Not sure where I fit in, what do you think?

[Nocockyet]

I apologize up front for the long post.

as a child before I even started jacking off, I came across the “everything you wanted to know about sex book” in my parents room. I read something in there about men and anal, and how it could feel good, so I tried it. Here and there over while growing up I tried making little phallic devices to try but never ever thought about them as dicks. In fact, the book specifically talked about a woman doing it to a guy, so I never thought of it as gay or bi even. The years go by, I realize that I am an extremely awkward and shy person. There were so many chicks I wanted to be with and just didn’t have the nerve. And all the while experimenting with home made toys. It never really did anything for me until I was in my late teens and WOW! I finally figured it out. Still was completely turned off by the thought of being with another man. I finally overcome my shyness long enough to meet someone and start a life together, And... introduce a little ass play into the relationship. I think that the time it was only used as something to spice things up, kinda like when I was younger, I needed a little extra kink to make it interesting. Now during the last 30 years the toys have become more and more like dicks, and bigger as well. The wife and I stopped using them together, and I started a quest to get bigger and bigger toys and more realistic. It was about 2 years ago I started fantasizing about what it would be like to actually be with someone. I can imagine the whole thing, sucking them off, and then have them pound me relentlessly until I blow. However, I just cannot picture kissing them, or having any kind of relationship. I still hurt my neck checking out women, and Truly want to get with women, but still in the back of my mind have accepted to some degree that I would like to at least once try a real cock. Unfortunately, now I need a rather large one to satisfy me.

is this normal? Can anyone else relate?

[Tag200]

I can relate .. you are interesting in cock but nothing else regarding men. I feel the same way ... look at some of my other posts ... and yes I do think you should try a real cock for sure .. I have and still feel like I have not fully tried it

[KDaddy23]

At first, few people are quite sure where they fit in here and more so when, I dunno, we just assume that if a guy is interested in dick, he must be into guys when that's never been the truth. A lot of guys are into anal play but wouldn't dream of having the real thing in their ass because, you know, that shit is gay... but they do love having their prostate messed with even with a dick that isn't real... but it's not unusual for such a guy to wonder what the real thing would feel like. Does it mean anything? Is such a guy really bisexual? Maybe... and maybe not and because you are whatever you believe yourself to be and what others think or say you are, well, that's what they think and say. Should you try a real one? Why not if you feel comfortable doing so? So what if you "don't like men like that?" A lot of us don't - even I don't like men like that but I do like dick very much. Given "the choice" between having a real dick in my ass or an artificial one? Gimme the real one... and why not? So what if someone else thinks I'm bi or gay? Don't much care what someone else thinks - but what I think does matter and I do, on occasion, like having a real dick in my ass and feeling sperm being pumped in there... because it feels good. What other reason is needed?

[Nocockyet]

I have to somehow overcome this fear of the unknown and try to make it happen though. I just don’t know where to begin. Where to look.

[KDaddy23]

That's usually the hard part. Where you fit in, at the end of the day, doesn't really matter a whole lot... but a lot of guys are still waiting to have their first experience because it's difficult to get over any fears they may have and combined with - usually - having no idea how to find a guy to do something with. All kinds of apps for this but that tends to increase fears and introduce new ones because you're dealing with the devil you don't know - pretty scary shit. One of my favorite sayings is, "If it's something you really want to do, you'll find a way to do it." And it's not that some guys don't want to do it - they don't really want to do it enough to set whatever fears they have aside so they can get that first experience under their belt.

I've given a lot of guys their first time and have heard their fears and it's not easy to get some to not be afraid of the unknown and so many other things.

[tommyswing]

some years before I started bottoming like you I was filling my bottom with small toys. I slowly worked my way into letting a man enter me. As far as wanting a large on I can relate to that, I have grown to enjoy a sizeable cock in me, and I think it's hot that you're enjoying larger toys, I enjoy them too.

[Nocockyet]

Well, I definitely want to do it. No doubt that if I wasn’t married or the exactly perfect situation presented itself, I would have done it a while ago. I am working up to it faster now that I have gotten the nerve to get on here and share. It’s interesting how I got to this point. Like I said, I originally didn’t play with dick shaped toys. But then my wife and I rented a porno and a chick with a strap on was giving it to a dude, and I thought, “I wouldn’t mind that “ so I then had to slowly work her up to the idea. It was used as a little for-play, but nothing prolonged. Then she lost a bunch of weight. For the first time since before we were married I was attracted to her and we fucked constantly. So much so that it got a little boring, so we busted out the strap-on and this time I was so turned on, and she could actually maneuver enough that she pushed me down on my stomach and really gave it to me. I was so turned on and it felt so good that spontaneously came. It was the most erotic thing that we ever did and I think it worried her. Or made her jealous, who knows, but the strap on never came out and shortly after that, and she gained ALL of the weight back and then some. Now we can’t get together even if we wanted to. Short story long... I want to give someone pleasure with my ass sooo bad. I’m sure the feeling of someone actually getting something from it and the feeling of a real cock is what I have been after for the last few years.

[Joboo]

I can relate, that’s how I feel about certain guys. I just like sucking their dick and much prefer it to be bigger than mine. I love feeling submissive. If you knew me you would not believe one word I’ve written.