blondebabe
Jun 2, 2007, 12:12 PM
Hi...I hope that no-one minds me posting here for advice.
Ever since I was 10 (I'm now 18), I have always been attracted to women. I have never once looked in the direction of a man...until now. It was something that I was so sure of; although I had not admitted it to many people, I was nevertheless a self confessed lesbian.
I will go with the flow when I go out as most of my friends have no idea of my sexuality and thus have pulled more men than I have women...but there's absolutely nothing there and I won't let it go further than a pull.
During October last year though, I started to fall for someone who I work with. He is sooo wrong for me in so many ways; he's 28, he has two children, drinks all the time, is a player and he does drugs...and that's just the stuff that I know about.
He started flirting with me and I have to some extent gone along with it, although a lot I have laughed off and I've also been quite shy around him. He also has made comments like 'we could never be together cause your parents would kill us both if you took me home' and suggested he is not good enough for me in terms of money, social background etc...which actually doesn't matter to me one bit.
In December, he ended up getting together with someone else from work who he split up with about a month ago. During this time, he would flirt with me when she wasn't around still but not in front of her. Meanwhile I became really good friends with my manager who was a 39 yr old female...and we ended up in bed together.
As soon as the guy I like split up with his girlfriend he was waving this information in front of me and picked up where he left off in terms of flirting with me all the time. It has meant that one of the other guys there who really likes me gets moody when the 3 of us are working together.
A rumour came out about me and the manager about 3 weeks ago and I kind of confirmed that it was true but that they wouldn't be getting details. That week, I gave the guy I like a lift home after work and we hugged and nearly kissed, but I pulled back cause I didn't want even more rumours going round about me at work.
But then on Friday night last week I gave him a lift again and he went to kiss me and this time I didn't pull away. It went further than kissing, although I didn't go all the way cause we were in my car and there were loads of cars going past...but lets just say, he didn't leave disappointed.
Since then he has told me that he didn't want me to get the wrong idea etc...and that I wouldnt want to be with him anyway cause all his free time he spends with his children and also I wouldnt like the person he was (ie drugs/drink etc). I was like well next time u don't want someone to get the wrong idea, then don't choose someone who has already fallen for you.
But now I'm really confused... because he is still hinting that we will sleep together on my birthday along with me telling him details about what happened between the manager and I.
I really don't know where I stand with him and don't have the experience with men to be able to really work it out.
So...I'm guess I'm asking firstly for advice in terms of this guy - have we got a chance or is he just playing me for what he can get? & secondly, if you have any advice on what I'm going through re: my sexuality.
Thank you
x
Ever since I was 10 (I'm now 18), I have always been attracted to women. I have never once looked in the direction of a man...until now. It was something that I was so sure of; although I had not admitted it to many people, I was nevertheless a self confessed lesbian.
I will go with the flow when I go out as most of my friends have no idea of my sexuality and thus have pulled more men than I have women...but there's absolutely nothing there and I won't let it go further than a pull.
During October last year though, I started to fall for someone who I work with. He is sooo wrong for me in so many ways; he's 28, he has two children, drinks all the time, is a player and he does drugs...and that's just the stuff that I know about.
He started flirting with me and I have to some extent gone along with it, although a lot I have laughed off and I've also been quite shy around him. He also has made comments like 'we could never be together cause your parents would kill us both if you took me home' and suggested he is not good enough for me in terms of money, social background etc...which actually doesn't matter to me one bit.
In December, he ended up getting together with someone else from work who he split up with about a month ago. During this time, he would flirt with me when she wasn't around still but not in front of her. Meanwhile I became really good friends with my manager who was a 39 yr old female...and we ended up in bed together.
As soon as the guy I like split up with his girlfriend he was waving this information in front of me and picked up where he left off in terms of flirting with me all the time. It has meant that one of the other guys there who really likes me gets moody when the 3 of us are working together.
A rumour came out about me and the manager about 3 weeks ago and I kind of confirmed that it was true but that they wouldn't be getting details. That week, I gave the guy I like a lift home after work and we hugged and nearly kissed, but I pulled back cause I didn't want even more rumours going round about me at work.
But then on Friday night last week I gave him a lift again and he went to kiss me and this time I didn't pull away. It went further than kissing, although I didn't go all the way cause we were in my car and there were loads of cars going past...but lets just say, he didn't leave disappointed.
Since then he has told me that he didn't want me to get the wrong idea etc...and that I wouldnt want to be with him anyway cause all his free time he spends with his children and also I wouldnt like the person he was (ie drugs/drink etc). I was like well next time u don't want someone to get the wrong idea, then don't choose someone who has already fallen for you.
But now I'm really confused... because he is still hinting that we will sleep together on my birthday along with me telling him details about what happened between the manager and I.
I really don't know where I stand with him and don't have the experience with men to be able to really work it out.
So...I'm guess I'm asking firstly for advice in terms of this guy - have we got a chance or is he just playing me for what he can get? & secondly, if you have any advice on what I'm going through re: my sexuality.
Thank you
x