M. Wolfe
Apr 17, 2009, 10:00 AM
I'll make this my official introduction thread (I know, I know I have a couple up already - ignore them).
Hi. I'm Mike Wolfe, 20 y/o Uni student from Dunedin. I study psych, linguistics and German - I'd like to go to Germany after uni.
Anyway, as a normal boy I started to like girls around 10/11 and that was fine. THEN at around 13/14 one of my friends became attractive. Naturally I became affectionate and amorous.
Before long I realised there are something a little gay going on here so I disparately started to fight it. I did so because I believed, as many christians do, that homosexuality was intrinsically wrong so in my own head through my own will, I chastised myself - did what I could to suppress those attractions and desires.
I continued to do that for a while but as with any desire, it's hard to not seek gratification. From about 16 onwards I indulged it but kept it to myself. Over that time I had more than a few same-sex crushes and yearnings but completely walled it all off from the inside out.
Earlier last year, I became atheist-agnostic, giving me a whole new out look at the world. Up until this point I had been consciously choosing to act strait
but then I asked myself "Why the hell should I choose one gender? I don't really have to, and I shouldn't cheat myself out of all the fun & live I could have."
Bout a month later I had organised a bbq for my mates, ribbs and beer etc. I made the announcement there. "I'm bisexual." My friends toasted me, all were incredibly supportive. Matt told me that since I hadn't actually changed, there was no reason to think of me any differently.
Then another month following that I told mum. She was confused.
"How do you know?"
"It's pretty simple, not a lot to be unsure about."
"I see."
I said that talking to her about such things was very uncomfortable, so if she has any questions it would be easier for both of us if she went and researched the answers herself - which she did, thank goodness.
I haven't told dad yet, or my brother for that matter. My brother and I hate each other so I don't feel I owe him the knowledge. Dad is complicated, he was never around when I was young and I have only known him properly for a couple of years. I'm not afraid of his possible reaction, I'm just not overly motivated to say anything and I haven't really had an opportunity.
Anyway that's about it. Nice to meet everyone.
Hi. I'm Mike Wolfe, 20 y/o Uni student from Dunedin. I study psych, linguistics and German - I'd like to go to Germany after uni.
Anyway, as a normal boy I started to like girls around 10/11 and that was fine. THEN at around 13/14 one of my friends became attractive. Naturally I became affectionate and amorous.
Before long I realised there are something a little gay going on here so I disparately started to fight it. I did so because I believed, as many christians do, that homosexuality was intrinsically wrong so in my own head through my own will, I chastised myself - did what I could to suppress those attractions and desires.
I continued to do that for a while but as with any desire, it's hard to not seek gratification. From about 16 onwards I indulged it but kept it to myself. Over that time I had more than a few same-sex crushes and yearnings but completely walled it all off from the inside out.
Earlier last year, I became atheist-agnostic, giving me a whole new out look at the world. Up until this point I had been consciously choosing to act strait
but then I asked myself "Why the hell should I choose one gender? I don't really have to, and I shouldn't cheat myself out of all the fun & live I could have."
Bout a month later I had organised a bbq for my mates, ribbs and beer etc. I made the announcement there. "I'm bisexual." My friends toasted me, all were incredibly supportive. Matt told me that since I hadn't actually changed, there was no reason to think of me any differently.
Then another month following that I told mum. She was confused.
"How do you know?"
"It's pretty simple, not a lot to be unsure about."
"I see."
I said that talking to her about such things was very uncomfortable, so if she has any questions it would be easier for both of us if she went and researched the answers herself - which she did, thank goodness.
I haven't told dad yet, or my brother for that matter. My brother and I hate each other so I don't feel I owe him the knowledge. Dad is complicated, he was never around when I was young and I have only known him properly for a couple of years. I'm not afraid of his possible reaction, I'm just not overly motivated to say anything and I haven't really had an opportunity.
Anyway that's about it. Nice to meet everyone.