Ziggy74
Oct 8, 2013, 6:39 PM
Hey Everyone
i'm sure some of you can relate, so here it is -
as long as I recall, I have loved having a strong "feminine" side. Its amazing how much gender can blur. I can look more feminine than some women, and vice versa.
I guess I am one of those, though, who has a very sharp divide in emotional/sexual attraction, and I have a very hard time being ok with that. My romantic interest is all women, but sexually it can be either. This seems fairly normal by what I read.
When I was around 20, I was fairly aware of all this. I trimmed/shaved myself, wore an earring in each ear. Purple pants, one white and one black converse shoe, floral shirt...lol...might have been obvious? but I didn't equate any of that with sexual curiosity. Less funny, my older brother disowned me at that point, and I haven't wore an earring since.
Now, I am approaching "middle age", and am finally feeling ready for a guy. For me, the angle is fairly narrow - its basically the subset of bi-guys who are highly attracted to sissy/cd types. I have talked to many, and find this subset far less common than the versatile types. Guys that want me to top them, or even suck me, are an immediate, strong turn-off. But, when I get chatting with one on my wavelength, its awesome.
How does one deal with having a sexual desire that is completely different from emotional? There may not be a right answer. For me, its even more marked, in that I am not even much attracted to males, even the supposed hottest of the hot. Guys do not turn my head. It is only within the realm of my femininity, and men's attraction to it, that it works for me. When I get off, I usually feel a sort of self-alienation.
I'm not sure if this is a question, or a vent, or what.
i'm sure some of you can relate, so here it is -
as long as I recall, I have loved having a strong "feminine" side. Its amazing how much gender can blur. I can look more feminine than some women, and vice versa.
I guess I am one of those, though, who has a very sharp divide in emotional/sexual attraction, and I have a very hard time being ok with that. My romantic interest is all women, but sexually it can be either. This seems fairly normal by what I read.
When I was around 20, I was fairly aware of all this. I trimmed/shaved myself, wore an earring in each ear. Purple pants, one white and one black converse shoe, floral shirt...lol...might have been obvious? but I didn't equate any of that with sexual curiosity. Less funny, my older brother disowned me at that point, and I haven't wore an earring since.
Now, I am approaching "middle age", and am finally feeling ready for a guy. For me, the angle is fairly narrow - its basically the subset of bi-guys who are highly attracted to sissy/cd types. I have talked to many, and find this subset far less common than the versatile types. Guys that want me to top them, or even suck me, are an immediate, strong turn-off. But, when I get chatting with one on my wavelength, its awesome.
How does one deal with having a sexual desire that is completely different from emotional? There may not be a right answer. For me, its even more marked, in that I am not even much attracted to males, even the supposed hottest of the hot. Guys do not turn my head. It is only within the realm of my femininity, and men's attraction to it, that it works for me. When I get off, I usually feel a sort of self-alienation.
I'm not sure if this is a question, or a vent, or what.