Emotional Masochist
Apr 10, 2010, 3:31 AM
So this is simply going to be a rnadom spin of bullshit. Basically i am gging to spew whats going through my head at the moment so if it doesn't make any sense i apologize....hmm now that my warning has been given i will get on with it
.......hmmm so at 2:55 in da morning my mind seems blank.hehe
neways i was wondering something. I have been dating my girlfriend for 3 months now and well i love her. But fck i think i screwed up. lol well actually it makes me laugh when i think about it. Cause well i had decided to explore my sexuality and go out and see what the world was really like and then the next day get hooked up with the girl i've known half my life. seems like I failed without ever trying.lol Please no one tell her this she will kick my ass. its funny cause she knows I am bisexual. She is fully supportive, but well im a monogamous person. I don't cheat. cause well i am possessive and what i won't allow my partner to do i won't do....well except smoking. cause im trying to quit, but failing completely at the moment. Oh and smoking is bad. well anyways i was wondering if any one else has gone through something like this. its funny cause im not interested in anyone else. Well i do like to look. I mean you can't walk into a garden and not look at the flowers right. as long as you don't pic them you are fine.
hmmmm so i really shouldn't try and type something coherent when i'm tired. But you can really find some retarded sentences that you don't understand when you do. anyways. me is bored.hmmmm ppl if u have read dis so far i applaud your efffort.
So working to jobs is a stupid idea and if anyone else decides to do it jsut shoot yourselves now. Such a bad idea seriously. and well if you can, avoid helping your family at all costs. become a jack ass and forget dat dey even exist. it will make life so much easier. oh and credit cards are the tools of the devil. burn dem before u ever use dem. oh never piss of the pizza delivery boy... he knows were you live hehe.
Though seriously don't do more work in a day den you sleep. if you work an 8 hour shift make sure you can sleep at least 8 hours. doesn't matter if you do or not just make sure you can get that sleep if necessary. like fuck I am exhausted. i spend all week dreaming of sleep and when i finally can get some sleep i don't want it anymore. currently during the week i sleep about 3 hours a day(5 if i get a chance to nap in between jobs). I work two jobs where i get paid, and after my second job i help my parents out at their job fro two hours.....
Again seriously find a way to ignore your family when they need help. if you can just walk past a bleeding man begging for help you have succeeeded in life. cause if you can't you will forever suffer, and get pissed when you see sumone else do exactly that.Worst part is in life most people will look at both of you with the same eyes. the same respect. hell half the people in the world might even think your an idiot for eing so fucking tired and useless all the time. ARGGGGG sorry bout this little section this is mostly bout my personal family just needed to vent a little. please take care of your family even if they are idiots and should be able to tke care of themselves. if you can do something to help them out do it. just make sure you never over do it. cause at the end of the da they are going to be fine and you will be suffering.......
Credit cards ruin lives. im 21 and i shouldn't have to work like an idiot just to get back on my feet....though i will admit that most of my ddebt was not amde by me. I am the one who has to pay it off and well i knew it would happen.fuck.....again i am saying do not bail out other people when they are in trouble cause later on when you are working haad to get back all the resources you used to bail them out hey will sit back and laugh at u......
don;t piss of a delivery driver... ok so this is no from personal experience. it just clicked in my head when i was dealing ith an annoying customer. i was thinking as i lef fuck i shud kick his ass... n den it hit me fuck i know where this asshole lives... that just made me laugh just thought i would share that.
Umm so fuck usually i am a happy-go-lucky type of guy. one with no cares, no worries, no problems. i laugh it off. im usually very easy going, but well since i got my second job its gotten hard to be me. Seriously i snap at da most retarded moments. Im tired and cranky all the time.the littlest things set me off. buh well fuck i need the damn money so i have to work. its just frustrating listening to people complain to me bout being tired and not having enough money or time to do netin. and well i jus wish i could say welcome to my world.
ummmmm well dats all i can o for now my eyes are starting to close so umm thank you for reading my rant of stupidity. and well good night and god mmorning.
