marysueiowacd
Jan 6, 2010, 1:16 PM
It seems like it is all I think about. I only started doing this last yr but I have thought about it for many yrs. I have been married to a wonderful lady for over 30 yrs and don't want to lose her. I have only had about 3 experiences with other crossdressers. It was actually wonderful but I am pretty sure I don't want a gay life. Although an occasional thing would be nice.Even though I cheated on her I don't want to keep cheating. I do love her and know I need to stop this. I thought maybe these feelings would go away after I tried it a few times. Instead it seems my thoughts are always of sucking cock. Our love making is pretty vanillia and I have even offered to let her have a b/f but she declined. She did have an affair yrs a go. Thats another story. any input would be helpful take care.Please I do know it's wrong to cheat and I should talk to her about it but we have built a life together and I don't want to lose it all. Marysueiowacd
Realist
Jan 6, 2010, 2:49 PM
Well, you can't change who you are, but you can control what you do.
Your desires will probably always be with you; they may fluctuate up and down the scale, sometimes, but I think it's rare that they'll disappear altogether. Being married and keeping secrets is a recipe for disaster, too. I don't know your whole situation, but usually it ends in broken hearts and wounded feelings.
I ended a marriage in 2008 and although I never did cheat, the desire to be with a guy, now and then, was something that would catch me when I'd least expect it.
Each person has to do what they feel they must and that goes for you as well. Only you know what is right for you. Step back, look at the BIG PICTURE, then do what you must do...........but be prepared for the ramifications!
Giggles100
Jan 6, 2010, 2:56 PM
Two sentences stuck with me on this post...
"Our love making is pretty vanilla" and "she had an affair years ago".
Perhaps you need to focus on your marriage a little bit? Your thinking of cock because your intimate needs are not being met by the marriage in exactly the same way as a straight person might have an affair because a marriage has gone stale?
Just my 2 pence. Sometimes people tend to judge the symptoms without looking at the cause :cool:
I could be way off the mark though so feel free to call me a wally if I am (-: