Zinetha
Jan 9, 2012, 6:31 PM
I'm a bit confused... I have thought for years if I'm bi but the most outrageous thing I've ever done with a girl is a kiss on the cheek. I've kissed almost all my close friends on the cheek, some of them are straight, one is bi, one is lesbian, but all kisses were just that kind of from-friend-to-friend. The bi girl and the lesbian girl are together. Back then I thought myself as bi-curious but none of those friends know about this. I've never had a relationship with a girl, either. My 1st "relationship" was with a guy when I was 10 and he was about my age, and the short version of the story is that he took my virginity and then moved out of town (knew about the moving before we did it) and I never heard from him again. I was so traumatized I slowly developed a depression (which I'm recovering from right now) and dated no one for years. Had many many crushes, only one was a girl (but at 1st I thought she looked like a boy and then I found out her name and that he's a she and I didn't mind, but didn't have the courage to do anything about it, like I had no courage to do anything about anyone I had a crush on). Finally, 10 months ago (almost 9 years after that asshole dude), I kinda accidentally was able to hit on a boy a liked, and he asked me to be with him. We were together for 9 months and then had a short break because of my problems with depression (I blamed him too much and was too self-harming for him to be mentally strong enough to help), and during the break I started to look at other boys again, just to flirt, nothing serious, and noticed I also looked at girls the same way, especially the bi girls I know. But we had agreed that only flirting is allowed during the break (which neither of us did much for that matter, we missed each other so much), and no one knew I liked girls, too, so no girl flirted with me. Now we're back together, but I still like girls almost as much as I like boys. He knows I was curious during the break but not that I'm still...
I love my bf, I would never cheat on him. We both count even kissing someone or serious flirting (=the other person doesn't know or isn't sure if it's a joke) else as cheating. I doupt he'd like to "experiment" and take another girl to the bed with us (like some people here suggest), and I wouldn't like that either, it feels wrong to actually think of doing so. I mean, I think it's ok if I fantasize about kissing or being in bed with other guys and girls, but not actually thinking of doing so.
I feel bi :D I like boys more (naturally, since I've considered myself as "straight, tiny tiny possibility of bi-curious" for all my life so far) but many of the people here seem to think you have to do something sexual with the same sex to be bi. Is there ANYONE who would count me as bi? I'd so much like to finally put an end to all this thinking and get a word to decribe who I am. Bi-curious sounds like I'm not sure if I'm bi. But I'm sure now. I like girls, too, almost as much as boys, and just the same way. Dot. I love my bf forever and so will never be together with a girl. Doesn't bother me, he's the one I want for life. <3
I love my bf, I would never cheat on him. We both count even kissing someone or serious flirting (=the other person doesn't know or isn't sure if it's a joke) else as cheating. I doupt he'd like to "experiment" and take another girl to the bed with us (like some people here suggest), and I wouldn't like that either, it feels wrong to actually think of doing so. I mean, I think it's ok if I fantasize about kissing or being in bed with other guys and girls, but not actually thinking of doing so.
I feel bi :D I like boys more (naturally, since I've considered myself as "straight, tiny tiny possibility of bi-curious" for all my life so far) but many of the people here seem to think you have to do something sexual with the same sex to be bi. Is there ANYONE who would count me as bi? I'd so much like to finally put an end to all this thinking and get a word to decribe who I am. Bi-curious sounds like I'm not sure if I'm bi. But I'm sure now. I like girls, too, almost as much as boys, and just the same way. Dot. I love my bf forever and so will never be together with a girl. Doesn't bother me, he's the one I want for life. <3