Homo fantasm and hetero couple

[hommebleu]

Hi,

I am a newbie here; I suppose my story isn't that original in itself, but anyway...

I met a girl 4 months ago. I really enjoy here, and it's been great since that time. It was difficult at first because I had a syncope at a restaurant after our first night together. I think I was somehow scared because she wanted so much to go further with me but I wasn't sure yet...

Anyway, I always had some homosexual fantasm, and had sex with a man once last year. But now I am with a girl, and I enjoy her. We make love regularly, and it is good. I feel well with her. I don't feel as much in love as I was in the past, but I feel stronger and more in control of what I feel and we just are a very good match with great comprehensive friendship and everything.

So this is the problem... As time goes by, I realize that I may be with this girl for a long time. So I don't know how to deal with my homosexual fantasies (that is, I'd like to try anal bottom someday... or like to know how it is to feel 'dominated') and I don't think I can tell her about it (her last boyfriend left her... for HIS best friend, so she could not bare it).

So I am confused. I have this great relationship with a great girl, but every once and then I get on the net and look for gay porn...

Anybody has any idea?! Thanks!

[swag85]

hi there, first off id like to say welcome!
thats a tough situation, your in. ive been there, i also had a girl that i loved, although she left the apartment we are on a "break" i myself felt the same way, she was going to return and we were going to be together again. but in my mind, i knew i wouldnt be happy with her because i wasnt done exploring. what im trying to get at is you have to be true to yourself first. you have to know what will make you happpy. and grrab it. it may be a tough desision. but you have to be true to your self! Hope this helped.
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[pegasus3]

bienvenue homme bleu

If you want to discuss just ring me itllbe a plaesure to share mye xperience..