What am I?

[stillman234]

Sometimes I feel like I'm the only person in the world like this. I have had sex with the same gender...male to male. It started just 2 years ago for this 50 year old man. I had never had a homosexual encounter before, and never been attracted to guys. Currently in a male/female relationship that caused much sexual frustration because of my strong libido and need for sexual contact. My wife isn't interested in sex anymore and not interested in meeting my needs. The only reason I play with guys is because I don't want to cheat on her with another woman. This is my twisted logic: I get attached easily and by sleeping with another women it wouldn't take much for me to fall in love with her. I love my wife and don't want to leave her....so I play around with guys. I guess by title i'm a bisexual. But if I don't get off on being sexually attracted to guys...am I? I mean I've never looked at a guy and thought "he's hot" or "I'd like to get into bed with him". I'm not interested in anal sex, a guys hairy asshole doesn't do a thing for me except make me uncomfortable...the same can be said for guys kissing. I find that impossible to even watch on video. Now for the really weird part...I love cock and balls (if they're shaved). I love to suck a cock and lick his balls...love to have them cum in my mouth and swallow them. I love to hear a guy moan as he cums in my mouth, knowing I did that to pleasure him. Maybe it's just the excitement of it all, the sexual taboo. I love to suck cock and be sucked, but that's where it ends. WTF am I?​

[Long Duck Dong]

human, was my first answer..... lol....

the term bisexual is one that is generally used,.... it can refer to a sexual and / or romantic interest in males and females... and that is about the length and height if the definition, cos there is no set in stone definition of exactly what criteria you have to fit to be bisexual...... you could use the term MSM or man that has sex with men, if you so choose... they are all just labels and its up to you, what term you wanna use.......

your sexual interactions are really only weird cos they do not fit things that you would normally see yourself as doing when compared with what you have done with your wife and / or other gfs before your wife...... but in all honestly, its not that unusual.... its like random spontaneous sex with a partner, and some people just do not do the whole romantic thing, they like the hot passionate intense sex ..... or NSA ( no strings attached ) sex....

if you want to use a label then bisexual is fine to use...... well until somebody copyrights and trademarks the label and uses it to make money lol....

[Jobelorocks]

Well man, I am just going to stick to answering your question and not address the issue of cheating. Okay I will start out, like I usually do with these types of questions with a definition of bisexuality, the romantic and/or sexual attraction to both males in females, not necessarily in the same way or degree. There are plenty of guys who consider themselves bi even though they really only have an attraction to the male genitalia and plenty who do not. It really is for you to decide what you think you are and how you are comfortable with labeling yourself. Many people here will tell you not to worry about labels, and you can do that if you want, but I find that labels help us define who and what we are. Labeling yourself bi is no different than labeling yourself a male or a husband, it helps you define who you are.

No one can tell you what you are or are not, only you can decide that. It may take a lot of grappling with the idea that you may be bi, but I urge you to take the time to figure out what you would like to consider yourself and accept yourself for your sexual identity.

[MyTimeNow]

human, was my first answer..... lol....

if you want to use a label then bisexual is fine to use

What he ^ said.

I used to call myself primarily bi-curious, even after sucking cock. I never called myself a full bi, because I wasn't attracted to men and whatever else, but surely fall into the realm. I don't bother with labels, because it's pointless. Everyone's definitions are different - just enjoy things as they are and enjoy your sexuality.

[SlimDandy]

Hey there Stillman!

Unlike you, I rather like certain hairy assholes. If their hair gets too long, I just take 'em to the barber shop! :bigrin:

[tenni]

Hi
You are one of thousands of middle aged men caught in your dilemma and you're probably a situational bisexual. You may have more interest in same sex play than your situation and this may have brought out this aspect of learning about yourself.

There are many men who are attracted to male sex organs and not the complete man. Lots are middle aged men are living sexless lives with a woman that they love and think like you. Right or wrong according to those who spend their time judging others you think that you know what you are doing. There are sadly some judgmental people on this site but they are not living in your shoes. Marriage counselling may be an option or it may not be. There are consequences to your choice whatever it is and some post here that they feel better after disclosing their behaviour and interests to their spouse. Others end up divorcing for their disclosure and losing a lot of material shared property and scorn from their so called friends who are biphobic and homophobic. Bisexual men seem to be judged the most severe of all the non heterosexuals. Its a gamble no matter what you decide to do. Catch 22 for some guys.

Kissing is a symbol of intimacy imo. Lots of men are not interested for similar reasons as yourself. Once I was one of them. As or if you become more comfortable with your sexuality you may grow more comfortable to go beyond genetal interest. You may not. It may be initially be the taboo or excitement but if you continue (as you seem to be interested), hopefully you will learn to accept your sexuality. Time will tell. You do seem like at least a situational bisexual and more likely a bisexual who has opened the door because sex disappeared out of your m/f relationship and your age. Age and the slight reduction of societal taboo is often a factor as well.

You have two strikes against you. You are a bisexual man (probably) and married to a woman who is not interested in sex.

[Cherokee_Mountaincat]

Sounds like youre a man in search of his own sexuality, Hon. Heaven and eartth help us both, but I'm in agreement with Tenni again. Soulds like you are like me, "Situationally Bi" or very Bi select. You didnt mention if a man gets You off, just that you take excitement from getting Him off. Does a man's soft warm mouth excitre you, make you cum nice and hard or do you prefer being the bottom in the whole shebang? Either way, as long as you enjoy it, more power to you. Sorry you have to go about it the way you do, but hey, whatever rings yer bells, Hon.
Cat