Existentialism....

[Emotional Masochist]

I find myself recently spending hours considering my choices, my place in the world, how far ive come, how far i want to go... and I dont know. I haven`t gone far enough. I haven't ghatre wh i am not suenough.... or have I.At mes I am content with where i am, but most times i want more. Its not that i am disappointed in who i have become. Its just that i wake up wanting needing and wishing for so much more. Though i am not sure what i seek right now i justt wish for more...

to be continued when i get a moment....

[Realist]

Whoa! I haven't heard the word existentialism used in years!

I'll check back to see what you come up with......you are totally free, but responsible for your own acts!

[void()]

Whoa! I haven't heard the word existentialism used in years!

I'll check back to see what you come up with......you are totally free, but responsible for your own acts!

Quite a few of us here whom have read Richard Bach. I especially enjoy Illusions.

[welickit]

As you go forth, think about learning to proof read and even use a spell check. Life is full of new wonders.

[elian]

I can't get a Handel on all that Bach.. I yam what I yam, but what I can dream also influences me.

<dreams about running the vacuum cleaner and having a clean floor> - ahh, my life has meaning again.. "To the hoovering device!". he exclaimed. Elian smoothly switched off the computer, lept out of his chair and bounded down the hallway on yet another grand adventure.

[void()]

I can't get a Handel on all that Bach.. I yam what I yam, but what I can dream also influences me.

<dreams about running the vacuum cleaner and having a clean floor> - ahh, my life has meaning again.. "To the hoovering device!". he exclaimed. Elian smoothly switched off the computer, lept out of his chair and bounded down the hallway on yet another grand adventure.

Riddle me this lover man. Who else could handle your suction problems? Muhahahahaha! It is I the silly one known as Evil Lama to some but to others He Who Asks Questions! I'll foil your vacuum yet lover man! *Biff*

[Emotional Masochist]

Hehhe. So i am not sure what happened to this thread, but i am glad you guys are enjoying it. And apparently i was a lot more hung over than I thought. I am not so great with typing and i cant even explain how often i accidentaly click my mousepad and end up typing one thought within another. so for all that could not be understood i must beg your forgiveness. I am just a boy with way too much time and so little skill.

All i can do is think, wish, and dream. I write what i see and if you can see even a what i see than i am content. I spoke before of feeling as if something was lacking, but i think that this need will never end. For i am greedy. I will always want just a little more, and there is nothing wrong with that. When I have found it all, even then i will ask for a little more time to enjoy it all. Because nothing lasts. It is the only thing i know for sure. Nothing lasts, not today not tomorrow. Why would it when yesterday did not.

So today i will stand and enjoy the day. Because what else do i have. my dreams grow and change. I grow and change, yet still i am the same. Just a lost puppy wishing for a little more.....

[void()]

Hold on to the ability to think, wish, and dream. Some of us lose
the last of those, dreaming. I could wish to tell you it gets better,
living. All I can say is it has it's days, good and bad.

For some the good days become fewer and further between. So, our loved
ones try convincing us that we need new lenses. Therapists do the same.

When you've gone through most if not all lenses, difficult to see how
they would make a difference. And they give you medicine to help see
differently, or to dull the pain. You realize you are alone, and that
feeling of never having enough is real.

It is then you can see many paths open before you. One path is complete
nuclear devastation, all out war on everyone in your realm. Another path
veers off into total destruction of ego and id.

Destruction of self is never an option. Warriors never surrender. And
to come to the crossroads, a place to see many paths, you've become a
warrior.

What then, do we have? We have the hidden path, one most blazingly
obvious to warriors. It is the path of balance.

Parmenides of Greece created the Eleatic school, which holds tenet
in all being one. There is never light without shadow, shadow without
light. Betwixt these, we find balance, our path lies.

We can also hold Prometheus as one to be revered. It was he who stoled
fire (knowledge/Sophia) from the gods and gave it to mankind. For this,
as Sisyphus he is broken upon he rocks.

Remember scientia est potentia (knowledge is power), as Thomas Hobbes
says. This power leads one to comprehend gestures, as simple as
complimenting good service, as great master works. Hopefully, such can
be enough.

Of course, nothing written here should be conferred as gospel. Life is a
better teacher, than even the wisest, or craziest sage. In time you will
see that, if you don't already.

For now, know you are among kindred. Know that we too struggle on this
hidden path. Some days more so than others.

Some days you'll want to explode and go nuclear. We're here to listen,
to try and offer advice. See us before you go nuclear.

Remember too, you have great power. Going nuclear isn't an option. To do
so is murder, taking advantage for selfish gain, being abusive.

Again, no Truth here. If there is I would be surprised. Live it, learn
it. Always live, love, laugh, learn.

[void()]

Just wanted to amend this with another bit of advice.

Because sometimes you have to not give a fuck.

[darkeyes]

Just wanted to amend this with another bit of advice.

Because sometimes you have to not give a fuck.
What do I think of the attachment to this, Voidie? It's bullshit and the cause of so much of the conflict in our world... very American if I may say so...

[void()]

What do I think of the attachment to this, Voidie? It's bullshit and the cause of so much of the conflict in our world... very American if I may say so...

Very American? Really? The image presents a fictional American icon Captain America, how could it be anything but American?

Frankly, I am tired of the world at large closing in upon people, individuals whom try to make a better place. When America was victorious over the U.K., they marched out under a cadence of _The day the world turned upside down_. Funny to learn we were never as victorious as we were taught. What am I daftly on about? Ask J.P. Morgan and son, they gave America over to debtor's prison along with Alexander Hamilton.

So yeah, fuck all of that. It's not limited to any one nation, political party, religious group, social group, to desire true freedom, not the fucking Grand Illusion we're handed in prepackaged sugar coated lies. It isn't insane to desire respect, dignity, love, peace. It isn't feeling 'entitled' to desire those either. Yeah, fuck all that too!

Bottom line, caring is human. I'm tired of seeing those who care tossed aside like so much chaff. Tired of holding my tongue because some arsehole in some country elsewhere thinks I'm the President or my government. Tired of the war, all of them, there all the same damn one if we're honest. Fuck the song remaining the same!

Eugenics was implemented in America too. Dirty little truth many seem to want to forget, as is the fact that Bush Jr's grandfather banked for Nazi's. Hell, I know America is fucked, hon, I damn well live here. Don't need you or anyone stating the obvious for me. What I'm daftly on about goes beyond nationalism. If you're gonna be too blind to see that, well fuck you too. I'm tired of caring about stepping on toes while my own are crushed by sledge hammers. I did care once. Fuck that too.

So, it's your move, not mine.

Apologies if it upsets you, Fran. I'm just damn well tired of it all and have taken to turning off. There's no point to keep flogging a dead horse. All of us, the world, are basically screwed. You can not fight it. I've tried. You can not change how you see it and hope for better. I've tried. so now, I say fuck it all, go find someone else to care. and you know what, yes, it helps a bit. :)

[darkeyes]

I get tired too Voidie... frustrated angry and tired.. but it can be fought, is being fought and will be.. no one said anything is easy... Jack Kennedy said in another context we do it cos it's hard... and it is... and always will be... just getting women the vote was hard.. getting homosexuality legalised was hard, freedom of speech was hard, freedom of assembly and many other things and they took not just decades but centuries and even millenia...

[void()]

I get tired too Voidie... frustrated angry and tired.. but it can be fought, is being fought and will be.. no one said anything is easy... Jack Kennedy said in another context we do it cos it's hard... and it is... and always will be... just getting women the vote was hard.. getting homosexuality legalised was hard, freedom of speech was hard, freedom of assembly and many other things and they took not just decades but centuries and even millenia...

Bah! Yer be lucky I nay thrash ye cos me dod's mum wuz o' McMarshalls, cursed damn Scott blood cosing me ta understand ye.

At first look I could have been upset. "Oh, so she says pull the boots on tighter and strap on the kilt. Gee, what a way to piss on one's fire! I'll tell her a thing or few more!"

But, looking at in perspective. *hugs* Thank you.

Good clonk to the noggin or swift boot in the arse does help too.

[darkeyes]

Bah! Yer be lucky I nay thrash ye cos me dod's mum wuz o' McMarshalls, cursed damn Scott blood cosing me ta understand ye.

At first look I could have been upset. "Oh, so she says pull the boots on tighter and strap on the kilt. Gee, what a way to piss on one's fire! I'll tell her a thing or few more!"

But, looking at in perspective. *hugs* Thank you.

Good clonk to the noggin or swift boot in the arse does help too.:kiss: