Coming to terms with being a cocksucker?

[Road Warrior]

I came to grips with the acknowledgement that I was a cocksucker through a bit of a roundabout route.

I discovered my interest in men in my early 30?s. I really wish I had done so long before that, but I just wasn?t interested.


When I was in college working part time at a bank, I befriended a manager who was older than me by ten years, and married. We often went out drinking after work nor Friday nights, and he tried to get into my pants repeatedly. He was obviously active with men at the time. I resisted because I wasn?t interested at the time. I did have a drunken threesome with him and his wife my senior year. During that encounter, she tried to force me to suck his cock so she could watch. She thought we were already an item at that point.


Crazy me I resisted. I wouldn?t hesitate at all now.


He eventually separated from his wife.


My girlfriend throughout most of my college years also thought we were an item, but didn?t seem phased about it at all when she mentioned it one night. A very open minded women for back then, I must say.


So, ten years later, I finally succumbed to me friends advances. I had moved away, and returned to the area. I moved into an apartment, and had very little furniture. He was coming over one Friday night, and dinner, wine, and pot were on the menu. Sex between us was also on the menu, but I wasn?t ready to admit that yet.


He was going to spend the night, so we would be sleeping together since there were no other accommodations. I knew from all our explicit conversations, that he had a strong fetish for men wearing white Calvin Klein briefs.


When we eventually got undressed, and crawled int bed, I was wearing white Calvin Klein briefs. I hadn?t planned to have sex with him that night, but on a subconscious level, I guess I was ready, and wanted it.


In no time at all, he slipped off my briefs, and proceeded to start sucking my cock. Wow, he was good. I was excited, nervous, aroused, but offered no resistance. I ended up being his ?pillow princess? that night, and he sucked me off in the middle of the night, and first thing in the morning before he left as well. Three times he sucked me off from that sleepover.


He left, and we didn?t discuss what had happened.


I was a little uncomfortable about what had happened, so I called a woman I was seeing casually, took her out to dinner, then back to my apartment, and fucked her that night, and Sunday morning. So, I was good with my bisexuality at that point.


Then I made plans for another evening with him, expressly for the purpose of me reciprocating. It was on a week night so I wouldn?t necessarily have a female date option after.


I literally could not wait to get together with him again. I wanted to suck his cock. That was all I could think about in the days leading up to his return.


Same menu, same wardrobe, but this time I was the aggressor. This time I slipped off his white Calvin Klein briefs, and proceeded to suck his cock to climax.

Was, did I thoroughly enjoy sucking his cock. It was so enjoyable, addictive, satisfying, arousing, relaxing etc.

After, then he decides to ?talk? to me while we are naked in bed. Tells me I?m not straight, etc. I had no problem at all with that. I am bisexual, I'm a cocksucker, life is good.

Realizing I was bisexual was just so liberating for me at the time. I felt like I had lost my virginity a second time, and could have very enjoyable sexual encounters with a man or women.

So, we finally became an item for a while, sexually. I frequented gay bars and parties with him. We slept together as often as we could manage it. I had a boyfriend and I was dating my wife. When I got married, I
had no intention of giving up my relationship with him.

I loved him, and loved sucking his cock. I am so happy he helped me discover what a pleasure sex with a man is, and how enjoyable cocksucking is.

__PRESENT

[Happy Tongue]

Very nice story! Glad you feel so good about it and found your way...

[Roxxi]

I love sucking cock! I would literally do it all day and night if I could! I enjoy pleasuring men, knowing how good I am making them feel. The warm, creamy fresh load of cum straight from the pipe is a tremendous reward! For me, it is impossible to see a guys cock and not want to suck it. I used to feel guilty or ashamed about it, but many of the men that I've pleasured have made me feel more comfortable about it. Most return again at some point and want more, so I give it to them...or should I say, they give it to me!

[Jozyxt]

Realizing I was bisexual was just so liberating for me at the time.

It has been for me too.

While I still have very mixed feelings about cocksucking and MM sex, the desire to make a man cum in my mouth is very strong and simply cannot be ignored. I really would like to experience having a boyfriend with whom I could explore MM sex. And one where we could support each other as we work through the emotions And strange as it is for me to say it, maybe even fall in love.

