Too Horny For My Own Good

[dm330]

I just need to get this off my chest, as I've been keeping it to myself long enough now and I guess I'm hoping that discussing it here will help, since I don't have anyone really to confide in.

Lately I've been feeling so damn horny, I've been stroking my dick 6-7 times a day, more on some occasions for the last couple months and I don't see an end in sight. I haven't been this horny since high school. Even after I play with my buddies, I want more. I love giving oral sex. I'm not easy, just overly horny. I give a guy I work with rides to and from work and when we talk about sex I get a boner and he knows it. Once I even stroked on the way to work one morning. He's one I'd love to suck a nut out of. I keep those I play with and my bisexuality on the down low, so I suppose that's why I don't have anyone else to talk to about this. That's why I started this thread; to vent and get it off my chest. Anybody else feel this way right now or ever felt this way before? I kinda feel better already.

[newlynymphos]

I get that way in the summer, and/or when I wear girls clothes and get pampered at the Salon :D I has a raging hard on yesterday wearing skin tight ultra low rise skinny jeans at the Salon, getting my eyebrows waxed and hair colored :) My rock hard cock was massively obvious! I was wearing a pink "Minions" belly shirt, and narrow 3" heeled shin high boots :)

[jackofbothtrades]

I just need to get this off my chest, as I've been keeping it to myself long enough now and I guess I'm hoping that discussing it here will help, since I don't have anyone really to confide in.

Lately I've been feeling so damn horny, I've been stroking my dick 6-7 times a day, more on some occasions for the last couple months and I don't see an end in sight. I haven't been this horny since high school. Even after I play with my buddies, I want more. I love giving oral sex. I'm not easy, just overly horny. I give a guy I work with rides to and from work and when we talk about sex I get a boner and he knows it. Once I even stroked on the way to work one morning. He's one I'd love to suck a nut out of. I keep those I play with and my bisexuality on the down low, so I suppose that's why I don't have anyone else to talk to about this. That's why I started this thread; to vent and get it off my chest. Anybody else feel this way right now or ever felt this way before? I kinda feel better already.

That's why I like this board, a good nonjudgmental place to vent. Maybe it's the time of the year?, I'm also more excited than I've been in a while.

[nomorenomore]

I get the horny all the time. I have been under a lot of stress lately and couldn't even satisfy myself anymore. Well the stress abated a bit and all of a sudden, I had such an anal fixation. I work from home and am alone most of the time and I find I want to drop my pants and play with my ass. I am my only lover, so no real satisfaction. Worse, because we are in the process of moving, all my toys are at the new house so that they aren't come across when there is an Open House at my current place. I get so horny at times.

[Realist]

I've always thought I was the most easily aroused and luckiest, guy in the world! Yes, I was supremely horny, too. I still am, in fact, but with less ability to enjoy a sexual partner all day long!

During my first sexual encounter, in my early teens with a retired neighbor, he would ensure I had a steady source of relief, anytime I wanted it. And, once he opened that flood gate, I wanted all I could get! That was the beginning of the best (most active, most pleasurable) year of my young life!

Looking back, my capacity for sex seemed endless and I actually maintained that vigor for most of my life! (I have since met others, who far exceeded even my earliest abilities!)

That school year, I was sent to a military school, where I would have sex with two boys my age. One was OK, but his replacement was magnificent........ and the first boy I ever fell in love with! Again, I was gifted with a steady source of pleasure. The following summer, I was again with my old neighbor, then had my first female experience as well. I was beginning to think my whole life would be filled with willing paramours!!

During all this time, I was getting spoiled and don't remember masturbating more than a very few times.

All that fun came to a screeching halt the following school year; I was sent to another military school, closer to home, and the environment was completely opposite of the previous school. We had no privacy, constant supervision, and participation in many activities were mandatory. My personal private time was about a half day, each week! Those were some the few times in my life when I had to hide to relieve myself.

As NOMORE stated, making love with/to myself was not my desired manner of sexual gratification, but the only recourse I had that year. I was convinced that, if I have to go any length of time without an orgasm, I would surely die! Happily, that dry spell lasted only until I was allowed to return to public schools again and there was a ready source of willing persons, who would be as virile as I was!

During most of my life, I've been lucky enough to meet like-minded partners, of both genders, with whom I could engage in pleasurable relationships. Those connections were both emotional and sexual in nature....a much more invigorating way to live, than providing my own satisfaction!

