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nudistharry
Nov 30, 2010, 2:58 AM
My cravings for male-male sex has always varied in strength. Usually it's a mild to moderate urge. But lately it has been VERY strong. I've never had such a strong urge in the past. I've only sucked 1 cock, and he had Erectile Dysfunction (Viagra was new and he didn't want to use it since it was so new.) His wife and I both sucked him to get him hard but he only got semi hard. He was able to jack off while barely hard and I had him cum in my mouth. So I have sucked a guy but have never sucked a truely hard cock.

Anyhow, my craving is so strong it's effecting my ability to "perform" with my wife. I can get hard but have difficulty reaching orgasm. I only get sex (intercourse) with her 2 or 3 times a month and it is disappointing to both of us when I have a hard time cumming. She has to tell me one of my fantasies of watching her fuck another guy to help me orgasm.

She has always known about my desire to have sex with a guy but isn't very supportive other then to use that fantasy when she jerks me off. She has said that she is afraid I'll "turn gayand leave her" if I have sex with a guy. I think this comes from my ex-wife exploring her bisexual side then deciding she is actually gay and left me to live with her lesbian lover.

My wife has no idea how strong my desire for male-male sex is right now. I'm not sure if I should tell her and try to "get permission" to find a guy to have sex with OR keep it to myself and more actively look for a "BJ buddy" that she won't know about.

Oh, I'm not new here. I was here as "MannySG" and had to leave for a bit and forgot the PW for that account. And the email addy for MannySG no longer exists.

xxxbody44
Dec 14, 2010, 1:58 PM
First of all you should NEVER go behind your wifes back! The trust your wife has for you will be gone forever.

Secondly, sit down with your wife and talk about it. Once she understands your felling, she will be more understanding and you will get to know her and her concerns better. Being bi will not turn you gay.

If you and your wife decide to go ahead be very carefull how you select a man. You should try and find an experiencd man who is willing to go slow with you. It may turn out you don't like it at all.