bottle. The bottle landed on her, so we pecked. Then she spun, and it landed on me. When this happens you're supposed to make-out. I slipped her the tongue, and then we both pulled away immediately. That just confirmed what had been in the back of my mind. We had sexual chemistry. But it was freaky since we were friends.

All along I've felt ashamed of my feelings. It didn't help that my father openly teased me about being a lesbian, and then said he didn't believe gays should get married. Just knowing that if I were gay my father wouldn't want me to get married was devastating. Even though I still see myself ending up with a man, who knows what love with throw at me. And if I do decide to spend my life with a woman, I won't give a crap about what my father thinks. At least that's what I hope.

Only in the past year or so have I begun to watch porn. I like both hetero and lesbian porn. Actually, gay can be nice too. What I found in some lesbian videos is sensuality that is lacking in the hetero videos. That sensuality turns me on more than anything else. Although strangely, I like to climax thinking about being with a man. Up to that point though, its all about the woman.

Yesterday, I had sex with a guy. It wasn't my first time or anything but afterward I just felt clear. Clarity had come and I knew I was bisexual. Now, I'm just waiting to find a nice girl to explore my sexuality completely.

[Realist]

Welcome to the site, LF!

You are going through the same things most of us did .........and are still doing. Like the rest of us, you are learning more things about yourself s you go. I hazard a guess that your learning process will continue for the rest of your life.

You should find some good answers to your questions, here. There'll also be some who will attempt to irritate and confuse you. Take what you can use and ignore the rest. Only you can do what is best for you.

Sure, it's good to have some positive folks to discuss your inner-most thoughts and desires with, but ultimately, the answers for your happiness lies with you.

You are among friends!

[Annika L]

This is my first post. I joined about an hour ago, lol.

Yesterday, after what felt like a long personal battle (I'm only 20), I finally admitted to myself that I am a bisexual woman. And I feel SO happy about this revelation. Calling it a revelation doesn't really fit. That sort of suggests that one moment I was straight, and the next POP I'm bi.

Ah, loopfruits (I love your name, by the way), "revelation" is exactly what it is...it has finally been revealed to you what has been true for a long time!

Welcome to the site!

(By the way, in the interest of full disclosure, I'm probably one of the ones who will try to irritate and confuse you.)

[mikey3000]

I realized I'm bi the first time I was with a man, at age 37, my first real adult homosexual experience. It just felt so right. It was an epifany, an overwhelming revelation. Right away I knew there was no going back.