iluvsatinpanties2
May 17, 2013, 3:06 PM
I'm a 47 year old male who has been married for almost 23 years. My wife and I were both open about our promiscuous pasts when we first started dating. She is no prude and is well aware of my proclivity for kink. She has been aware of me wearing her panties at times for over 15 years.
Over the last few years when we made love I slowly started talking about her being with another man or having a MMF. She always flat out refused. I became a bit braver and started to wear her lingerie when we were intimate although she was obviously uncomfortable with it. She noticed I shaved my legs for the first time and shaved my pubic hair into a small triangle patch. Months later as we would have sex I would tell her how hot it would be to eat another man's cum out of her pussy and to be licking her clit while his cock was going in & out of her pussy. She still refused to bring in another man. I then got even braver and started telling her how hot it would be to suck another man's cock before he entered her and how I would love to lick him clean after he cums in her.
My wife's response to all of this is to tell me I am suffering from a lack of testosterone. I had to tell her there was no lack of testosterone when I was 12 sucking my friends cock multiple times and that in my late teens I had plenty of testosterone when I swallowed my first load of cum. She still thought I was kidding! I had to look her in the eyes and tell her I am bi-sexual, that I have sucked 10 different cocks and swallowed cum from 2 of the guys. The response was silence at first then she just said she did not want to know about that side of me.
I had guilt eating at me due to being with 5 men during our marriage (most very brief encounters and only oral) she did not know about. I had to come clean and I hoped we could share encounters with men at some point. I just could not deny this part of my sexuality. I began to have her call me "cum slut" & say things like, "my husbands a cockslut" when we fucked. I described my last encounter with a guy and told her how he wanted to cum on my face but I wouldn't let him and how when he came on my ass it felt so hot with the cum dripping between my ass down onto my balls. She still seemed to think this was all just my kinky fantasy. I wanted permission to be with other men and share it with her. Finally a few weeks ago when she kept saying she did not want to know I had to tell her I had been with 5 men since we were married and told her I was bi-sexual and needed cock from time to time and would not deny my sexuality and I would understand if she wanted to leave me. After some tears from her she told me she loves me and would never leave me. I said the same thing but that I sometimes desired something she could not offer me.
The fact that at 49 she is going thru the beginning of menopause probably made the timing bad. I'm curious to see what others might have experienced in coming out to a spouse of many years.
Over the last few years when we made love I slowly started talking about her being with another man or having a MMF. She always flat out refused. I became a bit braver and started to wear her lingerie when we were intimate although she was obviously uncomfortable with it. She noticed I shaved my legs for the first time and shaved my pubic hair into a small triangle patch. Months later as we would have sex I would tell her how hot it would be to eat another man's cum out of her pussy and to be licking her clit while his cock was going in & out of her pussy. She still refused to bring in another man. I then got even braver and started telling her how hot it would be to suck another man's cock before he entered her and how I would love to lick him clean after he cums in her.
My wife's response to all of this is to tell me I am suffering from a lack of testosterone. I had to tell her there was no lack of testosterone when I was 12 sucking my friends cock multiple times and that in my late teens I had plenty of testosterone when I swallowed my first load of cum. She still thought I was kidding! I had to look her in the eyes and tell her I am bi-sexual, that I have sucked 10 different cocks and swallowed cum from 2 of the guys. The response was silence at first then she just said she did not want to know about that side of me.
I had guilt eating at me due to being with 5 men during our marriage (most very brief encounters and only oral) she did not know about. I had to come clean and I hoped we could share encounters with men at some point. I just could not deny this part of my sexuality. I began to have her call me "cum slut" & say things like, "my husbands a cockslut" when we fucked. I described my last encounter with a guy and told her how he wanted to cum on my face but I wouldn't let him and how when he came on my ass it felt so hot with the cum dripping between my ass down onto my balls. She still seemed to think this was all just my kinky fantasy. I wanted permission to be with other men and share it with her. Finally a few weeks ago when she kept saying she did not want to know I had to tell her I had been with 5 men since we were married and told her I was bi-sexual and needed cock from time to time and would not deny my sexuality and I would understand if she wanted to leave me. After some tears from her she told me she loves me and would never leave me. I said the same thing but that I sometimes desired something she could not offer me.
The fact that at 49 she is going thru the beginning of menopause probably made the timing bad. I'm curious to see what others might have experienced in coming out to a spouse of many years.