an update

[Azrael]

my hard drive is fried and my voice is slowly regenerating after I threw it out screaming at my family/coworkers. I'm also titrating down on seroquel. As such, I've had very little online time. I'm taking my puter to it's builder to-day and god willing should have a swank-ass linux sysyem in a few days. Micro$haft be damned. That being said, sorry to anyone wondering why I abruptly disappeared for like 2 weeks or so. The PC I'm on I don't get to use much, so my response time is for shit these days. And I missed Warped tour St. pete :(
Oh, and don't waste my time with any sort of lecture unless you have any actual experience with neuroleptic drugs. Sorry, I won't hear it :bigrin:

[kitten]

GLad to hear from you AZ!

[Tingly_Tickles]

Absolutely sux your system died but give old billy boy the shaft and use that nix
system for better good and umm yea as far as drugs go hell we all take something
sometimes for shit so no one needs to lecture you or anyone on this site.

I was wondering what happened to you since you just weren't online anymore
I missed chattin with ya on yahoo I hope to see you back online soon.

[mistymockingbird]

Thought it had been a few since you'd been kickin around these parts. We'll be here. You just come back when you can.

[Azrael]

I went down 200 mg in two weeks. A bit fast to ramp it down, givin it another few weeks before I taper down again, if at all. I can feel again, after almost a year and a half of near emotional death. It's amazing. It's also incredibly intense, but my intuition has returned, and I'm monitoring myself carefully. Neuroleptics are great for pulling you out of acute psychosis, but for day to day mood management are pretty lousy. Nothing a little herb or the loving support of my friends can't handle. The Chemical Vacation is over. I'm taking enough Seroquel to help me sleep, but I'm out of the therapuetic range. Thus, I'm taking it, but it's mechanism of action is largely stifled at this point. I'm carefully feeling it out.

[biwords]

Sounds like you're turning an important corner. Be well and come back when you can!

[dans94]

I know it's not the same issue but I had to change anti-depressants because, after three years, Prozac had turned my emotions off. I couldn't get excited about anything! I'd play a round of golf and couldn't care less that I was even there. Thankfully, after trying a few more, I found one that seems to work.

Good luck to you Azrael, we're pulling for you.