GI_jane
May 22, 2007, 11:20 AM
For those of you who like to read, here’s a little something...an experience if you will, from when I started my new part time job for one of the biggest companies in Britain.
It happened almost instantly, from the moment we first met, I felt an unusual attraction. The way she talked, the way she carried herself, graceful yet full of confidence. I could tell by her words and actions that she possessed a kind heart. I was immediately drawn to this woman, there was just something about her that made me feel warm inside. Trying to focus on what she was saying, I had to resist the urge to allow my eyes to roam over her petite frame - to no avail of course. She was simply beautiful and I knew from that moment this was the start of something that I couldn’t control.
The next time we met was a week later; she was just as stunning as the first time, if not more. Again she greeted me with a warm handshake, cursing my cold hand syndrome; I smiled brightly at her, trying to control the butterflies in my stomach. I felt a warm shiver go up my spine as her skin touched mine. From then on I found myself fumbling for words, wanting to say something sophisticated or humorous, but instead the words just came out in an endless babble. I was smitten!
Again we met the following week for an adventure weekend I had been invited to. This time her state of professionalism had been replaced with a more relaxed, at ease one she had her golden blonde hair tied loosely in a ponytail, and she wore more comfortable, but appropriate clothing. Still she looked stunningly beautiful and with once glance I felt the butterflies return.
During the weekend, I got to know her on a more personal level; to me she seemed like an absolute goddess. I found myself stealing glances from across the room. She was so at ease with herself, the way she laughed and interacted with others made me want her so much more.
After that weekend, to my disappointment, I began to see less of her; we spoke on the phone a few times to sort out business related things. I remember the first time she ever called me at home, how her voice sounded on the phone, it was almost husky and again confident, that I had to control my own voice from wavering.
She was absolutely amazing, that I sometimes found myself thinking about her at random stages of the day. She seemed to own my conscious thoughts as well as my subconscious. As time went on though, I knew that what I felt would never be neutral, she was a lot older than me, probably straight, and even if she wasn’t surely I would be the last person she would look twice at.
These thoughts made me feel so empty at times that i would often try and convince myself that this crush i had was really only admiration or that i simply idolised her for the person she was. This seemed to work for a while, until one Sunday, remembrance Sunday to be precise, i saw her for the first time in ages and she took my breath away all over again.
being around her made me act so goofy, my words never seemed to come out right and i would often find myself clumsily stumbling over things, nobody had ever had this effect on me before, it was strange, normally i can hold my composure perfectly, but with her all it took was once glance and my legs turned to jelly.
How could i possibly maintain a professional relationship with this woman? When i longed for so much more. What if she ever found out about this, would she ever speak to me again? Would she be disgusted? All these thoughts were rushing through my head at once. I did have a temporary solution, i would avoid her, keep my distance until i got my emotions under control. I decided to go with that and although it was a long process I eventually gained control. She still made my heart beat faster and i was still a goofball around her but i was able to keep my feelings contained, i could flirt subtly without over doing it. And for now i had come to terms with the fact that nothing would ever come of these feelings - or so i thought.
it was a Tuesday evening in the bar after work, me an a couple of my work colleagues were listening to a story being told by one of our co-worker's many adventures overseas, when she walked in the bar, i was aware of her presence but didn’t let that distract me from the story. Unbeknown to me she approached on my left and pulled me aside from the others, she said she needed to speak with me and i was to meet her outside the bar in 5 minutes. i assumed this was work related, so i left the bar and surely enough she was there waiting for me. I followed her into one of the empty rooms assuming to get away from the noise, she closed the door and when she turned around i looked at her expectantly, when she didn’t say anything i began to feel uneasy, suddenly her voice cut through the silence with two words. "i know." my head snapped up and my heart began beating faster, i knew exactly what she was referring to - 'the crush'... "You know?" i managed to croak out.
"Yes" she replied. at that moment i felt like a deer caught in the headlights, i felt a feeling of nausea creep up in the pit of my stomach. Suddenly i couldn’t stay in the room any longer, i turned to leave but she grabbed my arm. 'Where do you think your going?" Her voice low, and almost seductive?. before i knew what was happening she pressed her lips against mine for seemed like an eternity, before pulling back, my breathing was now ragged, she looked directly into my eyes, i knew she was silently asking if this was ok and i replied by kissing her soundly.
I couldn’t quite believe this was happing, it all felt like a dream i never wanted to wake up from. Coming out of my thoughts i felt her hand on my breast, gently caressing. This moment seemed to last forever until she pulled back slowly and looked up at me again. I tried to say something but she placed her finger over my lips, she smiled before gently pressing her lips to mine one last time, then she left the room, leaving me standing there...lost in my own thoughts.
