A confession...

[mrheem]

Wow, where do I start? I am a chat away from having sex with a man. Maybe a FWB situation. He?s an older man and seems to be involved in education in some way. Sounds like possibly an administrator. HAHA! Wouldn?t that be somethin?! Here I am seriously thinking about seeking sex outside of my marriage. With a man. Wanting to suck his fat cock. Imagining taking him in my ass. Kissing. Licking. Sucking. I cannot seem to shake it. That urge to have sex with a man. Its been with me my whole masterbating life. How about that. I have never admitted that in writing before. i am 54 years old. The thought of being with a guy STILL makes me hard. Makes me come. Drives me to take some serious chances. Carry a certain amount of guilt.

How many times?

1.The older boy who kissed and sucked me. I think I touched his dick. -1980
2.My buddy who stuck his dick in my butt, maybe twice? -1981
3.Rick Howard- three times 1991(?)-2001
The night grandday died (most recent,last time) Oral and Anal -2001
69ing in the park -1998
That one night at someones house oral, 69 -1999
4.That guy in the hot tub at DCI Rule Congress -2005
5.The kid from Squirt in Dubuque, some -2016
6.The guy in Pecos, hotel, oral and anal -2017
7.The Hispanic Kid in wherever that was-2018
8.The black kid in Phoenix-2019
9.The awkward meeting with that young guy- oral, attempted anal on me no lube, nope -2020

What is this about? When I look at women, I am sexually attracted to them. Shit, Jasmine at work? She?s just about the sexiest fucking little spitfire with super tight little pussy I bet. Phew?! My Wife is fucking hot. Beautiful face! Nice breasts, tight pussy, tight ass, nice legs. Generally very sexy. I loved watching her get off last night with the vibrator. I was totally clothed. Eating her out. Getting her clit ready for the vibrator. Eventually coming with me being pretty forceful, but shallow. Thumb working her clit. Big orgasm. I was perfectly satisfied for some reason. I guess it was spontaneous, no pressure, just pleasuring my wife. It was the best sexual experience in months with her. It is still weird, but maybe that?s taking a turn.

And here I am still a PM away from having a very thick cock to pleasure.

Is this urge worth totally upending my life if things go sideways? Could I actually maintain a sexual relationship with a man over time?

What is it about sex with a man? I do like the feel of cock. I like sucking cock. I have enjoyed being fucked. I have gotten excited by kissing. Rubbed my cock against another hard cock. Dry humped. Made that hispanic kid sort of come in my mouth. I have never had with a big load in my mouth. Or ass.

While I have been sitting here I have looked on Grindr 5-6 times. I could get talked into having him over today. There is a good chance I could end up taking a thick cock in my ass today or tomorrow. Man?it's very confusing to know what is really right. Exploring a part of my sexuality that excites me. At the risk of setting the Law of Unintended Consequences in motion and ending up in a bad situation.

[KDaddy23]

Some guys get to a point in this where they ultimately decide it's worth it and just "roll the dice." What's "really right" depends on what that means to you and if you consider the history you were kind enough to share with us, if you didn't have any major concerns about those moments, this probably shouldn't be any different but, yeah, I get it - your wife is one serious babe and the question becomes one of whether or not getting the dick you want is worth major problems with her and... I can't answer that question and the only person who can is yourself. The excitement before the fact is pretty damned heady (no pun); I know that every time I've gotten to the "we're about to get it on" stage in the negotiations, oh, man, I want to get with him right now! Fuck being patient and waiting for a date to be set or waiting for the day and time when I'm going to be naked with him... even though my wife is damned good in bed - but it's not about sex with her but the things I need in my life that makes and keeps me okay with who - and what - I am. She knows but that's not the point because women can change their minds about stuff faster than the speed of life and there have been times when I've wondered... is this worth it? But since this is about my sanity, yeah, it is and I have lived my entire life understanding that there are always consequences and I have to deal with them should they arise... so dicks can rise... and get soft again.

[bikurinpa]

Dont get your hopes up, 99.9999% on these sites just get on to chat when horny, then once they get off, they are GONE, they will ghost out on you. Its is a common game on here.


Wow, where do I start? I am a chat away from having sex with a man. Maybe a FWB situation. He?s an older man and seems to be involved in education in some way. Sounds like possibly an administrator. HAHA! Wouldn?t that be somethin?! Here I am seriously thinking about seeking sex outside of my marriage. With a man. Wanting to suck his fat cock. Imagining taking him in my ass. Kissing. Licking. Sucking. I cannot seem to shake it. That urge to have sex with a man. Its been with me my whole masterbating life. How about that. I have never admitted that in writing before. i am 54 years old. The thought of being with a guy STILL makes me hard. Makes me come. Drives me to take some serious chances. Carry a certain amount of guilt.

How many times?

1.The older boy who kissed and sucked me. I think I touched his dick. -1980
2.My buddy who stuck his dick in my butt, maybe twice? -1981
3.Rick Howard- three times 1991(?)-2001
The night grandday died (most recent,last time) Oral and Anal -2001
69ing in the park -1998
That one night at someones house oral, 69 -1999
4.That guy in the hot tub at DCI Rule Congress -2005
5.The kid from Squirt in Dubuque, some -2016
6.The guy in Pecos, hotel, oral and anal -2017
7.The Hispanic Kid in wherever that was-2018
8.The black kid in Phoenix-2019
9.The awkward meeting with that young guy- oral, attempted anal on me no lube, nope -2020

What is this about? When I look at women, I am sexually attracted to them. Shit, Jasmine at work? She?s just about the sexiest fucking little spitfire with super tight little pussy I bet. Phew?! My Wife is fucking hot. Beautiful face! Nice breasts, tight pussy, tight ass, nice legs. Generally very sexy. I loved watching her get off last night with the vibrator. I was totally clothed. Eating her out. Getting her clit ready for the vibrator. Eventually coming with me being pretty forceful, but shallow. Thumb working her clit. Big orgasm. I was perfectly satisfied for some reason. I guess it was spontaneous, no pressure, just pleasuring my wife. It was the best sexual experience in months with her. It is still weird, but maybe that?s taking a turn.

And here I am still a PM away from having a very thick cock to pleasure.

Is this urge worth totally upending my life if things go sideways? Could I actually maintain a sexual relationship with a man over time?

What is it about sex with a man? I do like the feel of cock. I like sucking cock. I have enjoyed being fucked. I have gotten excited by kissing. Rubbed my cock against another hard cock. Dry humped. Made that hispanic kid sort of come in my mouth. I have never had with a big load in my mouth. Or ass.

While I have been sitting here I have looked on Grindr 5-6 times. I could get talked into having him over today. There is a good chance I could end up taking a thick cock in my ass today or tomorrow. Man?it's very confusing to know what is really right. Exploring a part of my sexuality that excites me. At the risk of setting the Law of Unintended Consequences in motion and ending up in a bad situation.

[phalluster]

mrheem I totally understand where you are. I fucked my wife and made her cum really hard this morning, yet here I am thinking about cock.
I was also in your position recently. Connected online and then by phone with a man would would be PERFECT - he's divorced, he's my age, a lot of same interests and same profession. He gave me his address and asked me to come over. Not a flake. I thought long and hard (pun intended) about it and decided that hooking up with him would really be no different than hooking up with another woman - it would be cheating on my wife. And I decided it was not worth the risk. And even if I didn't get caught, it would still be cheating and I'd feel guilty.
So, I decided to be happy with all that I have and only go as far as enjoying images of cocks and men enjoying them.
It really comes down to your marriage and how your wife would take it. And if you are willing take the risk of ruining your marriage.