Emotional Masochist
Jul 25, 2012, 3:15 AM
K so first of all I am going to tell you a story from a few years ago. During this time I did alot of stupid things and had a lot of weird things happen to me. I drank, did some drugs, and partied. I used to drink and drive. Get high and fly. I am not saying any of this to brag because i know it was stupid. But i had no fear of death, and just too much belief in my own abilites to believe i would ever crash. But after a while i realised how stupid i was being. And how many close calls i have had. So i decided to stop and i did for a while. And thus begins my story...
then one day i was at my cousins. we decided to hop the fence behind his house and play some soccer at the school and drink ourselves stupid. It was fun and great.But we ran out of booze and well all the running around and such made us lazy. so we decided to drive the ten minute walk to the liquor store and grab our booze. On the way back my cousin tells me to pull into the school so we could blaze a joint before heading back. So we pull into the school. park and let him start rolling. And Just as the boy is finishing, two cop cars pull into the parking lot. We knew we were fucked. so we just started to pull out. they stopped us. One of the officers walked over to the car and asked me what we were doing and if we had been drinking or doing any drugs. i said we were just playing soccer and no haven't done any of that. they asked to check the car and i let them. At this point the other officer walks up and wants to search us. He asks me again if we had been doing any drugs or drinking and i say no. He then asks if we had any on us and i said no, but there is a bottle in the car that we are going to drink at the house right now. He then says that if I was lying to him he will know and that I would regret it. I said that was fine. and so he began his search with a simple pat down. My arms my sides and my legs. Then slips his hand under my shirt and slowly raises it up. Touching my chest, and when i shiver he asks me if i am cold.And i told him "yea its September and you've got my shirt half off, i'm just a little cold." That was just me trying to be brave. I was freaking out. I am standing in front of my two homophobic cousins as this guy is slowly feeling me up. At any other point this might have turned me on, but there I was terrified. But he just continued. finding his way down towards my pants. he slipped his hand in them and starts feeling me through my boxers. Telling me how soft my boxers were and asking me if they were satin. He then went further slipping into my boxers. I could feel his hands on my ass. And i couldnt help but squirm as he fondled my nuts. After making me squirm for a bit, he let me go. And moved on to my cousin as if nothing had happened. He gave him a minor pat down and let us go. The worst part of the whole thing was that there were three other people there and through all of this they just stood and watched. My cousins just stood in shock. His partner just pretended it wasn't happening and did a quick check of my little cousin and talked to him while it happened.
After it happened, we ogt in the car and i told them to shut up and not say anything. We got back i poured myself a stiff drink and well started to smoke the joint. At this point both of them just break out laughing. Thinking it was the funniest thing that ever happened, and thus it has become a joke amonst my friends. Especially among those who know i'm bi, saying i enjoyed the hell out of it.
This doesn't really bother me, but I am a little messed up. I have had other bad experences with cops, but i don't hate them or anything. I mean they are people too and have bad days or whatever.And i have met a couple of really great cops. In fact when i was still in highschool i usedf to be an insomniac and go for walks in the middle of the night, and there was a cop who would pick me up and drop me off at home if it started rainging or if i got lazy. He patrolled around my house and was really quite nice. But after this incident, I am now terrified of cops. Just seeing them, makes me uncomfortable. I feel out of place and honestly just want to get away as quick as possible.:(
This was just something i wanted to get off my chest. I was watching a movie today and watched a guy getting raped and well it just made me think of that. So yea... Thanks for listening to my story.
then one day i was at my cousins. we decided to hop the fence behind his house and play some soccer at the school and drink ourselves stupid. It was fun and great.But we ran out of booze and well all the running around and such made us lazy. so we decided to drive the ten minute walk to the liquor store and grab our booze. On the way back my cousin tells me to pull into the school so we could blaze a joint before heading back. So we pull into the school. park and let him start rolling. And Just as the boy is finishing, two cop cars pull into the parking lot. We knew we were fucked. so we just started to pull out. they stopped us. One of the officers walked over to the car and asked me what we were doing and if we had been drinking or doing any drugs. i said we were just playing soccer and no haven't done any of that. they asked to check the car and i let them. At this point the other officer walks up and wants to search us. He asks me again if we had been doing any drugs or drinking and i say no. He then asks if we had any on us and i said no, but there is a bottle in the car that we are going to drink at the house right now. He then says that if I was lying to him he will know and that I would regret it. I said that was fine. and so he began his search with a simple pat down. My arms my sides and my legs. Then slips his hand under my shirt and slowly raises it up. Touching my chest, and when i shiver he asks me if i am cold.And i told him "yea its September and you've got my shirt half off, i'm just a little cold." That was just me trying to be brave. I was freaking out. I am standing in front of my two homophobic cousins as this guy is slowly feeling me up. At any other point this might have turned me on, but there I was terrified. But he just continued. finding his way down towards my pants. he slipped his hand in them and starts feeling me through my boxers. Telling me how soft my boxers were and asking me if they were satin. He then went further slipping into my boxers. I could feel his hands on my ass. And i couldnt help but squirm as he fondled my nuts. After making me squirm for a bit, he let me go. And moved on to my cousin as if nothing had happened. He gave him a minor pat down and let us go. The worst part of the whole thing was that there were three other people there and through all of this they just stood and watched. My cousins just stood in shock. His partner just pretended it wasn't happening and did a quick check of my little cousin and talked to him while it happened.
After it happened, we ogt in the car and i told them to shut up and not say anything. We got back i poured myself a stiff drink and well started to smoke the joint. At this point both of them just break out laughing. Thinking it was the funniest thing that ever happened, and thus it has become a joke amonst my friends. Especially among those who know i'm bi, saying i enjoyed the hell out of it.
This doesn't really bother me, but I am a little messed up. I have had other bad experences with cops, but i don't hate them or anything. I mean they are people too and have bad days or whatever.And i have met a couple of really great cops. In fact when i was still in highschool i usedf to be an insomniac and go for walks in the middle of the night, and there was a cop who would pick me up and drop me off at home if it started rainging or if i got lazy. He patrolled around my house and was really quite nice. But after this incident, I am now terrified of cops. Just seeing them, makes me uncomfortable. I feel out of place and honestly just want to get away as quick as possible.:(
This was just something i wanted to get off my chest. I was watching a movie today and watched a guy getting raped and well it just made me think of that. So yea... Thanks for listening to my story.