Hello I am a 21 yr old male. I love women and sex with them however I find that I often fantasize about having sex with males. I started fooling around with my friend at 14 but never more than hand jobs.I love to chat online and play with myself analy and where thongs and I have fooled jacked off about 5 guys and been dry humped and fingered by 3 of them. However every time it comes to get past fore play like handjobs I freak out and can't bring myself to go all the way and give a blowjob or have anal sex. I usually wind up freaking out and leaving but then I regret not just going ahead and doing it and going all the way.I have tried over and over not to think about it or chat online with guys but always wind chatting online again or thinking about it and wanting to do it and playing with myself analy ? Is this normal ? I think a big part is guilt and that I am worried it may get out and it would ruin me and I mean really destory me if anyone found out. So am I bi or just curious or what giving my thoughts and what I have done ? And how can I get over the wired guilty, worrying feeling and just go ahead and give a bj and get f***** and enjoy it ?
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