nightwatcher
Jan 9, 2006, 1:46 PM
dear friends
i have something saddening to share with you guys.
not that anyone can do anything. just felt like talking it out, even if it seems fruitless online.
i am a newbie who came in last year, after a gay friend of mine unintentionally led me to find that i am a bi. we had some mutual masturbation then, and, since then, we had met quite a few times for it.
i started to feel attracted to him, even though he did not in any real sense liked me. he only liked me cos i look young and fit his idea of cuteness. (we are good friends nonetheless.) but somehow i was still attracted to him. maybe it's cos he's my only friend who actually accepted me and made me feel good.
my heart totally sank when he told me he had a boyfriend for quite a while.
i told him it is not nice for me to play around with him when he has a boyfriend. i see that as infidelity. if i distance from him, i'll have no one to confide in. that is especially so when i do not know any other bisexuals in my country singapore.
in other words, i am alone.
this is not exactly an eloquently penned piece. totally unlike my normally composed self. my mind is in a mess. but hope it is still comprehensible. thanks for reading.
i have something saddening to share with you guys.
not that anyone can do anything. just felt like talking it out, even if it seems fruitless online.
i am a newbie who came in last year, after a gay friend of mine unintentionally led me to find that i am a bi. we had some mutual masturbation then, and, since then, we had met quite a few times for it.
i started to feel attracted to him, even though he did not in any real sense liked me. he only liked me cos i look young and fit his idea of cuteness. (we are good friends nonetheless.) but somehow i was still attracted to him. maybe it's cos he's my only friend who actually accepted me and made me feel good.
my heart totally sank when he told me he had a boyfriend for quite a while.
i told him it is not nice for me to play around with him when he has a boyfriend. i see that as infidelity. if i distance from him, i'll have no one to confide in. that is especially so when i do not know any other bisexuals in my country singapore.
in other words, i am alone.
this is not exactly an eloquently penned piece. totally unlike my normally composed self. my mind is in a mess. but hope it is still comprehensible. thanks for reading.