Au revoir...

[bi-robin-calif]

To all of my dear brothers and sisters, friends, and lovers,

I've been going through a major emotional upheaval for the past few days, an identity crisis, and a major test of faith. It's too draining on me, especially with the added stress of starting a new job next week. And last but not least, I broke a toe over the weekend and haven't been able to walk for a couple of days.

All of which is by way of explaining why I've been AWOL from here, and why I won't be around for a while. But please, please, please!!! Don't worry about me-I'll be fine! And please please pretty please don't anyone think it's anything you've said or done!

Two or three of you especially--and you know who you are--have touched me deeply, and I have come to--dare I say it?--love you with all my heart. That will never change, come what may.

You are all aware of how difficult it can be dealing with our sexuality at the best of times. And right now is one of the poorer times for me. I just need to take some time off to come to terms with my own feelings, as well as the shock I sustained when I realized, better than half-way through my life, that most of my problems stem not from the fact that I am a bisexual male, but from the understanding that I would have been much happier as a woman...and a gay woman, at that.

:bipride:

[rayosytruenos]

[...]I've been going through a major emotional upheaval for the past few days, an identity crisis, and a major test of faith. It's too draining on me, especially with the added stress of starting a new job next week. [...]I just need to take some time off to come to terms with my own feelings [...] when I realized [...] that most of my problems stem not from the fact that I am a bisexual male, but from the understanding that I would have been much happier as a woman...and a gay woman, at that.

:bipride: Hi! Sorry to hear that. I know from experience that we all need some time off to deal with our inner demons. I need to retire from the world at least a few hours every week, sometimes I wish I could do it every day or even better, a whole week or so every now and then.

That kind of feelings you are speaking about are ones that for me would be the most difficult to deal with. The wish to be a woman when one has been born as a man. At least you say that you think you would have been much happier as a woman, from which I hope that as a man, you have found some happiness in this world too.

For me it's more difficult to understand feelings like that, wishing to have a different gender, but with the additional stress of being gay in that other gender, which makes it even more draining emotionally in this bigotry world. I know that we cannot control our feelings, I believe we have been born with these feelings, though they might take time to come out for us to notice them, but I think they have been there since our birth.

I offer you all my support and if you want to private e-mail me, please free to do so.

All the best,

ray

[Long Duck Dong]

bi-robin.... just a lil word of warning.... you try and run away for too long, we will hunt you down and hug you lol

I admire ya......respect you...and think the world of ya.....

[flexuality]

You will definately be missed. :(

I really hope you will drop by from time to time......while sorting things out for yourself and have a cuppa.... :rolleyes:

[flexuality]

bi-robin.... just a lil word of warning.... you try and run away for too long, we will hunt you down and hug you lol

I admire ya......respect you...and think the word of ya.....

Uh oh....Duck hunting....ya been warned! lol! :tong:

[allbimyself]

words,

OMG, dude! You shouldn't do this. You'll need us as your nightly touchstone when you start your new job. If you don't, Steve Jobs' brainwashing will take hold! Please, please, come to chat after every day of work during the critical period (say the first two weeks on the new job) so we can help de-program you, else I fear you will be lost to us forever!

Seriously, be well, my friend. I don't envy what you'll be going through in your head... been there, done that, got the fucking t-shirt. Sometimes you have to work things through yourself, but that doesn't mean you have to do it alone.

Peace, bro,

Allbi

[littlerayofsunshine]

Robin,

Take all the time you need. Prepare for your new job, with refreshed spirits. Come back to us, when you are ready. We'll miss you :)

[Tommy2020]

Wow Robin. I will miss your kind humor and your gentleness in this forum. If ever there was a soul to be missed, you are it. Take care amigo..... and till later.
Tommy2020

[Herbwoman39]

Robin, my dear, you take the time you need, do what you need to do for yourself and then come back home. We'll be right here waiting to welcome you back.

Don't be afraid to drop in once in a while in the interim and touch base if you feel the desire or need.

<HUGS>

[jedinudist]

I've sincerely enjoyed many of your posts.

I wish you well as you journey on your path, and we hope to have the pleasure of your company again. :)

[12voltman59]

I understand exactly what you are saying Robin--take all the time you need to work through what you need to work through--take care and we hope to see you back soon in better spirits---

[mistymockingbird]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((robin))))))))))))))) )))))))))))))))))))

Do what you need to do darlin. Take care of your emotional house but know that you do not have to do it alone. We're here if you need us.

Muuuuuuah

[LoveBiker]

Stay with the FORCE...

That FORCE is within you. BUT you need options to get away from your fears by TALKING to people.

So don't forget US.

[DiamondDog]

Take care Robin!

[TaylorMade]

I'm gonna miss you, Robin. . .I really enjoyed talking to you. You made me feel comfortable, and were a great listener.

Come back soon.

* Dylan Taylor*

[onewhocares]

Robin,

Dear sweet kind man, you shall be missed. We all have to find the right time within our lives to try and sort things through. Each day will hopefully bring some clarity and definition. I agree with Allbi. Do come in the first few days of your new job. You have been there for so many of us, so now let us reciprocate and be there for you.

Belle

[Domino]

Best of luck with everything. I don't know you at all but you seem rather cool. :bigrin: