My First Bi Experiences

[Huey1N]

So, this might not be interesting to anyone, but I've never really "come out" as bi to anyone. Been watching a lot of porn while being cooped up and of course gravitated towards guy on guy stuff. It's gotten me to reminiscing about the few times I've had any bi experiences and how much I'm longing to go further with it.

Anyway, the first time I knew I liked both boys and girls was when I was a sophomore in high school. Me and 3 of my friends pulled out our dicks one day to compare sizes. I got a little interested in one of them in particular and tried to take it further with him. I would jerk off in front of him and beg him to let me suck his dick (but he never let me). Sometimes I'd take all my clothes off and put my sisters panty hose on and rub up against him, or straddle him while he sat in a chair. The one time we tried to fuck each other, it hurt too much to go very far. Kind of a let down. That ended once we weren't in high school anymore.

The next time was also in high school. I was probably a junior. I went to an older friend of the families lake house. He was in his 50's at the time. We went skinny dipping in the lake. Next thing I knew we were in the house still naked and he started jerking me off. I asked him to fuck me but he was kind of drunk (and a little on the heavy side) and said he didn't think he could get it up enough for that. So I jerked off and then he used my cum as lube to jerk off. Nothing ever happened again with him, but I wish I had had the presence of mind to suck his dick.

A few years ago (I'm almost 40) I went to a bath house in Edinburgh but nothing happened there. Wasn't much going on and didn't care for the few guys that were there. I just ended up jerking off on the floor.

Anyway, that feels kinda good to get out. Hopefully I get to experience the joys of anal and dick sucking one day.

[RisingBi]

Thank you so much for sharing, Huey. That's what I like about forums like this: you get to be your true honest self, and know that you won't be negatively judged, especially because we all share the same likes in general, cock & pussy.

I understand what you mean when you say you went to a bathhouse and didn't really feel it with anyone there. I've gone to bathhouses and other gay sex venues a lot, and many times I didn't feel it with any of the guys there. I just have to have the right chemistry with a guy. My gay fantasies and my lust for gay porn is just much stronger than my feelings when I'm naked with another guy or guys--with a few extraordinary exceptions. Some of those I've written about in other threads, and will write about in future threads.

My first guy was my best friend from across the street while I was growing up; we played around orally and anally from 8 to 13 years of age, but I always chalked it up to prepubescent and adolescent exploration. But when my first girlfriend ever dumped me after three years when I was 32 years old, I started having gay fantasies and enjoying gay porn, A LOT! My lust eventually drove me out to look for cock, and the first time was in a three level porn theater, with the top level being gay. I touched my first adult cock sitting next to a guy on a bench, and we sucked each other's cock. It was so exciting! But when he invited me to go home with him, I was too chicken. But still, I couldn't believe what had just happened and how exciting, and scary, it was.

Fast forward 100 cocks and 20 years later, in 2013, and I finally lost my gay virginity, as a top. Tonguefucking and cockfucking my first man was the most incredible sexual experience of my life, and changed everything for me. From then on there was no more anonymous sex in the sex venues, which is all that I had done up until then (except for one exception meeting a guy in the showers at a Y once, and, after having dinner together, ending back at my apartment). But after putting my cock deep inside another man for the first time, I started hooking up with guys in each other's homes, and my desire for them was much more, in fact very passionate with some of them. I still have never had any romantic feelings for a guy. But I'm not ruling it out someday, since I do fantasize about it a lot. But as I've come to learn throughout these 25+ years of sex with men, fantasy and reality is a lot different.

But it then stopped when I fell in love with my second girlfriend in 2016, but we just broke up in December 2019. So just as I was getting ready to get out there again and hook up with men again (my gay feelings have blasted to the surface again), the pandemic struck. So now all of us single guys just have to wait and ride this out. We still have our right hand though, unless you're a lefty, and the gay part of our brain and imagination, to find some sexual enjoyment. And we have forums like this to talk about our fantasies and experiences in order to grease the wheels, so to speak, lol, and better understand our feelings and who we are.

By the way, outside of the LGBTQ community, I'm only out to my two therapists, my ex-girlfriend, and, unfortunately, 2-3 other women she has told, including a friend of mine. So for the most part I consider myself in the closet. But I have no plans of ever coming out to my family and any other friends, unless I actually fall in love with another man and we become boyfriends. But, as I've said, I doubt that will ever happen, despite my fantasizing about it a lot.

[Tight1-4u]

if I might give you a few words of advice.. get your self some toys of different sizes and start small.. use lots and lots of lube.. start using it on yourself.. get used to relaxing on them till it is easy to get it in, then move up till you find the real thing then it won’t be painful and you will enjoy it a lot more!!

[querty]

if I might give you a few words of advice.. get your self some toys of different sizes and start small.. use lots and lots of lube.. start using it on yourself.. get used to relaxing on them till it is easy to get it in, then move up till you find the real thing then it won’t be painful and you will enjoy it a lot more!!

This is good advice, and now's a good time since we are all trapped inside. My first anal experience was incredibly erotic. Forced, but not. And incredibly painful. It would have been so much nicer had I had any type of preparation or practice to know what to expect.

I'm waiting for this whole shitstorm to blow over so my buddy and I can get together. He wants to dress me in his wife's clothes, panties, etc and the main event I hope is fucks me missionary with him sliding in and out deeply.

Now that said, and to stay on topic of this thread my first memory of being interested in guys was around 12. My brother, one year older than me, and I shared a room. I woke up one night with a hard on ( of course) and saw he was asleep or pretending to be, on his back with a beautiful hardon. I really wanted to go over and play with it, but was too intimidated. Probably a good thing, I think he would have freaked

[SilkyHoseLover]

He wants to dress me in his wife's clothes, panties, etc and the main event I hope is fucks me missionary with him sliding in and out deeply.

Mmmmmmm... wishing you well on this -- lucky!!!

[Huey1N]

Yeah, I've been doing that. I'm ready for the real thing. I wanna find someone who I can have as a regular, as I want to do bareback really badly. The thought of someone cumming inside me just drives me crazy.

[Huey1N]

if I might give you a few words of advice.. get your self some toys of different sizes and start small.. use lots and lots of lube.. start using it on yourself.. get used to relaxing on them till it is easy to get it in, then move up till you find the real thing then it won’t be painful and you will enjoy it a lot more!!

Yeah, I've been doing that. I'm ready for the real thing. I wanna find someone who I can have as a regular, as I want to do bareback really badly. The thought of someone cumming inside me just drives me crazy.