oh no, not another

[teddyboy]

My first marriage failed, I am a managed bi polar bi
bisexual, she had pronblems with my partying and my fantasies.

My second marriage proved boring after the seccond child was born. My fanatasises and activitie were tolerated but not spoken of often. She said it turned her on but she didn't want to join in because she wasn't comfortable with her big beautiful body. We divorced when we decided we were pals, not lovers....looking back on it, we were lovers, just bad ones.

Alas, number 3. A beauitiful woman who sometimes very easily accepts me for whom I am. At times she has encouraged me to cross dress, she has vocally excited me with the thoughts of having a man join us, she has gone so far as to try and find the right guy for us to play with.

2.5 years ago her adult son moved in with us and it has all changed. Her attittude about everything changed, we were no longer free to hug, kiss, grope, and do all the things we used to do,To make rs worse my boys from my first marriage are with me and have grown from toddlers to young men in the time we have married. She is by far more co dependent than I am, it is pretty sick.

Sex now is sometimes weekly, in between my medication trials and her bitchiness at the most minor things. She hates my job, she hates my parents, and all of the bi movies and videos we had are now put away in a chest in a closet. She has suddenly developed a fear that I will turn gay only...no thanx.

Tonight she was upset with me because I forgot the boys were going to my exes place. I came home and took 2 Ambien to just sit and vedge, maybe even to catch up to sleep. Well it ends up that she drives and is pissed and keeps asking me alll the time, "what are you on" "What are you on" finally she says it doesn't matter. I went to sleep for about three hours and woke up. She's gone...off to the CASINO I'm sure. To make matter worse I know she searched my truck before she moved it to get her car....ther's gonna be hell to pay when she gets back.

I am tired of living this boredom filled, conflict life. I want to take my boys and leave. I have maintianed a decent relationship with my ex, I know she will understand if I make this choice, I have never said the word DIVORCE to her but I am certainly getting there, it is on my lips constantly,

I am not sure why I posted this would someone slap me please?

[ambi53mm]

Dear Teddy,

The only slap I can offer is the slap of the reality that "This too shall pass"

Ambi :)

[Long Duck Dong]

oh wise old me that is quessing at the issues unspoken

ok I read what you wrote, then I went a lil further and I read what you were expressing ( don't ask, its a long story ...)

ok with ya second marriage, its not uncommon for some ladies to turn self conscious and also for the hormone changes thru pregnancy and birth, to change a lady...it even changes males... plus you are adding in the new issues, and being parents into the mix....its gonna effect something some where..lol

marriage number # 3 is in deep trouble... and I do suggest removing the adult son if its possible.... having adult children in the house can be dangerous, specially if the child is not of the same frames of mind about life and love as your loving partner and tho the effects are had to see at the start.... to a outsider like me, its as clear as the boobs on dolly parton....
its hard to adjust to a closeted lifestyle when you are both used to been free spirits and being closeted is hard on a bi polar person.... it adds to their stress levels... and unstabilises a person that have trouble finding the balance in themselves without pressure and stress from outside them
sadly the warning signs that it is affecting you and your partner, are there....the added stress and pressure is creating tension... and that tension is showing between you and her......

it sounds like her own insecurity and low self esteem issues are coming thru too, shes worried by what people may think of her and you and your lil * funtimes * and that people may turn on you both... sadly its causing you to turn on each other

so my advice is simple.... remove the adult son ( i am assuming he is able to take care of himself and is not disabled in any way that prevents him doing that ).. and when the young child are away at your exes, lock the doors, sit down, let it all out, go wreck the house with mad passionate gut bursting sex, then talk again ..... take the chance when it arises... when you and your lady are alone..... it will not solve all the issues.... but it may help lower the stress and tension levels in the house... help you both to vent..... also to enjoy the togetherness without the restrictions..... and help you both decide on a course of action about your marriage, your lives and your future.....

[teddyboy]

Ambi you are right, this too shall pass...sson I hope

Long I think your assessment is correct. The adult son is moving on in the next 30 days, I am afraid however the damage is done. I have almost gotten to the point of throwing up my hands, I suppose in reality at times I already have. I actually wish I could remove the thread, thinking about it all makes me sick to my stomach...not to mention seeing all of those horrible typos lol.

[Long Duck Dong]

~ puts his arm around ya ~

never mind about the typos, lol they are nothing compared to some of the mistakes we can make lol

look at me..... lol......why oh why did I get the male body and not the hermaphodite body.... ~ sighs ~ note to self.... check all options before I get born next time