[Road Warrior]

It has been for me too.

While I still have very mixed feelings about cocksucking and MM sex, the desire to make a man cum in my mouth is very strong and simply cannot be ignored. I really would like to experience having a boyfriend with whom I could explore MM sex. And one where we could support each other as we work through the emotions And strange as it is for me to say it, maybe even fall in love.

I've had a few "boyfriends" in my time, where yes, I actually did fall in love. They were in conjunction with my "straight" life however, so I have never had an "exclusive" relationship with a man, which I do regret. I have wondered if I could have been totally open with friends and family if I had a an ongoing relationship with a man and admit my bisexuality.....

For me, the sex is more intense and enjoyable when there are strong emotions attached to it. I have thoroughly loved sucking my various "boyfriends" off, then snuggling with them after. I do enjoy being submissive, sucking cock, then feeling warmth and affection after........__PRESENT

[Jozyxt]

For me, the sex is more intense and enjoyable when there are strong emotions attached to it. I have thoroughly loved sucking my various "boyfriends" off, then snuggling with them after.

Strong emotions are the key to great sex for me. The problem is that afterwards, I have a hard time with the snuggling thing. I just rever to unemotional guy mode and pretend it never happened. That is the mixed feeling and what I'd like to have a friend to help me overcome. My only regular so far is a work from home guy whose wife also works from home, so our trysts are very time limited, blow and go kind of things. No time to cuddle and talk before cumming and he leaves instantly.

When i visit self described cocksuckers, it is blow and go for me. But many men like that so they can be alone to savor the experience.

[RisingBi]

It took me a very long time to come to terms with being a cocksucker. And I believe a lot of that struggle was unconscious, with some internalized homophobia at play. For me, it seems most of all my gay desires for decades arose whenever I was rejected by a woman. It first manifested when my first girlfriend broke up with me at 30 after a three-year relationship, shattering my heart (we had been talking marriage). It seemed the rejections before that going all the way back to grade school weren't strong enough, but that break up was. After that break up, I couldn't stop thinking about sucking a cock, and fantasizing about and watching porn involving all kinds of different gay sex.

The first few times sucking a cock felt really surreal, and I didn't know what to feel. As I continued dating women and being rejected after mostly the first, sometimes second, and a couple of times third date, without even any kissing, gay desires would explode in me, leading to lots of masturbation to gay porn, and eventually driving me out to suck anonymous cock in different gay sex venues. But the big problem was that every time I was naked in front of a real guy, all my gay desires for sucking and fucking disappeared. I still sucked his cock out of politeness, and even feigned lots of desire and passion for his cock. And I also never felt anything anal for a real guy in person. But back at home all the gay desires came back for sucking and fucking, until they drove me out again to suck cock, only to be disappointed in my own desires yet again. But there were half a dozen exceptions, where I kept all my powerful gay oral desires for the guy I was sucking (but I still never had any anal feelings, except at home in my fantasies). But those handful of occasions when I enjoyed cocksucking were rare, like 6 out of more than 200 cocks that I had sucked in those first 21 years.

I didn't know what to make of it. There was some kind of weird cognitive dissonance happening, with lots of gay desires at home, but rarely in person. But at the end of those 21 years of only cocksucking, 8 years ago in 2013, I had great lust for this guy's ass in a bathhouse in Berlin, far away from my home in Canada. In fact, I'm wondering if that great distance is what finally allowed my unconscious to free my gay desires for another man in person, because I went absolutely crazy with uncontrolled desire for this man's ass, tonguefucking his beautiful asshole for more than an hour before finally giving in to his screaming pleas to fuck him, which I did. I can't tell you how much I enjoyed rimming and fucking this man. This was the moment when I finally accepted my bisexuality, and even loved it and was proud of it. I was finally in touch with the gay side of myself, and finally came to terms with me sucking cocks, and even rimming and fucking guys, and loving it.

After that I stopped all anonymous gay sex and I've just been getting together with guys in each other's homes. I have loved sucking guys' cocks in every single one of these visits since my gay awakening. And I have very much loved rimming guys' incredible assholes, and I've almost fucked again a number of times. But then I fell in love with a woman in 2016, and had my second girlfriend in my life, and stopped all the gay hookups. But since breaking up with her just before the pandemic hit, I'm raring to go with exploring my even stronger gay side, in even a stronger way than ever before. That very rocky and challenging relationship left me with no desire to be with a woman again, not for now. I just want to suck, rim, and fuck guys, and be sucked, rimmed, and fucked by them.

Now, that's been my own personal journey. Everyone is different. And everyone feels differently, which I'm totally okay with. As discussed in this thread, some people enjoy giving up their masculine, controlling state for a while and just submit to another strong man, and even be humiliated by him, and be the perfect cocksucker. And that's totally fine, and I can happily give that experience to them. Others, like myself, just feel everything about gay sex to be the ultimate in masculinity. Yes, so far I've only topped a guy in rimming and fucking, though I want to lose my bottom virginity very soon. So I'm not completely sure about the sole masculinity aspect, but that's what I currently feel. At this point anyway, I just feel that there can't be anything more manly than having sex with another man--sucking or fucking.

Unlike KDaddy, I'm also a big cock worshiper. I think the majority of bi and gay guys are the same. The phallos is the epitome of masculinity, and we bow to its beauty and magnificence. The erect penis is the embodiment of power, and we worship that, and want to consume that, make it part of us. Unlike the majority of women, bi and gay cocksuckers worship the cock as the most beautiful thing in the universe. I certainly do. Understanding this relationship I have to the phallos (erect cock) and its archetype has helped me come to terms with my love of cocksucking, and my desire to get it deep inside of me, breeding my bowels.

But I don't consider myself a "cocksucker": I don't identify with that term. Even though I worship the cock as an independent, godlike entity, ever since getting in deeper touch with the gay part of myself, the fact that the cock is attached to the rest of a guy is part of its allure. I love everything about the idea of homosexuality, even though I have not allowed myself to experience all facets of it yet. I think two men making love with each other, or two women making love with each other, is a beautiful thing in this universe. It's a big thing for me. But I'm not a cocksucker; I'm a bi man who loves sucking a guy's cock, and having every other kind of sex with him, to really connect with another man, to feel intimacy with masculinity (even if he's expressing femininity because of his own predilections, he is still very much another man to me, and having sex with him is what it's all about for me). I also hate when other guys call a guy's asshole a "pussy". To me, a guy's asshole is one of the greatest things in the universe: it's a male asshole, something I love to devour and make love to. But each to his own.

I'm not totally there yet with the coming to terms process, though. I almost never have any desire for a guy on the street in every day life, though that's gradually changing as I accept more and more of the gay part of myself. And I still haven't had any romantic feelings for another guy, though I'm not against that idea for myself. I fantasize about falling in love with a guy, and even having a boyfriend or husband. Even one time within those last 8 years, before meeting my ex-girlfriend, I was actually kind of dating this one guy, going out on dinner dates at restaurants, or with him cooking for me, having mind-blowing sex, and even cuddling on the sofa in front of a television with him. We had so many phenomenal conversations, and he was a super nice guy, and I actually liked him a lot, as a friend, with benefits. But he had recently come out to his wife and family as gay, and divorced his wife, and was looking for gay love. Even though I desperately wished that I had romantic feelings for him, I didn't; so we drifted apart.

Because I know I've had issues with internalized homophobia and suppression of the gay part of myself in the past, preventing me from desiring cocksucking in person, outside of my fantasies, until I had that profound experience of intimacy with another man when I finally had intercourse, I suspect it may be continuing to happen in preventing my gay feelings to arise and be present in the apparent straight world I'm part of (out on the street, at work, around family, friends, and acquaintances, etc.), let alone allowing romantic feelings for a man to arise. Perhaps if this pandemic can stop, so that many of these local guys unable to go through with hooking up with me will do so, and I get some really good continuing sexual experiences with men, I will begin to allow more and more of the gay part of me to stop being suppressed. So, no, I don't believe I am yet fully in terms with my bisexuality.

[LowkeyBreeze318]

Although I haven?t done it in a very long time, the thought of me sucking cock still not only sticks with me but attracts me, I?ve learned to have fun with the idea whether I eventually do it again or not.

[CdnBadBoy]

Amen brother. Self acceptance of the need and desire to suck cock is so important, even if you keep it closeted. I'm still closeted, so have to be very discrete, but love exchanging blowjobs with other cocksuckers, especially closeted guys, because we understand each other. The confusion evaporated once I accepted this wasn't just a thing I had to try or a phase. I am a cocksucker, and will continue to suck when I have the chance, because I enjoy it. Here's to much cocksucking fun for all in 2024!

Coming to terms about being a cocksucker is... not all that easy to accept. I can remember all of the times when someone would call me a cocksucker - either in jest or out of anger - and I'd get seriously pissed off until one day, someone called me a cocksucker and before I could smite them with my ire I said to myself, "I don't know why you're getting pissed because you are a cocksucker..."

Shit. I am. Now, I can't honestly say that I'm a submissive cocksucker or that it, in any way, makes me feel "less than a man" or less of myself. I love doing it. It make me feel good to do it even though some guys just make it a pain in the ass to blow them. Is it my life's purpose to be a cocksucker? Perhaps when I consider that part of my purpose in life is to have sex and whether it's being dick deep in a woman... or sucking a guy's dick and coaxing him seed out of him because it's such a fun thing to do; quite the ego trip, too. "Nasty" in that way the the rules against this have been thrown away because they can - and should - be thrown away and, besides, not a lot of guys give a shit about the rules to begin with because being a cocksucker really isn't a bad thing to be.

Now, it's one thing to think of yourself as a cocksucker and/or that you'd be a good one... but you still have to actually do it and, sadly, some guys just can't or, just as sadly, some guys come up with every excuse under the sun for why they can't when, in actuality, it's not really all that difficult... unless you've made it difficult. Being in the closet isn't really an "excuse;" you put yourself in that closet and you can take yourself out of it... if you wanted to and, yes, if other factors would allow it, like being married and other such reasons for never opening the closet door so you can be the cocksucker you've dreamed about being. I know what it's like to suck dick and getting him to cum; the only thing better to me than sucking dick is eating pussy - and neither thing is without their own risks and problems. It's one thing to be a cocksucker... it's something entirely different to be fearless about being one. Not careless. Fearless. Knowing that you could get outed for it and face some shit and it might not be good but that fear being tempered by the fact that you did what you wanted and needed to do and at the end of any day, that's all that really matters. Knowing that homey might not be as healthy as he claims or thinks he is... and being smart enough to either cover the dick up to avoid that issue... or just saying no and keep it moving and looking for the guy you can say yes to so you can be the cocksucker you know yourself to be.

Because, bluntly, if you don't ever do it, can you really call yourself a cocksucker? What's it like to have that rush all of the time? It feels pretty good. I'm sure there are those who would see this as being... unhealthy as a "way of life" kind of thing although we acknowledge that having sex is quite healthy for both mind and body. Still, you're the one who gets to decide if it's healthy for you or not and I've been of a mind that if there's a time when I don't or didn't want to suck dick, something's not right with me and whatever that is probably isn't all that healthy for me. I'm a cocksucker. I will, if you let me, slake my lust upon you because, um, it's fun. It's sex. It'll be even better if you're a cocksucker, too, because I like guys who are more than I do guy who aren't. I'm old school in that this is a pleasure to be shared but, okay, if it make you happy to not reciprocate and your joy is to suck me until I cum, that can work... but don't get all bent when I tell you that I want to be the cocksucker I know I am and show you how good I am at it. Is it better to give than receive? I never thought so but that's me. It's better to give and receive because male cocksuckers are pretty awesome and dedicated to sucking that nut out of you because it doesn't make sense not to.

I'm a cocksucker... but I don't worship dick. I suck dick. I empty balls. Don't much care if a guy is masculine or feminine but what I do care about is whether or not they want their dick sucked and, yep, if they're gonna suck mine. A hard thing for me to accept when I had to accept it but it is the truth of what I am. The worst thing a guy can do is to give me a reason not to suck their dick. Otherwise, let's get naked and suck each other until we can't get it up anymore... because it's fun and it's what cocksuckers do.

[elian2]

I have mixed feelings about it. If the guy's not a jerk I'm pretty happy sucking.. Doesn't necessarily mean you are being submissive either, unless you really want to be. There is nothing wrong with wanting to share pleasure ..

[Tommi6969]

Finally coming out to myself after repressing my desire since teen years-
im gay and cd and will always crave cock
i love it

[julyguybill]

Years back I in need of relief so i went to a place where I could receive a blow job. I was married but fighting
,with wife all the time Anyway i afterwards felt shame. I had been brought up that sex with men was wrong and bad.
After a few weeks i did it again .I went over and over always feeling bad afterwards but needing to cum i finally one afternoon
Sucked myfirst. cock and loved it. Now a new me had evolved. I was a cock sucker. I sucked guys often swallowed most times.
Next i began to want and suck multiple guys each time and love it. .i was supposed to be ashamed of these actions but no longer
was. I needed it wanted itso have been giving and receiving. many years.I am in the closet. I will want and suck guys when I can .. I am p happy to be a cock sucker .

[jjourneyman]

People tend to overthink sex. It's not complicated. We all have an innate desire to be pleased and to please. The most fascinating thing I've learned is that when you have another man's cock in your mouth, you are in control. Yes... you desire the pleasure of being given the opportunity suck his cock, but you also have a responsibility to give pleasure.

The moment he puts his penis in your mouth, there is trust. He is literally trusting you with his life, and you are trusting that he will reward you with a mouth full of cum. It's a lesson that we all learn.

[elian2]

People tend to overthink sex. It's not complicated. We all have an innate desire to be pleased and to please. The most fascinating thing I've learned is that when you have another man's cock in your mouth, you are in control. Yes... you desire the pleasure of being given the opportunity suck his cock, but you also have a responsibility to give pleasure.

The moment he puts his penis in your mouth, there is trust. He is literally trusting you with his life, and you are trusting that he will reward you with a mouth full of cum. It's a lesson that we all learn.

Darn I wish there was a like button on here. Exactly this.

[dicktrobing]

For me its not complicated, I enjoy sex with people sucking cock is just part of the sex act, and is something I enjoy doing; so there was not cuming to terms with it for me

[stephmtl]

I am constantly thinking about this. I am pretty closeted but am to indulge from time to time. I really enjoy cock sucking most but it is something I am "dealing" with because I must be closeted. I m not homophobic or bi-phobic but I realize I'm colouring outside the lines by indulging in this. Cheating. Doesn't feel good. But it also - often - keeps me less stress3d as a husband and father. A surprise to me. But it seems to be balancing out. This is not what I was thinking the life balance would be for me but there it is. I cant NOT do it. I am so very turned on by the feeling of submitting to having a penis in my mouth. It feels like a submission to let this guy pump in your mouth. very hot.

[Tag200]

I am constantly thinking about this. I am pretty closeted but am to indulge from time to time. I really enjoy cock sucking most but it is something I am "dealing" with because I must be closeted. I m not homophobic or bi-phobic but I realize I'm colouring outside the lines by indulging in this. Cheating. Doesn't feel good. But it also - often - keeps me less stress3d as a husband and father. A surprise to me. But it seems to be balancing out. This is not what I was thinking the life balance would be for me but there it is. I cant NOT do it. I am so very turned on by the feeling of submitting to having a penis in my mouth. It feels like a submission to let this guy pump in your mouth. very hot.

I hope that cock sucking helps me with balance and my stress . I think about it a lot these days and have some plans to try sucking again this month

[Cuck2023]

Took me a long time to admit to myself that I’m a cocksucker. Life was much easier once I did. Admitting it to myself also helped with the urge to suck, at least to some degree. I’m not out about it other than to wife and men I have been with but also wouldn’t try to hide it I was found out. Having a hard cock in my mouth and his hand on the back of my head feels like a natural place for me to be.

[camelblue]

I think every guy has a masculine and feminine side of him. My feminine side used to bother me, the feeling of being weak, submissive, not assertive. It can be a source of frustration and self-hate and make you feel depressed if you treat it as a negative thing. When I realized I was a cocksucker, it gave me an outlet for these negative or "feminine" qualities in me and turned them into positive things. All of these things that I saw as shortcomings as a man, are strengths as a cocksucker. All of those things that I'm missing are filled by another man's masculine energy to complete me. I want to be submissive, I want to take orders, I want to feel like I'm not in control. I want the warmth and comfort of somebody making the decisions for me, telling me what to do, making me do something and I just have to go along with it. Sucking cock as an activity rewards these feelings with pleasure and satisfaction. As a man, sucking cock sometimes feels degrading and that I'm inferior, but as a cocksucker, I feel empowered because these are the traits I need to pleasure a man well. Feeling his hand on the back of my head pushing me towards his dick because he needs something from me would anger a real man, but it sends tingles down my spine and because I'm a cocksucker, I get aroused and turned on by this energy controlling me.

There are only two roles: the man that gets his dick sucked and the one that sucks it. When both men know their roles deeply, it is a harmonious and bonding act. I've accepted my role as the cocksucker. It's just like being on a sports team, when all the guys know their roles and accept them, they are successful. Respecting who the leader is and playing your role brings you happiness and peace. When it comes to men, the symbolic "alpha male" is my leader. He's the one with the bigger dick, the more assertive personality, the selfish confidence of being a man and getting what he wants from life. That's not me, and that's ok. I don't need to compete with a man like this, I'll never win. I admire his masculine energy, but I don't need to have it myself. I'm comfortable to just be near and around it, it's intoxicating to feel him channel that energy and direct it towards me. That's the closest I'll be to him and that's fine, because it's my role.

A man has to do manly things to be brave and feel proud of himself. As a cocksucker, I have my own bravery. I feel brave to let a man use me, to let him push his cock down my throat until there's tears in my eyes and I'm gagging. To feel his thick dick slapped all over my face and beating me up. To obey his orders and feel like I have no choice. I feel brave when I open my mouth for him with a mixed feeling of fear and excitement, but ultimately I commit and let him blow a big load of his sperm in my mouth. In life, men often experience the peer pressure feeling of "don't be a pussy!" to do something outside of their comfort zone. Maybe that's jumping into a freezing pool, or skydiving, or winning a fight. I can't get myself to do those things. But I enjoy being with dominant alpha men that give me that same feeling when I'm sucking cock, especially when they're going to cum. Knowing that they are forcing me to do something so filthy, to empty the sperm from their sack into my mouth, challenging me to man up and be brave. I personally love when he shoots a thick and salty load, maybe even a bit bitter sometimes. A load with a heaviness and strong taste to it. What's more important is feeling the energy that he is totally in control and that I feel the peer pressure of not "being a pussy." I get turned on by the mixed feelings and anxiety about swallowing it all. The feeling of pushing through and eating it all ultimately gives me immense satisfaction and I feel proud that I was able to do it.


I understand that some cocksuckers feel like the dominant one in the act and that they are taking something from a man for themselves, but I enjoy the feeling of being the receiver and being given something by him. That's just my relationship with why I suck.

[Cforme]

I,don?t advertise it, but I?m comfortable being a cocksucker. I comfortable in my own skin and my masculinity. The fact in enjoy sucking cock doesn?t take away from that. It?s just another part of sex I really enjoy

You share my own feelings exactly. I enjoy sex? simple as that. I put no labels on any of it. I love a woman?s body and can immerse myself in every single act of pleasure imaginable. That seems to be a comfortable area for everyone. But also, I find eroticism in being with another male, and enjoying every aspect of sex as well. Masculine Feminine? labels. To really enjoy another person open to just doing what we all know feels so wonderful? Pussy, cock, ass, tits, kissing, anal, embracing, all are amazing! I?ll go down on a woman and for me it?s bliss! Having her pull my head so that I don?t stop until she cums over and over? that?s what dreams are made of. Do the same on a cock, enjoying every inch, enjoying the head of a cock in my mouth while feeling him writhing and then shooting into my mouth or on my face, oh that is true joy. For me, it?s a shame to waste so much pleasure and excitement over? a label. I?m happy to be the open person I am.

