LUCKYSTAR24
Oct 17, 2007, 5:19 AM
I am currently going out with/dating a great guy that I have been with now for, well almost 18 months now. We have had our highs and lows, I think the most painful and confusing part of our relationship is his past.
I am a homosexual guy, whilst my partner is at the moment predominately gay, but still holds a small interest in women. He has been married to a woman, and his sexual history has been mainly with women. From our chats and conversations, he enjoyed sex with women more. Even though he divorced his wife 14 years ago - he is still cut up by it all, gets upset sometimes, and constantly talks about her. He has every letter she sent him, every photograph, and yet he has nothing from an 8 year relationship he had after with a guy.
He has said that he was tipped over the edge when his wife left him for another man, and he thus explored his bi-curious side. He now claims he is gay, but the evidence shows that he remains bi.
I dont have a problem with bi people, I myself, am bi-curious, though to put the thing into practice would be too much for me. It hurts me, when my partner shows no interest in me sexually. I appreciate his needs, and confusion, but it is painful for me also. I just dont know where I stand. When I find out he satisfies his needs on the internet consistently, and knowing he doesnt show sexual interest in me, its hard. When he was with his wife he fantasised about men, when he is with men, he fantasises about women. Its all this sneaking around indulgence that isolates him in a way and pushes others to the limit. Its almost like I will only be ever to enjoy a part of him, but never the full him. Its frustrating.
I guess people would say, dump him, let him be, we arent right for each other - blah, blah. But we get on great in every domain, and remain fond of each other. We have loads of non-sexual contact. I often wonder if he is scared of intimacy because his wife hurt him, or if he just isnt interested in me enough - relying on fanatasy that he has learnt to do.
Im babbling, Im confused - would be grateful for another perspective, if anyone would reply.
Many thanks Gareth
I am a homosexual guy, whilst my partner is at the moment predominately gay, but still holds a small interest in women. He has been married to a woman, and his sexual history has been mainly with women. From our chats and conversations, he enjoyed sex with women more. Even though he divorced his wife 14 years ago - he is still cut up by it all, gets upset sometimes, and constantly talks about her. He has every letter she sent him, every photograph, and yet he has nothing from an 8 year relationship he had after with a guy.
He has said that he was tipped over the edge when his wife left him for another man, and he thus explored his bi-curious side. He now claims he is gay, but the evidence shows that he remains bi.
I dont have a problem with bi people, I myself, am bi-curious, though to put the thing into practice would be too much for me. It hurts me, when my partner shows no interest in me sexually. I appreciate his needs, and confusion, but it is painful for me also. I just dont know where I stand. When I find out he satisfies his needs on the internet consistently, and knowing he doesnt show sexual interest in me, its hard. When he was with his wife he fantasised about men, when he is with men, he fantasises about women. Its all this sneaking around indulgence that isolates him in a way and pushes others to the limit. Its almost like I will only be ever to enjoy a part of him, but never the full him. Its frustrating.
I guess people would say, dump him, let him be, we arent right for each other - blah, blah. But we get on great in every domain, and remain fond of each other. We have loads of non-sexual contact. I often wonder if he is scared of intimacy because his wife hurt him, or if he just isnt interested in me enough - relying on fanatasy that he has learnt to do.
Im babbling, Im confused - would be grateful for another perspective, if anyone would reply.
Many thanks Gareth