.......hmmm so at 2:55 in da morning my mind seems blank.hehe
neways i was wondering something. I have been dating my girlfriend for 3 months now and well i love her. But fck i think i screwed up. lol well actually it makes me laugh when i think about it. Cause well i had decided to explore my sexuality and go out and see what the world was really like and then the next day get hooked up with the girl i've known half my life. seems like I failed without ever trying.lol Please no one tell her this she will kick my ass. its funny cause she knows I am bisexual. She is fully supportive, but well im a monogamous person. I don't cheat. cause well i am possessive and what i won't allow my partner to do i won't do....well except smoking. cause im trying to quit, but failing completely at the moment. Oh and smoking is bad. well anyways i was wondering if any one else has gone through something like this. its funny cause im not interested in anyone else. Well i do like to look. I mean you can't walk into a garden and not look at the flowers right. as long as you don't pic them you are fine.
hmmmm so i really shouldn't try and type something coherent when i'm tired. But you can really find some retarded sentences that you don't understand when you do. anyways. me is bored.hmmmm ppl if u have read dis so far i applaud your efffort.
So working to jobs is a stupid idea and if anyone else decides to do it jsut shoot yourselves now. Such a bad idea seriously. and well if you can, avoid helping your family at all costs. become a jack ass and forget dat dey even exist. it will make life so much easier. oh and credit cards are the tools of the devil. burn dem before u ever use dem. oh never piss of the pizza delivery boy... he knows were you live hehe.
Though seriously don't do more work in a day den you sleep. if you work an 8 hour shift make sure you can sleep at least 8 hours. doesn't matter if you do or not just make sure you can get that sleep if necessary. like fuck I am exhausted. i spend all week dreaming of sleep and when i finally can get some sleep i don't want it anymore. currently during the week i sleep about 3 hours a day(5 if i get a chance to nap in between jobs). I work two jobs where i get paid, and after my second job i help my parents out at their job fro two hours.....
Again seriously find a way to ignore your family when they need help. if you can just walk past a bleeding man begging for help you have succeeeded in life. cause if you can't you will forever suffer, and get pissed when you see sumone else do exactly that.Worst part is in life most people will look at both of you with the same eyes. the same respect. hell half the people in the world might even think your an idiot for eing so fucking tired and useless all the time. ARGGGGG sorry bout this little section this is mostly bout my personal family just needed to vent a little. please take care of your family even if they are idiots and should be able to tke care of themselves. if you can do something to help them out do it. just make sure you never over do it. cause at the end of the da they are going to be fine and you will be suffering.......
Credit cards ruin lives. im 21 and i shouldn't have to work like an idiot just to get back on my feet....though i will admit that most of my ddebt was not amde by me. I am the one who has to pay it off and well i knew it would happen.fuck.....again i am saying do not bail out other people when they are in trouble cause later on when you are working haad to get back all the resources you used to bail them out hey will sit back and laugh at u......
don;t piss of a delivery driver... ok so this is no from personal experience. it just clicked in my head when i was dealing ith an annoying customer. i was thinking as i lef fuck i shud kick his ass... n den it hit me fuck i know where this asshole lives... that just made me laugh just thought i would share that.
Umm so fuck usually i am a happy-go-lucky type of guy. one with no cares, no worries, no problems. i laugh it off. im usually very easy going, but well since i got my second job its gotten hard to be me. Seriously i snap at da most retarded moments. Im tired and cranky all the time.the littlest things set me off. buh well fuck i need the damn money so i have to work. its just frustrating listening to people complain to me bout being tired and not having enough money or time to do netin. and well i jus wish i could say welcome to my world.
ummmmm well dats all i can o for now my eyes are starting to close so umm thank you for reading my rant of stupidity. and well good night and god mmorning.