thinkfree39
Mar 2, 2008, 10:14 PM
After 25 years of marriage, I told my wife I was interested in playing with a man. She blew a gasket. I was prepared for most any reaction and hoped this wouldn't be it but feared it might.
I think the main thing is that about 10 years ago, I confessed to cheating on her and this probably brought back some bad memories. Maybe it was wrong for me to even bring it up, but it has preoccupied my mind for a couple months now. The urges I feel have been with me all my life. Since joining this forum I've gone from feeling like a freak to feeling quite normal. She said she noticed a change in me recently. That would be me realizing that I had to do something. There was no going back to simply suppressing it.
Our communications skills aren't the greatest. She just didn't want to hear it, and took it as a slap in the face. At least that's what it appears to me.
She asked somewhat sarcastically, "What do you want me to do, just tell you to go ahead?" No, I told her. I want him to join us because I also want to watch him screw you. Well not quite that bluntly, but that's the gist. I've told her many times how much it turns me on to see her turned on. I explained that the competitive hormones have given way to something different. The idea was met with more sarcasm, "yeah, right". But the tension did seem to ease as she realized I wasn't being completely selfish. She says she has no interest in that.
We ended up having a long talk and even sex. If nothing else, it jolted her out of the complacency that we tend to fall into. So that was good. Maybe over time she'll even have a change of heart.
I'm not really looking for specific help or advice, but of course I always like to read what people think on a subject. I think I'll hang around, maybe change my profile a little. I don't intend to completely drop the subject with her. I can't deny my feelings any more than I can deny my height. She says I just think too much. Maybe she's right, but that's me too.
I think the main thing is that about 10 years ago, I confessed to cheating on her and this probably brought back some bad memories. Maybe it was wrong for me to even bring it up, but it has preoccupied my mind for a couple months now. The urges I feel have been with me all my life. Since joining this forum I've gone from feeling like a freak to feeling quite normal. She said she noticed a change in me recently. That would be me realizing that I had to do something. There was no going back to simply suppressing it.
Our communications skills aren't the greatest. She just didn't want to hear it, and took it as a slap in the face. At least that's what it appears to me.
She asked somewhat sarcastically, "What do you want me to do, just tell you to go ahead?" No, I told her. I want him to join us because I also want to watch him screw you. Well not quite that bluntly, but that's the gist. I've told her many times how much it turns me on to see her turned on. I explained that the competitive hormones have given way to something different. The idea was met with more sarcasm, "yeah, right". But the tension did seem to ease as she realized I wasn't being completely selfish. She says she has no interest in that.
We ended up having a long talk and even sex. If nothing else, it jolted her out of the complacency that we tend to fall into. So that was good. Maybe over time she'll even have a change of heart.
I'm not really looking for specific help or advice, but of course I always like to read what people think on a subject. I think I'll hang around, maybe change my profile a little. I don't intend to completely drop the subject with her. I can't deny my feelings any more than I can deny my height. She says I just think too much. Maybe she's right, but that's me too.