darkeyes
Oct 15, 2006, 4:58 PM
One thing wich distresses me wiv peeps I know is the hurt an confusion they hav wen the mums an dads cant undastand their sexuality an all 2 often go as far as 2 disown em an leave em 2 ther own devices. Goes for gays an lezzies as well as us. Me wos lucky wiv gr8 mum an dad who neva had ne real probs bout me sexuality, but only really wiv wot they called me irresponsibility in deployin it. Listened 2 so much hurt an wile me cant mayb understand fully wy peeps so hard on ther kids as they begin 2 truly undastand and experiment wivtheir sexuality, the followin letta in form of a poem cud b in so many ways aimed at me bro who cant accept or undastand why I am wot I am.
Dear mummy
I’m sorry
You are my best friend and I’m sorry
Why can’t you understand?
Why can’t you see?
I love as you love dad
I laugh as you do with dad…
…and cry as you do over dad
And with him
I’m really sorry
But why can’t you understand?
I am still the same little girl
And no different inside
I have hopes and dreams
Compassion and passion
Loves and hates.
Mummy why?
Am I so different?
I love you mummy as I always have
And daddy too
I wish you only to always be here
And to always love me as your little girl
Until now you have never judged me
Always helped me
Never doubted me
Refused to condemn me
Why now mummy?
Why the change?
Or am I so changed?
Am I no longer the same?
Can I be so much less in your eyes?
Mummy why not?
Why can’t you understand?
My head follows where my heart tells
My needs and wants what my head and spirit demands
You and daddy always told me to follow my heart
To use my head but always to be my own person
Now I am
Why mummy, why can’t you understand?
I love you mummy. :(
Dear mummy
I’m sorry
You are my best friend and I’m sorry
Why can’t you understand?
Why can’t you see?
I love as you love dad
I laugh as you do with dad…
…and cry as you do over dad
And with him
I’m really sorry
But why can’t you understand?
I am still the same little girl
And no different inside
I have hopes and dreams
Compassion and passion
Loves and hates.
Mummy why?
Am I so different?
I love you mummy as I always have
And daddy too
I wish you only to always be here
And to always love me as your little girl
Until now you have never judged me
Always helped me
Never doubted me
Refused to condemn me
Why now mummy?
Why the change?
Or am I so changed?
Am I no longer the same?
Can I be so much less in your eyes?
Mummy why not?
Why can’t you understand?
My head follows where my heart tells
My needs and wants what my head and spirit demands
You and daddy always told me to follow my heart
To use my head but always to be my own person
Now I am
Why mummy, why can’t you understand?
I love you mummy. :(