So utterly lost, aren't we all?

[EllieRaven]

Hello!

I just joined this site approximately, ohh 20 minutes ago, if that. I'm desperately trying to figure my life out. I've come to terms that I am most definitely attracted to women, however, I'm stuck in a pickle as they call it. I already have a son who's two. My relationships with men fall apart at the clutches of my hands and I can't figure out where I belong, who i'm supposed to be and what I'm doing. Isn't that the great life question? I have been the girl to "have fun" with other girls but never take it seriously, now that i'm thinking about how I've never truly felt complete in a relationship with a man, i'm thinking more along the lines that maybe I should advance and see where the cookie crumbles? What do I have to lose? I'm just a jumble of mess, so i figured somewhere in this forum there has to be atleast one person who can give me advice and encourage or even tell me that maybe it's all in my head?! I just am on the brink of figuring out who I am which means I'm absolutely lost in every aspect. I'm not even sure how to approach a female and talk about this. Everytime I'm ready, the phone calls i should make, never happen. The people I could tell it to, I find a reason to talk myself out of it. I try telling myself I'm foolish and that I'm just an unsure 21 year old lost in the world. At this moment, I'm asking myself what am I even doing? I guess I'm looking to be understood and I can't find it anywhere but from those who maybe have been in my shoes and understand a bit better than I do... or my friends/family.

Ahh help! hahaa Thanks for reading? -_-

[onewhocares]

Ellie, first welcome to the site. You are most certainly not alone. I bet that there have been more than a person or two who have been in your shoes. Come and talk and read and you may get the beginings of the answers you seek.

Belle

[Bisexual Explorer]

Ellie,
Welcome to the site. If I can remember that far back, being 21 was a pretty confusing time. Being 21 and coming to grips with being bisexual was a very confusing time. Reading the forums and profiles on this site has helped me to get comfortable with my sexuality. I hope it does the same for you.
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[Realist]

Welcome, Ellie!

There are answers here. We have some eloquent members, who have experience, empathy and intelligence to assist you in your journey. I'm much older than you, but in the year I've been Here, I've gotten some answers, too.

You may also get some rude and inappropriate responses. I'm afraid that the nature of a public site like this, but take what you can use and ignore the rest.

Belle, Kate and Cat are some of the sweetest, most intelligent ladies and they can be trusted to guide you.

You sound like a sweet soul; hang in there and try to be patient, good things can come for those to wait.

[Georgie_Girl]

Welcome! Hope you find the help you're looking for. You're not alone. :)