Thanks everyone

[Confused4life]

I just wanted to take a moment to thank of all you who listen endlessly to my story and my broken heart. The census that I have gotten from most of you is that I need to tell her that I am in love with her. I wrote this to her never intending to share it with her...but it might help me to better explain to all of you how I feel for her. I fear telling her because I fear losing my best friend.

How do I know if I am in love?
How do I know if my feelings are real?
How do I deal with how I feel?
How do I deal with how you don’t feel?

How do I erase your breathtaking face
The face that haunts my thoughts and dreams
The face I so desperately long to touch, feel and see?

How do I block your beautiful voice
The voice that drives my pain
The voice that also cures my hurt?

How do I forget your passionate eyes
The eyes that are so deep and captivating
The eyes that I fall into with every look?

How do I banish all of the memories
The way I feel when you touch me
The way hearing you makes my heart jump
The way touching you sends shocks through my body
The way being near you makes my whole body shake
The way thinking about you brings a smile to my face
The way kissing you makes me so weak
The way seeing you leaves me so breathless?

How do I let go of how I feel for you when
The thought of telling you terrifies me because
The thought of losing you leaves me scared and
The thought of losing your friendship further breaks my heart?

Thanks again to you all for your patience with my stubborness.

[Flounder1967]

Confused,
We all enjoy your presence and don't think twice that you were or are any type of burdon. We enjoy hearing from you like to hearof your problems.

[arana]

She's your best friend and you've shared many things. I can understand how that fear of losing her would scare the crap out of you, I know it would me. It would devastate me to lose my best friend because of complications from love. But you also risk the loss of a greater love if you don't tell her. Give her the poem and see how it goes. Best of luck to you sweetie.

[Mrs.F]

Hi Confused,
I had NO problems listening to you at all. Isn't that why we are all here?? To vent and talk and listen and be there for each other??? :)

Your poem is beautiful and you know I have told you before, that I think you should give it to her. And I agree with arana. You may be risking a greater love by not telling her how you feel.

Take care and good luck.. :bigrin:

Mrs.F :)

[ErosUrge]

Confused4Life,
How well your poem captures all that is of loving so deep and being entranced by the beloved. How well I remember these things and if I may open to everyone here somewhat...... this is the reason I am certain that I have avoided seeking anything serious with anyone else since the last time I was so in love. It's powerful and potent and damned right it's scary! But the beauty of it is that it does tell you you're vibrantly alive. It's a wonderful topsy turvy feeling and of course quite intoxicating. Though I've never felt this way for the same sex since my sexual experiences with males have always been sexual and my friendships have been friendships, I certainly have felt your feelings with the opposite sex. Still, even if I did feel this way for a male, it comes down to something that transcends what sex we are and yet incorporates it as well. It's sweet and bitter at the same time....it is what it is.....hang in there, there are many of us with you from here.

[smurf111978]

Hi Confused

I hope the talks we have had helped a little, any time I can help or you need to talk I am always here for you sweetie. I loved your poem its very powerful and emotive. I have been listening alot recently to Katie Melua's music, she has a stunning voice and her music and lyrics sum up many of the sentiments I have felt towards some one over recent months, who I also cant have.


"Piece By Piece"

First of all must go
Your scent upon my pillow
And then I'll say goodbye
to your whispers in my dreams.
And then our lips will part
In my mind and in my heart,
Cos your kiss
Went deeper than my skin.

Piece by piece
is how I'll let go of you
Kiss by kiss
Will leave my mind one at a time
One at a time

First of all must fly,
My dreams of you and I,
There's no point of holding on to those
And then our ties will break,
For your and my own sake,
Just remember,
This is what you chose

Piece by piece
Is how I'll let go of you
Kiss by kiss,
will leave my mind one at a time
One at a time

I'll shed like skin,
Our memories of lazy days,
And fade away the shadow of your face

Piece by piece
Is how I'll let go of you
Kiss by kiss,
Will leave my mind one at a time
One at a time
One at a time
One at a time


"The Closest Thing To Crazy"

How can I think I'm standing strong,
Yet feel the air beneath my feet?
How can happiness feel so wrong?
How can misery feel so sweet?
How can you let me watch you sleep,
Then break my dreams the way you do?
How can I have got in so deep?
Why did I fall in love with you?

[CHORUS:]
This is the closest thing to crazy I have ever been
Feeling twenty-two, acting seventeen,
This is the nearest thing to crazy I have ever known,
I was never crazy on my own...
And now I know that there's a link between the two,
Being close to craziness and being close to you.

How can you make me fall apart
Then break my fall with loving lies?
It's so easy to break a heart;
It's so easy to close your eyes.
How can you treat me like a child
Yet like a child I yearn for you?
How can anyone feel so wild?
How can anyone feel so blue?

[CHORUS]


If you like the lyrics let me know ill send you a email with mp3 of the songs