Nature and age has a way of relieving us of those wonderful abilities, though, so those of you who still can, better enjoy the sensual life! It's astounding how fast old age sneaks up on you!

My memories are of fantastic lovers and FWBs, who were so much a part of my life. At least, those will always be with me. Oh, there's been some ill-fated experiences, that I choose to push back into a little-used corner of my mind. But the bad ones have a purpose......they make the good ones that much better!

But, was I too horny for my own good? Nope, just horny enough to handle what life provided!

[sdf123]

I was in an accident and I have been off work for going on two weeks. I have been so horny that I have masturbated four to five times a day. I just cant get enough. I have been watching porn but its just like I cant find anything that is satisfying enough. I have been playing with my vibrating dildos but I need more....

[pole_smoker]

When I was 14, my first lover was a male of 60-something.

During my first sexual encounter, in my early teens with a retired neighbor, he would ensure I had a steady source of relief, anytime I wanted it. And, once he opened that flood gate, I wanted all I could get! That was the beginning of the best (most active, most pleasurable) year of my young life!



Yes you were sexually abused by a sick ped0. Get help for it.

As for the OP, he should find a male or if he's bi female partner who has a high sex drive.

[goodsonformom]

Many of us had our first sexual experiences in the hands of a mature person. I did and I was younger than Realist. It was a neighbor and most people would say I was molested, I say "sexualized" as I was willing, extremely willing. He was naughty but gentle and never forced me....nuff said.

[pole_smoker]

Many of us had our first sexual experiences in the hands of a mature person. I did and I was younger than Realist. It was a neighbor and most people would say I was molested, I say "sexualized" as I was willing, extremely willing. He was naughty but gentle and never forced me....nuff said.
That's sexual abuse, and people who do what happened to you and realist are sick and belong in prison.

[jem_is_bi]

That's sexual abuse, and people who do what happened to you and realist are sick and belong in prison.

I never had sex with an adult as a child. But, I was bisexual from a very young age (approx.5 onward), so, I would have been more than willing to do so.
Your dividing line on abuse and need for prison may be right, but, when the scope of the acts and persons involved are restricted to the experiences of goodsonformom, or realist, then your view does not resonate with me. Rather, you appear to be attacking them because they failed to be harmed.

[Hypersexual11]

Odd timing for this thread. I've had sex with the wife every day this week and today while she was sleeping, jerked off 3 times and am about to again. I think it's because we are going on vacation really soon and the anticipation of leaving this freezer and laying on a beach has me hard all day.

[biguy1940]

I never had sex with an adult as a child. But, I was bisexual from a very young age (approx.5 onward), so, I would have been more than willing to do so.
Your dividing line on abuse and need for prison may be right, but, when the scope of the acts and persons involved are restricted to the experiences of goodsonformom, or realist, then your view does not resonate with me. Rather, you appear to be attacking them because they failed to be harmed.
i'm glad to see that i'm not the only one that saw that....how dare you not live up to my prejudices...but old PS is a pretty sad case anyway

[pole_smoker]

I never had sex with an adult as a child. But, I was bisexual from a very young age (approx.5 onward), so, I would have been more than willing to do so.
Your dividing line on abuse and need for prison may be right, but, when the scope of the acts and persons involved are restricted to the experiences of goodsonformom, or realist, then your view does not resonate with me. Rather, you appear to be attacking them because they failed to be harmed.
I'm not "attacking" anyone. I'm "attacking" their claims that sexual abuse doesn't harm people, isn't traumatizing, that they "wanted it", that they're not damaged or harmed from being sexually abused/molested, or other BS people who have been sexually abused claim to justify what was done to them...since sexual abuse and molestation does damage people and harm them even if the people who unfortunately had this done to them want to pretend and claim it does not.

[dm330]

I hear you man. I've beat off 4 times yesterday and kinda regret lol, although at least I'm down from the 6 or 7 times a day that I've been doing. I have a 3sum planned with my buddy and his girl tomorrow night and trying to let the load build up, but damn I just can't keep this dick down for anything. I'm really going to try to keep from cumming today, at least hold the nut in till we have our 3sum, but I know I'll be stroking it a lot still.

[goodsonformom]

PS.......Generally I agree with you, and in principle I agree with you in some degree......but I will say that the statistics are skewed....and there are no absolutes in any of these situations. There is a lot of grey ground here.....right or wrong....whether you agree or not.....the fact is there are many who have survived "molestation" and never missed a beat in a normal life..... Many times these moments are not forced.....they are whether you agree or not, a momentary lapse of reason on the part of an adult, encouraged or created by a sexually hungry boy in my case. Maybe the adult should have shown restraint, but I was a very sexual boy who was looking for an adult to engage with me seually. I had been "molested" by another male. It was gentle and not forced and did not include sodomy.....and I was looking.....I would wear my short cut offs with no shirt and cut this mans lawn.....I would tease him and encourage him....and one day he presented himself in a way that allowed me to say yes.....you may touch me.....suck me.....hold me....I will be naked for you....but I need you to respect me and not hurt me.....and he did. It was an amazing relationship. It is one that today, I still masturbate remembering how incredible he made me feel.....and how loving and respectful he was......

I understand this may be beyond your realm of beliefs.....one that you can't get your arms around.....but there are many exceptions to the rules that society deems un-except able. Yet, this said, I would never encourage any other young person to follow my doings, nor would I allow myself to be that man.....hypocritical maybe.....but I'm good with how it worked for me...

[pole_smoker]

PS.......Generally I agree with you, and in principle I agree with you in some degree......but I will say that the statistics are skewed....and there are no absolutes in any of these situations. There is a lot of grey ground here.....right or wrong....whether you agree or not.....the fact is there are many who have survived "molestation" and never missed a beat in a normal life..... Many times these moments are not forced.....they are whether you agree or not, a momentary lapse of reason on the part of an adult, encouraged or created by a sexually hungry boy in my case. Maybe the adult should have shown restraint, but I was a very sexual boy who was looking for an adult to engage with me seually. I had been "molested" by another male. It was gentle and not forced and did not include sodomy.....and I was looking.....I would wear my short cut offs with no shirt and cut this mans lawn.....I would tease him and encourage him....and one day he presented himself in a way that allowed me to say yes.....you may touch me.....suck me.....hold me....I will be naked for you....but I need you to respect me and not hurt me.....and he did. It was an amazing relationship. It is one that today, I still masturbate remembering how incredible he made me feel.....and how loving and respectful he was......

I understand this may be beyond your realm of beliefs.....one that you can't get your arms around.....but there are many exceptions to the rules that society deems un-except able. Yet, this said, I would never encourage any other young person to follow my doings, nor would I allow myself to be that man.....hypocritical maybe.....but I'm good with how it worked for me...
Why are you falling into the professional victim mode of "I wanted it...it was consensual..." when it comes to sexual abuse/sexual molestation?

Sexual abuse/molestation does damage people, and adults and older people who do this should be in prison.

[BiCocksucker]

dm330, I was just like you at your age. There is nothing wrong with you, you just have a much higher testosterone level than the average male. I was the same way. In my 20s I had to jack off or get laid at least 10 times a day. I'd even jack off while driving on long work trips on the interstate. Having experienced it all I can tell you is to enjoy it! Seriously. I'm bisexual and I'd ofter be fantasizing about sucking cocks or being fucked when I jacked off. When I started sucking cocks, I became addicted to it. So much so that I started letting men take photos or video of me sucking their cocks. Like a fool, I trusted them when they said no one would ever see the photos. One day an asshole that lived next door came to me and said "I just saw a picture of you on line with another man's dick in your mouth!" I told him to go fuck himself, but he was right. I began appearing on sites all over the internet. DON'T LET ANYONE TAKE PHOTOS OF YOU SUCKING COCKS! It ruined my life, my career, none of the women around here who know me will have anything to do with me. I'm thinking of moving to a larger, more bi-friendly area, maybe somewhere in south florida. Anyway, I was still so addicted to sucking cum from the cocks of strangers, I found myself spending hours every day sucking men off through glory holes, and I let anyone take all the photos and video they wanted. I even started doing real gay porn just to get more sex. I worked for free, just for the sex. Not sure where I'm going with this, except to say you needing to jack off all day is not at all a bad thing, just don't let anyone take photos if you ever start sucking cocks, unless you want to end up as I did. my life is now so fucked up, I said fuck it and created a blog loaded with as many of the photos and video clips of me being used as I could find on line and it's posted there. Feel free to take a look if you'd like to see how addicted to sucking cock I became. Here's the link: http://vintageporngay.blogspot.com/ Thanks to all who took time to read my story.

[NEBiGuy]

dm330, I hear you. I get periods of anywhere from a few days to a few weeks where I'm obsessed, and then it fades to a more average level.

Try to see if you can correlate it to anything - change in diet? Exercise? I find my libido gets a little boost if I'm more consistently drinking Cabernet instead of beer, for example.

If you can figure it out, and prove it repeatedly, you can probably sell the "recipe"!

In the mean time, just enjoy it, and share your thoughts up here. We're all listening (well, most all).

[goodsonformom]

I'm not falling into victim mode, I have never looked at myself as a victim in this. In someways I actually believe the mature guy I was sexual with was the victim. I knew he was Gay, and I did everything I could over the course of that summer to tease him and seduce him into an intimate situation. I agree with you regarding the appropriateness of adult/underage relationships. It's more than obvious that a mature mind is far more ready for sexual relationships at any level, compared to that of the adolescent psyche. I was simply stating in the beginning of this that there are exceptions to the black and white thinking regarding damage. I was not debating whether or not it was right or wrong, I think we all will agree it's not the right thing to do....You stated......"I'm "attacking" their claims that sexual abuse doesn't harm people"......saying that it is always traumatizing.

But clearly........the debate of whether it was right or wrong.....is not the same debate as to whether or not there exists damage, "that it is always traumatizing" on the part of the underage person. I live a healthy respectful life, all of my sexual partners have always been over the age of consent. I have no sexual hangups which inhibit me, and no desires for underage partners. In fact I have always loved older mature males, and still do......My favorite current partner is 80 years old.

Again not to be redundant.....I think we all will agree that it is wrong for an adult to take advantage of an underage individual, it is equally wrong and weak minded to allow themselves to be seduced by a conniving young boy or girl, and then use that as an excuse for their improper behavior..... but then that was not my debate......What I was really arguing was......Not all underage sexual partners perceive themselves to be victims......and not all are destined to a life of guilt, lack of worthiness, and dysfunction.

[Meliss]

It is interesting to have others discuss their sexual drives and desires. I find that sometimes the more I get the more I want. Then when I get distracted by life and rediscover that inner fires that initial blaze is more akin to igniting lighter fluid than kerosene.

[Realist]

Mowing yards, helping with flower beds, gardens, taking a long time to build trust and rapport, that's exactly how I came to my very first orgasmic experience with a man, not too unlike Goodson's.

I've known those who were raped, forced, had fear instilled in them, and brutalized. I assure anyone, my first guy was none of those things. I was ready and wanted what only a knowledgeable, gentle, considerate, caring person could teach me. Looking back on that wonderful man, who took a huge chance to show me what I begged him for, I have no remorse.

I'm convinced that time with him taught me things that helped my mental and sexual development and did no harm me, in any way!

[goodsonformom]

Mowing yards, helping with flower beds, gardens, taking a long time to build trust and rapport, that's exactly how I came to my very first orgasmic experience with a man, not too unlike Goodson's.

I've known those who were raped, forced, had fear instilled in them, and brutalized. I assure anyone, my first guy was none of those things. I was ready and wanted what only a knowledgeable, gentle, considerate, caring person could teach me. Looking back on that wonderful man, who took a huge chance to show me what I begged him for, I have no remorse.

I'm convinced that time with him taught me things that helped my mental and sexual development and did no harm me, in any way!

You and I are very similar. Reading your posts are almost like reliving my own experiences.....remembering how his gentle touch would ignite a fire in me and I would do almost anything. I never look at myself as damaged. I ook at myself as lucky to have been guided by a lovely male.....

[Realist]

I know things could have gone drastically wrong. I certainly didn't know what I wanted, or why I felt those urges. All I knew was I had the fire in me. By the end of that summer, I was more confidant, aware of the possibilities, and knew what to do about it, too.

It was just shear luck that I stumbled upon the one person I knew, back then, who knew how to guide me to the route to take and how to remain safe while doing it!

A few of the things he taught me was...Never have sex with a stranger, or someone you don't trust, never have sex unless you're freshly bathed and your partner is too, never meet a person for the first time in a lonely place, and never do anything that you don't feel comfortable with. There was more, but that advice served me well.

Others may have rules, or not, I don't care...I do what I feel is right for me.

Each person has their own limits and you know what Clint Eastwood said, "You gotta know your limits!

[goodsonformom]

You are very perceptive jem.......I concur.

[pole_smoker]

dm330, I was just like you at your age. There is nothing wrong with you, you just have a much higher testosterone level than the average male. I was the same way. In my 20s I had to jack off or get laid at least 10 times a day. I'd even jack off while driving on long work trips on the interstate. Having experienced it all I can tell you is to enjoy it! Seriously. I'm bisexual and I'd ofter be fantasizing about sucking cocks or being fucked when I jacked off. When I started sucking cocks, I became addicted to it. So much so that I started letting men take photos or video of me sucking their cocks. Like a fool, I trusted them when they said no one would ever see the photos. One day an asshole that lived next door came to me and said "I just saw a picture of you on line with another man's dick in your mouth!" I told him to go fuck himself, but he was right. I began appearing on sites all over the internet. DON'T LET ANYONE TAKE PHOTOS OF YOU SUCKING COCKS! It ruined my life, my career, none of the women around here who know me will have anything to do with me. I'm thinking of moving to a larger, more bi-friendly area, maybe somewhere in south florida. Anyway, I was still so addicted to sucking cum from the cocks of strangers, I found myself spending hours every day sucking men off through glory holes, and I let anyone take all the photos and video they wanted. I even started doing real gay porn just to get more sex. I worked for free, just for the sex. Not sure where I'm going with this, except to say you needing to jack off all day is not at all a bad thing, just don't let anyone take photos if you ever start sucking cocks, unless you want to end up as I did. my life is now so fucked up, I said fuck it and created a blog loaded with as many of the photos and video clips of me being used as I could find on line and it's posted there. Feel free to take a look if you'd like to see how addicted to sucking cock I became. Here's the link: http://vintageporngay.blogspot.com/ Thanks to all who took time to read my story.
How many men's cocks have you sucked? Admit it, you wanted those men to take pics of you sucking dick and put them on the internet or spread them around or otherwise you wouldn't have done porn or told them to do this.

[man4girlgirl4man]

I'm always horny…but what you're talking about here is out of control horny. And I get there once in a while. That's when I jerk off outdoors or head to a cruising spot to find a nice big dick for my mouth. Preferably big AND black since I'm a total big black dick loving cocksucker slut. But a 9 or 10 or more than 10 inch dick of any color gets me on my knees with my mouth open wide every time. But seriously, if you can't get yourself out of this hyper horny frenzy and you're not comfortable with that, go spend a few sessions with a sex therapist and maybe you'll learn something new about yourself. And be glad you're getting your dick hard so many times each day….

[elian]

I guess I'm out of my league - if I am lucky I masturbate twice a day..I can't even imagine 5 times a day but I know some guys who do. Actually, any more I try to hold out and NOT masturbate for as long as I can just to remember what desire feels like. I figure if I wait long enough maybe I can have a wet dream.. I've never been able to wait that long though.

Different story when I was younger, before puberty I had multiple orgasms in quick succession which felt really nice...and when I was a teen I'm pretty sure I had more than one locker room fantasy (in my head anyway). Gee, if it was the right shape, I tried it.

Back then I didn't even really think of myself as "gay" - just horny - at least until I started to develop a sexual identity anyway. There was a dress-up phase too. I didn't even think bisexual was a real thing until I started reading this site.

Come to think of it I used to be fascinated with my own genitals from as far back as I could remember, and would stare at anyone who had that part of their body nude as well - maybe it was because adults always made such a big deal about covering that part up.

I guess I was 6-7, maybe if they would've left me alone I wouldn't have been so fascinated but some of my female peers and older boys actually encouraged it.

It was a really strange way to grow up, actually but at least -some- of the experiences I've had seem to be experiences that a lot of children go through.

It's hard for me to start with the idea of just getting someone off, but if I am feeling amorous..

[void()]

It's hard for me to start with the idea of just getting someone off, but if I am feeling amorous..

* 'Wild mikes from the kitchen with a vegan pasta dish, sets you a place, fetches you a drink ... pulls your chair out for you, slides it up as you sit .. drops the robe hanging off me, climbs into your lap and begins to offer you a fork full of the dish, grins ...*

[elian]

My, I see that the noodles on the plate aren't the only ones that are "al dente" .. (hehehe) - Happy Valentines Day to you too honey (smiles/nuzzles/hugs)

Whether I like it or not, all of these experiences programmed me to be sexual. I love helping people, I love nuzzling people, I love pleasuring people - I love just being there with them and the attention and affection that is shared. A lot of times those feelings go unreciprocated - that's the part that sucks.

I had an interesting dream this morning - a little baby kept reappearing and wanting to cuddle. (Of course) cuddling a baby is a lot different than cuddling an adult - I think maybe it is somebody's idea of reminding me that there is more (and more meaning) to relationships with others than just sex.

It sounds like something everyone should know right? ..but that's what happens when you've always known some sort of physical or emotional sex play.... People crossed boundaries with me they probably should not have crossed .. when they did it back then, I was just confused. When they do it now, it actually hurts. Now I am having to re-learn what it means to be a healthy adult. I still love men and women very much.

(wraps arms around Ben and kisses softly)

Sorry, I think I am confusing several of these threads together .. there are topics out there that I would probably post on all three - I guess it's just easier to do it here.

[void()]

My, I see that the noodles on the plate aren't the only ones that are "al dente" .. (hehehe) - Happy Valentines Day to you too honey (smiles/nuzzles/hugs)

Whether I like it or not, all of these experiences programmed me to be sexual. I love helping people, I love nuzzling people, I love pleasuring people - I love just being there with them and the attention and affection that is shared. A lot of times those feelings go unreciprocated - that's the part that sucks.

I had an interesting dream this morning - a little baby kept reappearing and wanting to cuddle. (Of course) cuddling a baby is a lot different than cuddling an adult - I think maybe it is somebody's idea of reminding me that there is more (and more meaning) to relationships with others than just sex.

It sounds like something everyone should know right? ..but that's what happens when you've always known some sort of physical or emotional sex play.... People crossed boundaries with me they probably should not have crossed .. when they did it back then, I was just confused. When they do it now, it actually hurts. Now I am having to re-learn what it means to be a healthy adult. I still love men and women very much.

(wraps arms around Ben and kisses softly)

Sorry, I think I am confusing several of these threads together .. there are topics out there that I would probably post on all three - I guess it's just easier to do it here.

* blushing *

You silly boy. You have the oddest dreams but it is okay. Still love you. :)

* kisses back and cuddles *

I too enjoy, hm, like having affection combined with physical intamacy. That does not imply I need physical to
have affection, nor vise versa. It means I prefer having a healthy balance of both. *chuckles*

Curse me and this whole crux of my life being Balance & Equality being the names of my god and godess. It is what is though, not that I have a god or godess except you and C. :) ;) You two can take turns with the titles, her as Balance one week and you as Balance the next. I'm sure you two can sort it. *chuckles* I'll keep the title of Moderation, that funky guy in the middle. ;) :P :D

Missing you here. It would be nice with this recent blizzard to cuddle in bed. Keep going outside daily for odd tasks. As its cold I often return into the warm house finding myself all knotted, twisted and torn muscles. The pain at times borders outright hilariaty of a live studio audeince. And for me, that kind of pain genuinely is pain. Nurses hate me.

"How do rate your pain, on a scale of 1 to 10", they ask.

"Oh, maybe a 3", I say through a deep sigh of reflection.

"Hm, okay well take some Tylenol. Oh wait a minute, you're one of those type. Damn. Let me get the morphine", they fuss.

The those type is of course the type what ten other people would express as a level 10 pain, I express as a level 3. I have high pain tolerance. Does not help I'm a bit masochistic and am married to a sadist. I go get buggered up and she pokes.

"Does that hurt? Does this? That", she cides along.

"No, no, no, oooh hm no, oh erm ouch", I grumble and sigh.

Dislocated a knee once and she asks, "can you stand up?"

"Yeah, owe, erm sure gimmie a second", I replied and did in fact stand and walk, run.

It catches up though and the cold is nastier than her about sadism. So yeah, cuddling up inside sounds really nice, sex or no sex. :) You could even read Terry Pratchett to me. :) Or me to you, although not sure gravels over barbed wire and broken glass would be an appealing voice.

[elian]

Well, it is just that I've recognized that it is a deep desire for to share physical and emotional love and acceptance that drives my love of men.

This was a good article..

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/05/01/father-son-relationships-dad-raising-boy_n_3186191.html

..so you guys are crying over your foreskins.. I guess my desire runs deeper than that..and I know that my dad loved me very much. I guess at some point you have to forgive the past and be thankful for what you do have.

I recently ran into this artist's music - I think she passed away from cancer but it's still nice folk music..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DiS-c7Rhf4M