Emotional Masochist
Jan 9, 2012, 12:59 AM
Hey guys so ummm i had a sort of revelation of sorts yesterday. I went out with my cousin to a gay bar/club for his birthday. And so we get there get really drunk i mean totally wasted. start dancing and i realise i am noticing a lot of guys that normally don't appeal to me. I am generally attracted to guys bigger than me. Effeminate men usually turn me off, but last night i saw them as pretty. I always considered myself a bottom and only ever fantasized about being taken by a man. I never considered the other half of the equation. It jsut didn't appeal to me, but last night seemed different. After a pathetic attempt by this mediocre looking guy to try and pick me up, we ended up dancing the night away. Then the awkward stuff happened... I ended up making out with my cousin. Was surprised at how easy it was to switch my mind set from being a bottom to... Just usually i imagine someone taking control someone with power to take control, but last night on that dance floor i switched roles and it was interesting. weird because it was my cousin, but still an experience i don't completely regret.i learned something new about myself and now im sort of like huh... now what ehhehe well i just wanted to share that and well i am wondering if any one else has had something like that happen to them.:rolleyes: