New expieriance leaving me feeling like i want to be a women?

[orienconfused]

Hey so i had my first bi expieriance with my best friend since grade 9 and i loved all of it except the making out, then went on to have another at a gay campground during a week where straight people were allowed in for a bdsm week of fun and i went out of curiousity, the thing was i had decided that i was straight again... then it happend i met a attractive guy who i had a raging hard on for and we had the best sex of my life... the only thing was i pictured myself as a women the entire time and was only arroused when i was doing this and have been obsessing on and off about being a women since i would love to feel a nice cock between my tits ( if i had them) and now when ever i watch porn i think of myself as the women.

I was wondeing if any one else has ever expierianced this and what they did?

[orienconfused]

Sorry to clairify i dont want to know what your expieriance was just if any one has had a simular one where they felt arroused feeling like a women instead of a man during sex, also i think i would like to become a women just not sure if its the right thing to do...

[elian]

I was just remarking to my "special friend" how wonderful it feels to know that you are loved, protected and desired. With the right person it can be very fulfilling. I'm not really into BSDM but it makes me want to give myself to that person in a submissive way and yes, I've wanted certain guys from the perspective of a female..I don't want to always have to be in control. I would probably do that same for a dominate female if the chemistry was right.

At first I thought it was sort of jealousy over growing up and not being able to have the other gender role but I think maybe there's something more to it. May have something to do with hormones because there are just some times I feel very submissive and other times the switch gets flipped the other way. I had a lot of issues with trusting others growing up so it's sort of a release fantasy I suppose.

I've also felt a sort of half-kinky mothering urge for some guys too.. Some of them just have a tremendous amount of eager/enthusiastic energy and they look so damn cute! I can get lustfully insistent on being personal and wanting them to experience pleasure. I can't quite explain it - I am sure that the attraction I feel is slightly different than what straight guys feel for women, and I'm pretty sure that it is different than what gay guys feel looking at men.

At this age it is just easier living with the factory installed equipment, I have too much hair in all the wrong places, too many bad mannerisms to try to live out that fantasy in real life. I think I should be glad I was born a man because I wanted love, attention and affection waaay too much growing up.

A half-crazy thought of learning to dance with a partner crosses my mind. Some men, I just feel more feminine around, other times I feel male too, it really depends on mood.

Generally speaking I guess the amount of dominance we show in any situation can vary. If I think there is a more effective leader in the room I will defer to that person, if no one is stepping up to the plate to lead then I will volunteer if I have confidence in my ability.

[orienconfused]

Thanks for your reply, The whole leader ship thing really is apparent to me now because that guy really stood out to me in the crowd at that camp and there have been other times in my life where team leaders at work who i respected had my sex drive going for them. I also feel the same way about some men i just want to be feminem around and people who are smart and can dominate me mentally are a turn on, i find i just want to be thier bitch which is totally opposite from my regular way of thinking towards women. I feel i could never have such nasty thoughts towards most women but when it comes to myself in the right situation i cant get enough. This is why the thought of going MTF i thought would be a suitable path for me its just i have to be around the right kind of person to bring it out of me.

Thank you so much for sharing you have led to some great insight in my life for me.

[elian]

Well yes, at times it's fun to be dominated but the best leaders know how to share power and nurture others. I think it is natural to look for love, support and acceptance from others like yourself - I guess it's natural to do it in sex play too..

It's so much fun not having a sixth grade understanding of sex and religion anymore.

[celticmagic]

Good for you!
It seems normal. I feel the same way.
Besides, if I have to suck another men cock or be fucked by him, I'd rather
will have it as a women, and also dressed up as one.
I enjoy the sex much better this way, and it makes me feel, ohhh...so feminine!

[tenni]

Hi orientconfused

Welcome to the site.

I'm not sure what you are saying?

You are using words like "picture myself like a woman", "being a woman" etc. and then you refer to "wanting to be their bitch".

I have to wonder if you are really meaning that you want to be sexually submissive to another man rather than a transwoman?

Do you want to change your gender or just be sexually submissive and fantasize about acting submissively like you see a woman's role?

All of your references seem to be about a sexual role rather than being a man or a woman. Do you want to dress like a woman, have a woman's name, start taking hormone blockers etc.? I don't think that you do but you may?

[Cherokee_Mountaincat]

"I would probably do that same for a dominate female if the chemistry was right"

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[elian]

( nuzzles cat / soft kisses / big hugs )

[mas8092]

I understand. I combated an urge for female companionship and fantasy thoughts of being with a man. I married late in life. 42. I blamed my lack of interest on ED. Actually more due to her. After separating, I finally explored men. That was in 2010. I like being told what to do. I love sucking cock. I love swallowing cum. I love being fucked. But, I don't like kissing men and still love female breasts. Still love kissing women. With my men, I do like feeling like a woman. My next goal is a woman who will dominate me.

[Gearbox]

I hope your not thinking of gender reasignent surgery just for sexual purposes? I don't think that's a very good idea if that's what you mean. I don't like being passive, but do have an attraction to authorative domineering males too. But I just want to fuck them. They needn't get their bits changed for that. You didn't when you had the best sex of your life either!@ CAT - Slap him! Cross his arse! Do him him good!lol

[Spanishbob]

I can fully undertand how you would want to be a woman.
I had sex with a married bi couple and the wife dressed me up as awoman and put make-up on me. She got her husband to have sex with me and I felt like a woman during it. In fact I wished I was a woman. It was an incredible thrill.

[dafydd]

Would be interesting to note whether the reduction of testosterone in body,(which would come from gender reassignment of OP from male to female), would decrease his desire to want to be fucked as a woman by a man. e.g is it after all, his raging MALE hormones that facilitate the need for this sexual fantasy .and not any imbalance in an atypical amount of FEMALE hormones .?

Tenni's right to define identity aside from desire/sexual roll. Imperative.
The feelings of a biological male who identifies as a woman (trans) are very different from that of a man with strong sub sexual fantasies(desire).

If the OP is dealing with understanding his desire rather than his identity , consider what would happen if this distinction wasn't clarified.

Hypothetically..

..OP has gender reassignment. Increased levels of oestrogen in the body follow reduction of testosterone..

OP is now biologically female but physiologically unable to replicate or produce the sexual urges from lack of the very male sex hormones that enabled and created the actual fantasy in the first place.

Annoyed would be one word.

[nutothis972]

This is the man of our couple. I love all kinds of sex with other men but now, due to serious ED, I am strictly a bottom. When I give my asspussy to another man I love to imagine and pretend that I am a woman. I prefer to be on my back with my legs raised high - best of all in a sling. I love to feel his tongue all around my totally hairless pretend pussy and pushing inside my opening. Then the wonderful feeling of his bare naked penis pushing inside my body as he prepares to breed me. The marvelous feeling of his cock caressing my rectum skin-on-skin tranlates in my mind to him fucking my vagina, and my penis becomes a large clit for him to play with. I use my vaginal muscles to help bring him to climax. I love feeling his cock pulsate as he shoots his delicious semen deep inside my 'vagina'.