tootsie_too
Jun 27, 2007, 11:49 PM
I'm bisexual.
I've been avoiding the label for oh, eight years or so, but I figure two months shy of my 23rd birthday when everything is up in the air I should be honest about some things. It's shockingly easy to hide behind that heterosexual label when you fit half way behind it.
I'm not much for labels, I've never really liked them or thought they were anything important but so many people in my life do. I grew up in a community that has some very deep prejudices and have spent a lifetime defending the bisexual lifestyle to my friends in a very impersonal way. The disdain for the general homosexual was nothing on the way that people treated the idea of bisexual in my hometown, including some of my closest friends. So much easier to stick with the label of heterosexual that they all liked.
But then, this week, I had the hottest, most emotional dream of my life about my (former) boss, who is drop dead gorgeous-and totally female and woke up in tears (she was going to leave her fiance for me...it was pretty cool). And it hit me, that I have feelings for her, on some level...and well, that I had to at least be honest with myself.
Still a bi virgin, but definitely bi.
I've been avoiding the label for oh, eight years or so, but I figure two months shy of my 23rd birthday when everything is up in the air I should be honest about some things. It's shockingly easy to hide behind that heterosexual label when you fit half way behind it.
I'm not much for labels, I've never really liked them or thought they were anything important but so many people in my life do. I grew up in a community that has some very deep prejudices and have spent a lifetime defending the bisexual lifestyle to my friends in a very impersonal way. The disdain for the general homosexual was nothing on the way that people treated the idea of bisexual in my hometown, including some of my closest friends. So much easier to stick with the label of heterosexual that they all liked.
But then, this week, I had the hottest, most emotional dream of my life about my (former) boss, who is drop dead gorgeous-and totally female and woke up in tears (she was going to leave her fiance for me...it was pretty cool). And it hit me, that I have feelings for her, on some level...and well, that I had to at least be honest with myself.
Still a bi virgin, but definitely bi.