The end.
:female:
It happened almost instantly, from the moment we first met, I felt an unusual attraction. The way she talked, the way she carried herself, graceful yet full of confidence. I could tell by her words and actions that she possessed a kind heart. I was immediately drawn to this woman, there was just something about her that made me feel warm inside. Trying to focus on what she was saying, I had to resist the urge to allow my eyes to roam over her petite frame - to no avail of course. She was simply beautiful and I knew from that moment this was the start of something that I couldn’t control.
The next time we met was a week later; she was just as stunning as the first time, if not more. Again she greeted me with a warm handshake, cursing my cold hand syndrome; I smiled brightly at her, trying to control the butterflies in my stomach. I felt a warm shiver go up my spine as her skin touched mine. From then on I found myself fumbling for words, wanting to say something sophisticated or humorous, but instead the words just came out in an endless babble. I was smitten!
Again we met the following week for an adventure weekend I had been invited to. This time her state of professionalism had been replaced with a more relaxed, at ease one she had her golden blonde hair tied loosely in a ponytail, and she wore more comfortable, but appropriate clothing. Still she looked stunningly beautiful and with once glance I felt the butterflies return.
During the weekend, I got to know her on a more personal level; to me she seemed like an absolute goddess. I found myself stealing glances from across the room. She was so at ease with herself, the way she laughed and interacted with others made me want her so much more.
After that weekend, to my disappointment, I began to see less of her; we spoke on the phone a few times to sort out business related things. I remember the first time she ever called me at home, how her voice sounded on the phone, it was almost husky and again confident, that I had to control my own voice from wavering.
She was absolutely amazing, that I sometimes found myself thinking about her at random stages of the day. She seemed to own my conscious thoughts as well as my subconscious. As time went on though, I knew that what I felt would never be neutral, she was a lot older than me, probably straight, and even if she wasn’t surely I would be the last person she would look twice at.
These thoughts made me feel so empty at times that i would often try and convince myself that this crush i had was really only admiration or that i simply idolised her for the person she was. This seemed to work for a while, until one Sunday, remembrance Sunday to be precise, i saw her for the first time in ages and she took my breath away all over again.
being around her made me act so goofy, my words never seemed to come out right and i would often find myself clumsily stumbling over things, nobody had ever had this effect on me before, it was strange, normally i can hold my composure perfectly, but with her all it took was once glance and my legs turned to jelly.
How could i possibly maintain a professional relationship with this woman? When i longed for so much more. What if she ever found out about this, would she ever speak to me again? Would she be disgusted? All these thoughts were rushing through my head at once. I did have a temporary solution, i would avoid her, keep my distance until i got my emotions under control. I decided to go with that and although it was a long process I eventually gained control. She still made my heart beat faster and i was still a goofball around her but i was able to keep my feelings contained, i could flirt subtly without over doing it. And for now i had come to terms with the fact that nothing would ever come of these feelings - or so i thought.
it was a Tuesday evening in the bar after work, me an a couple of my work colleagues were listening to a story being told by one of our co-worker's many adventures overseas, when she walked in the bar, i was aware of her presence but didn’t let that distract me from the story. Unbeknown to me she approached on my left and pulled me aside from the others, she said she needed to speak with me and i was to meet her outside the bar in 5 minutes. i assumed this was work related, so i left the bar and surely enough she was there waiting for me. I followed her into one of the empty rooms assuming to get away from the noise, she closed the door and when she turned around i looked at her expectantly, when she didn’t say anything i began to feel uneasy, suddenly her voice cut through the silence with two words. "i know." my head snapped up and my heart began beating faster, i knew exactly what she was referring to - 'the crush'... "You know?" i managed to croak out.
"Yes" she replied. at that moment i felt like a deer caught in the headlights, i felt a feeling of nausea creep up in the pit of my stomach. Suddenly i couldn’t stay in the room any longer, i turned to leave but she grabbed my arm. 'Where do you think your going?" Her voice low, and almost seductive?. before i knew what was happening she pressed her lips against mine for seemed like an eternity, before pulling back, my breathing was now ragged, she looked directly into my eyes, i knew she was silently asking if this was ok and i replied by kissing her soundly.
I couldn’t quite believe this was happing, it all felt like a dream i never wanted to wake up from. Coming out of my thoughts i felt her hand on my breast, gently caressing. This moment seemed to last forever until she pulled back slowly and looked up at me again. I tried to say something but she placed her finger over my lips, she smiled before gently pressing her lips to mine one last time, then she left the room, leaving me standing there...lost in my own thoughts.
The end.
:female: