PhysicalFriend33
Dec 6, 2008, 2:37 AM
Well Its the same thing again this time around..meet someone hit it off set a couple dates he dont show or flat out "forgets" there was a date. This has been a pattern of mine for a long time.I can keep re-evaluating what I think I did wrong and try to do different each time but to no avail.
Many times i waited in restraunts only to have that humiliating solo meal at a table for two because the date never showed or waiting at Starbucks and nothing....This can happen so many times before a person can let it get to them. Well it got to me.I denied it happened. I got mad. I got depressed .I negotiated the problem in my head . Finally I just accepted the fact I am not meant to date or be happy.
I have been lied to toyed with and basically humiliated but now I decided no more. I am taking control and saying I aint doing this anymore. I am a generous human being who has been screwed over too many times to even care anymore. I am to the point I can trust no one. Basically after what happened AGAIN tonight my soul pretty much died.I feel emotionally dead now,I have nothing left to give. My only option now is live life alone which may very well be what I was destined for anyhow.
I just dont care anymore. I am done with trying to find someone.
Many times i waited in restraunts only to have that humiliating solo meal at a table for two because the date never showed or waiting at Starbucks and nothing....This can happen so many times before a person can let it get to them. Well it got to me.I denied it happened. I got mad. I got depressed .I negotiated the problem in my head . Finally I just accepted the fact I am not meant to date or be happy.
I have been lied to toyed with and basically humiliated but now I decided no more. I am taking control and saying I aint doing this anymore. I am a generous human being who has been screwed over too many times to even care anymore. I am to the point I can trust no one. Basically after what happened AGAIN tonight my soul pretty much died.I feel emotionally dead now,I have nothing left to give. My only option now is live life alone which may very well be what I was destined for anyhow.
I just dont care anymore. I am done with trying to find someone.