BeachHound
Mar 31, 2017, 11:39 PM
For me, it was a couple of weeks ago and I am 53. I never thought that I would ever actually do it. I wanted to, but never thought I could get past the nervousness or the fear to actually try it. I did it finally, and I never imagined how good it really feels. I would love to hear first time stories from anyone else as well, especially those whose first time came much later in life. This is my story..........
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I vaguely remember something when I was very young. I don’t remember why I was there, but it must have been when I was about 5 or 6. I lived close to the post office and one day when I was there by myself, I had met a girl who was probably about 13 or 14. I remember following her behind the building where it was private and nobody would see what was happening. She asked me to pull down my pants, and for me not knowing any better I did. I remember her playing with my little dick and she placed it in her mouth. I don’t remember anything else other than that, but that very image had stuck in my mind for many years to come.
When I was 11, I wanted to experiment pretty much the same way that the girl did to me. I had asked a friend at the time if he would let me try it; and he did. Being at age 11, I really didn’t know what to do other than to put my mouth on it. Well that was a huge mistake! After that, he went and told everyone at school what I had done. I had become a target of ridicule and hateful threats. One day on my way home from school, 4 to 5 boys jumped me, and they took turns beating me and kicking me while I was on the ground. I was outnumbered so all I could think of was to escape and get the hell out of there. I managed to get up and run to a neighbor’s house and banged on the door, it was then my attackers fled. I was thankful when my parents decided to move to another state far from that place. I swore to never let that happen to me again! Not ever!
Strangely enough, I have always had sexual fantasies that were really considered taboo. I have had a lot of fantasies about women, but I had fantasies about men too. I have found that the fantasies about men would always cause a sudden and intense sexual desire. Afterwards though, the thought would become extremely gross and my thoughts then shifted to women. Over time, the thoughts of it being gross changed to just being dismissive. I found myself obsessing over my own cock, wanting so badly to stick it in my mouth and swallow my own come. The problem with that is that I can’t reach it, and by the time I come the desire suddenly leaves so I don’t swallow it. The thought crossed my mind that the best way to have a cock in my mouth is to find someone else. The problem I had with that is the fear of the other person running their mouth, the fear of STDs, and the fear of discovery. It would have to be someone that I trusted completely and still I wasn’t sure if I could follow through or not.
I had joined this site a couple of years ago. I had talked to a couple of people on here and learned about some of their experiences. I didn’t have any real experiences to share other than the one bad one. It made me all the more curious, but still the thought of crossing that line was fearful.
A little more than a year ago, I met a guy on here. We struck up a good friendship, and quickly become comfortable talking about almost anything. We had a lot in common and our views are very similar; it was easy to become good friends. I made a trip to see him when he was down last year. To actually meet the guy that we had talked to for months in person made me feel comfortable with him. He lived out of state for half the year, and stays here in Florida during the winter months. We didn’t get a chance to meet again until earlier this month.
A few weeks ago, I was getting ready to go see him. I had a pretty good idea what was going to happen. I knew that this was it. I was very nervous, scared, but excited and hopeful at the same time. We have shared intimate videos back and forth of women giving passionate blowjobs. All I could think of is what it would be like to give a blow job to this man.
When I got there, we talked a good bit about several different things. Eventually the subject turned to sex. He put on a video to watch, it was one of my very favorite blow job videos that I have ever seen. The sensual sucking, and one of the few videos where it showed him coming in her mouth and she swallows. This time, my mind was not on her; it was on the bulge in his pants. It was the anticipation because I knew for sure what was going to happen. Each of us pulled off our pants, then removed our underwear. For the first time, I was able to look at another man’s cock standing in front of me and without feeling shame. I wanted it in my mouth so bad. He offered to go first, so I let him. What I felt was so amazing. I never knew that receiving a blow job would feel so good. After a while, it was my turn. I happily took his cock in my mouth, and noted how good it felt. It was amazing to feel the texture, and how it felt when I pushed his cock all the way into my mouth. I had a little gag reflex but it wasn’t so much that I couldn’t take it. We took a short break, and then while trying to decide what’s next; I told him that I wanted to 69. I wanted his cock in my mouth so bad, but I also wanted to feel him on mine as well. So off to the bedroom we went. It was the most rewarding experience that I ever had. This was our very first time, very first experience. I was so extremely horny and worked up, that I came first. I wasn’t sure how I was going to feel afterwards so we stopped. I only wish that I would have kept going and finished him off, because I know now that I could have.
I had learned a lot from this first experience.
1 - I always had fantasies about deep-throating or having his cock balls deep in my mouth. I had seen some videos of the giver gagging and making a spitty mess. I had thought to myself that there was absolutely no way I could do that, as erotic as it looked by watching the videos, it would have been pure torture. But in reality, it wasn’t like that at all; it was much better, much easier. I was able to take all of it in my mouth with no problem at all, just a mild gag reflex that was easily overcome. Since I was pushing it in deep and then pulling out, the gag reflex was only very brief. It felt very good that I was able to accomplish that. I do think that they key here is not to have a partner that is hung with a huge cock.
2 – I was afraid that after I came, I would have an overwhelming feeling of regret, remorse of what I had just done. Fearing that once I come, my libido disappears suddenly and any thoughts of having sex with a guy would go with it. But that did not happen for me. My interest in it left, but I had no regrets over what we just did. What I was feeling was that of appreciation. I was more concerned with how he felt afterwards then how I was feeling.
3 – I was extremely nervous the whole time I was there. I could not calm myself down no matter what. It wasn’t until we were in the middle of the act before my nerves finally calmed down. It was then I realized that it was really no big deal of what we were doing. It felt so good doing it, so why so nervous?
4 – Porn is so exciting to look at, but it is nothing like reality. Pornography is all “visual” stimulation. When I was doing that to him, I didn’t care about the visual aspect of it. I only cared about the physical feeling of it for him and for myself. That is all that matters anyway and that beats watching porn any day! You never know how it will actually feel until you make it real. Nothing can prepare you for that experience, and it is one that I am glad that I had a chance to have and most certainly hope to have many many more times to come. (pun intended)
5 – I have never thought too much about how it would feel to receive a blow job. It never really crossed my mind too much, I just wanted to give one. I never received one in my whole life so I had no idea how it would feel. After having received one, I had no idea what I was missing. It felt so damn good! I think I enjoyed receiving it as much as I did to give it. It was AMAZING!! It is an experience that leaves me wanting more. I do think that this is addictive!!!
6 – The one thing that was a must for me to try something like this with someone was that I had to be really comfortable with the guy. This means I have to have 100% trust in him, and he had to be a good friend. I couldn’t have had a better partner to do this with.
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Final thoughts:
I really do appreciate the patience that this man had given me. It allowed me to overcome many of the fears that I have harbored over the years. Ever since that day all I can think about is having sex with him. I am going to meet up with him again tomorrow and I can't wait to see what is in store for us when I get there. I guess one could say that I am a happy and proud cocksucker. So be it.... :)=
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I vaguely remember something when I was very young. I don’t remember why I was there, but it must have been when I was about 5 or 6. I lived close to the post office and one day when I was there by myself, I had met a girl who was probably about 13 or 14. I remember following her behind the building where it was private and nobody would see what was happening. She asked me to pull down my pants, and for me not knowing any better I did. I remember her playing with my little dick and she placed it in her mouth. I don’t remember anything else other than that, but that very image had stuck in my mind for many years to come.
When I was 11, I wanted to experiment pretty much the same way that the girl did to me. I had asked a friend at the time if he would let me try it; and he did. Being at age 11, I really didn’t know what to do other than to put my mouth on it. Well that was a huge mistake! After that, he went and told everyone at school what I had done. I had become a target of ridicule and hateful threats. One day on my way home from school, 4 to 5 boys jumped me, and they took turns beating me and kicking me while I was on the ground. I was outnumbered so all I could think of was to escape and get the hell out of there. I managed to get up and run to a neighbor’s house and banged on the door, it was then my attackers fled. I was thankful when my parents decided to move to another state far from that place. I swore to never let that happen to me again! Not ever!
Strangely enough, I have always had sexual fantasies that were really considered taboo. I have had a lot of fantasies about women, but I had fantasies about men too. I have found that the fantasies about men would always cause a sudden and intense sexual desire. Afterwards though, the thought would become extremely gross and my thoughts then shifted to women. Over time, the thoughts of it being gross changed to just being dismissive. I found myself obsessing over my own cock, wanting so badly to stick it in my mouth and swallow my own come. The problem with that is that I can’t reach it, and by the time I come the desire suddenly leaves so I don’t swallow it. The thought crossed my mind that the best way to have a cock in my mouth is to find someone else. The problem I had with that is the fear of the other person running their mouth, the fear of STDs, and the fear of discovery. It would have to be someone that I trusted completely and still I wasn’t sure if I could follow through or not.
I had joined this site a couple of years ago. I had talked to a couple of people on here and learned about some of their experiences. I didn’t have any real experiences to share other than the one bad one. It made me all the more curious, but still the thought of crossing that line was fearful.
A little more than a year ago, I met a guy on here. We struck up a good friendship, and quickly become comfortable talking about almost anything. We had a lot in common and our views are very similar; it was easy to become good friends. I made a trip to see him when he was down last year. To actually meet the guy that we had talked to for months in person made me feel comfortable with him. He lived out of state for half the year, and stays here in Florida during the winter months. We didn’t get a chance to meet again until earlier this month.
A few weeks ago, I was getting ready to go see him. I had a pretty good idea what was going to happen. I knew that this was it. I was very nervous, scared, but excited and hopeful at the same time. We have shared intimate videos back and forth of women giving passionate blowjobs. All I could think of is what it would be like to give a blow job to this man.
When I got there, we talked a good bit about several different things. Eventually the subject turned to sex. He put on a video to watch, it was one of my very favorite blow job videos that I have ever seen. The sensual sucking, and one of the few videos where it showed him coming in her mouth and she swallows. This time, my mind was not on her; it was on the bulge in his pants. It was the anticipation because I knew for sure what was going to happen. Each of us pulled off our pants, then removed our underwear. For the first time, I was able to look at another man’s cock standing in front of me and without feeling shame. I wanted it in my mouth so bad. He offered to go first, so I let him. What I felt was so amazing. I never knew that receiving a blow job would feel so good. After a while, it was my turn. I happily took his cock in my mouth, and noted how good it felt. It was amazing to feel the texture, and how it felt when I pushed his cock all the way into my mouth. I had a little gag reflex but it wasn’t so much that I couldn’t take it. We took a short break, and then while trying to decide what’s next; I told him that I wanted to 69. I wanted his cock in my mouth so bad, but I also wanted to feel him on mine as well. So off to the bedroom we went. It was the most rewarding experience that I ever had. This was our very first time, very first experience. I was so extremely horny and worked up, that I came first. I wasn’t sure how I was going to feel afterwards so we stopped. I only wish that I would have kept going and finished him off, because I know now that I could have.
I had learned a lot from this first experience.
1 - I always had fantasies about deep-throating or having his cock balls deep in my mouth. I had seen some videos of the giver gagging and making a spitty mess. I had thought to myself that there was absolutely no way I could do that, as erotic as it looked by watching the videos, it would have been pure torture. But in reality, it wasn’t like that at all; it was much better, much easier. I was able to take all of it in my mouth with no problem at all, just a mild gag reflex that was easily overcome. Since I was pushing it in deep and then pulling out, the gag reflex was only very brief. It felt very good that I was able to accomplish that. I do think that they key here is not to have a partner that is hung with a huge cock.
2 – I was afraid that after I came, I would have an overwhelming feeling of regret, remorse of what I had just done. Fearing that once I come, my libido disappears suddenly and any thoughts of having sex with a guy would go with it. But that did not happen for me. My interest in it left, but I had no regrets over what we just did. What I was feeling was that of appreciation. I was more concerned with how he felt afterwards then how I was feeling.
3 – I was extremely nervous the whole time I was there. I could not calm myself down no matter what. It wasn’t until we were in the middle of the act before my nerves finally calmed down. It was then I realized that it was really no big deal of what we were doing. It felt so good doing it, so why so nervous?
4 – Porn is so exciting to look at, but it is nothing like reality. Pornography is all “visual” stimulation. When I was doing that to him, I didn’t care about the visual aspect of it. I only cared about the physical feeling of it for him and for myself. That is all that matters anyway and that beats watching porn any day! You never know how it will actually feel until you make it real. Nothing can prepare you for that experience, and it is one that I am glad that I had a chance to have and most certainly hope to have many many more times to come. (pun intended)
5 – I have never thought too much about how it would feel to receive a blow job. It never really crossed my mind too much, I just wanted to give one. I never received one in my whole life so I had no idea how it would feel. After having received one, I had no idea what I was missing. It felt so damn good! I think I enjoyed receiving it as much as I did to give it. It was AMAZING!! It is an experience that leaves me wanting more. I do think that this is addictive!!!
6 – The one thing that was a must for me to try something like this with someone was that I had to be really comfortable with the guy. This means I have to have 100% trust in him, and he had to be a good friend. I couldn’t have had a better partner to do this with.
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Final thoughts:
I really do appreciate the patience that this man had given me. It allowed me to overcome many of the fears that I have harbored over the years. Ever since that day all I can think about is having sex with him. I am going to meet up with him again tomorrow and I can't wait to see what is in store for us when I get there. I guess one could say that I am a happy and proud cocksucker. So be it.... :)=