Giggles100
Jan 11, 2010, 7:09 PM
It's too dark to see the look on his face. His motionless silhouette does nothing but break the glow from the street lamps outside.
Finally, he shuffles a little.
“It's your mothers birthday tomorrow. Your asking me to hold your hand, act happy and not walk away?”
“I know, I was going to tell you after but I just couldn't lie to you.”
Aaron sits up on the bed. I still can't see his face, I don't want to, I try to find comfort in the wall of shadows. I know this conversation is going to hurt.
“For Christ sake! You told me you wouldn't kiss another woman. You told me you could cope with one man In your life. And why did you take nearly 3 weeks to tell me anyway?”
“I wasn't” The explanation sounded shameful In my head. I should say something, communicate my feelings or decide. I eventually choose not to decide.
“Well you have to say something?”
“I was just caught up In the moment?”. Oh god! I didn't just say that.
“Oh that's great. What would you think If I kissed a girl and enjoyed the moment?”
“I dunno.”
Aaron climbs out of bed and hastily pulls his jeans and top on.
“You need to realise that while your out kissing girls I'v fallen In love with you! Make up your mind Stacey! I can't stick this for much longer!”
Aaron slams the door, treads efficiently down the hallway and out onto the pavement. I look out the window and watch his shadow walk towards Market Street to hail a taxi. I return to bed, pull the duvet over, curl up and sob myself to sleep.
Finally, he shuffles a little.
“It's your mothers birthday tomorrow. Your asking me to hold your hand, act happy and not walk away?”
“I know, I was going to tell you after but I just couldn't lie to you.”
Aaron sits up on the bed. I still can't see his face, I don't want to, I try to find comfort in the wall of shadows. I know this conversation is going to hurt.
“For Christ sake! You told me you wouldn't kiss another woman. You told me you could cope with one man In your life. And why did you take nearly 3 weeks to tell me anyway?”
“I wasn't” The explanation sounded shameful In my head. I should say something, communicate my feelings or decide. I eventually choose not to decide.
“Well you have to say something?”
“I was just caught up In the moment?”. Oh god! I didn't just say that.
“Oh that's great. What would you think If I kissed a girl and enjoyed the moment?”
“I dunno.”
Aaron climbs out of bed and hastily pulls his jeans and top on.
“You need to realise that while your out kissing girls I'v fallen In love with you! Make up your mind Stacey! I can't stick this for much longer!”
Aaron slams the door, treads efficiently down the hallway and out onto the pavement. I look out the window and watch his shadow walk towards Market Street to hail a taxi. I return to bed, pull the duvet over, curl up and sob myself to sleep.