[licyou69]

I'm completely comfortable with being a cocksucker in my private life. If someone wants to say I'm not coming to terms with being a cocksucker because I don't tell everybody about my private sexual life, so be it. I enjoy getting on my knees and giving myself to a man to use for his sexual pleasure. It's an incredible thrill, and there's no reason for anyone to know that, except for me and the guy who's cum I'm swallowing.

[stephmtl]

...But I enjoy being with dominant alpha men that give me that same feeling when I'm sucking cock, especially when they're going to cum. Knowing that they are forcing me to do something so filthy, to empty the sperm from their sack into my mouth, challenging me to man up and be brave. I personally love when he shoots a thick and salty load, maybe even a bit bitter sometimes. A load with a heaviness and strong taste to it. What's more important is feeling the energy that he is totally in control and that I feel the peer pressure of not "being a pussy." I get turned on by the mixed feelings and anxiety about swallowing it all. The feeling of pushing through and eating it all ultimately gives me immense satisfaction and I feel proud that I was able to do it.


I understand that some cocksuckers feel like the dominant one in the act and that they are taking something from a man for themselves, but I enjoy the feeling of being the receiver and being given something by him. That's just my relationship with why I suck.

very hot. articulates very well my feelings exactly. thanks for this thread/read!

[Justaguy325]

Coming to terms that I am a cocksucker was a slow process. I had started secretly admiring and envying other better equipped guys but never took any action on it. Later, during the last years of being a teenager and finally experiencing the delights of the opposite sex, I continued to envy guys who had a definite impact on all the pretty young ladies! What was their magnetism about? Then during a couple early relationships, I noticed my gfs lose interest in what I could not get enough of and graviate, openly or secretly, to other men. It bothered me of course, but also intrigued me. I was asking myself why I was not extremely mad at the other guy, but at the same time accepted it as a given. Some guys have it, what exactly, I did not know. By this time, I had been introduced on a lark by a buddy to porn shops with booths. I responded appropriately by saying it was disgusting, but somehow knew I would venture back on my own. Venturing back found me dressing skimpy, tiny shorts that were appropriate back then, T-shirt, shoes, nothing else. I enjoyed stripping off in the booths, in private and stealing glances into the adjacent booth if I could. Wow. First I saw one, then another guy. They easily dwarfed my 3.25 inch hard on. I was intrigued. My adventures and curiosity also took me to the adult theaters that still existed back then. Oh my god. What were some of the guys doing? I could not believe it. I stayed away from the back walls or other active areas, but could not help notice how well endowed some guys were. Enjoying my foreplay, I was sitting very much alone and isolated from the others fully naked, except for shoes (yuck), when a true experienced gentleman introduced me to the world of cock sucking. He sat one seat over from me, which petrified me. How could I hide being naked? His eyes would adjust eventually. Long story short, he approached me patiently, stroking me, getting me very very hard, then stopped, unzipped, got me interested in him, and gently and patiently had me sucking him in short time, till he emptied into my mouth. The whole time I was asking myself if I was ok with sucking cock and well, from that day on, I love pleasuring bigger men, especially if they mention it!

[gmansam]

I don't think there is any "coming to terms" about it. Once you do you know.

[elian2]

Knowing and accepting are two different things. I fought myself like crazy for the first 20+ years, I HATED what hormones did to me, and I hated myself because of it. I still had no choice, you can choose not to have sex, but it's a lot harder to "choose" who you fall in love with.

People who NEED rigid rules in their life HATE the idea of gender flexibility but it's such a relief to me to know that young people these days are at least able to TALK about it .. maybe they won't have to WASTE all the time and energy I did.

I spent a bit of time chastising dickhead trolls on Quora .. all those guys who like "the good old days"

Like where were you when all this happened to me? You didn't even know about it because we all deny it even exists? Moral purity bullshit. The "good old days" may have been simpler if you think it's okay to fuck anything with a skirt but not all of us fit into that category. Maybe simpler, not all that good. So many people confuse "Ozzy and Harriet" sitcoms on TV with real life.