darkeyes
Oct 15, 2010, 1:54 PM
Some months ago I wrote intimating that I may just disappear since this site was no longer the one which I joined and grew to know and love. I seriously did think of leaving. Over the years I have been part of the site I have had the occasional sabbatical for one reason or other.. I still think .com has changed, and not for the better, and while this has saddened me somehwat, I suppose change is inevitable and my perception may not be that of everyone.
When I joined I considered myself bisexual. My partner remains bisexual and because of my friendships with so many of you I remained.. Being gay, I have more in common with bisexual people than simply an interest in my own sex. Like bisexuals I am not considered entirely "safe" in the company of normal people (whatever that means). I am not one who denies your existence as do some of my orientation. I know bisexuality is a reality in all its wierd and wonderful forms. I still care but somehow there has grown within the bisexual community and increasing distrust of gay and lesbian people and we keep being stereotyped from an increasingly large quarter of the bi community, as something nasty picked up on someone's shoe (a favoured use of our language). I am all too aware that there are gay and lesbian people who feel just the same way about you but these are not the majority believe me, just as I do not think it the majority of the bisexual population who have the sauce to express so much loathing toward us.. I have noticed a quietening of that loathing and resentment of late in forums, happily, but it is still there I think, certainly in the outside real world.
I am unsure whether I have just grown apart from the site or not.. there seems to be no real closeness any longer, and even within the community itself a loathing of anyone who expresses a different view on so many different things.. so many of the weel kent faces have passed and others keep talking of moving on.. I just dont feel the same any longer about .com and do think I need the break if only to recharge what are very run down batteries and an increasingly short fuse. I am no angel and know I have been at least as challenging to the patience as others have to me. Some of you dont half talk bollox though.. u have to admit.. and often very nasty unpleasant bollox too..and no doubt, there are those who will feel the same about me.. I can be unpleasant at times, but I dont think I am as such, very nasty.
Throughout the years I have tried at the same time to be constructive, challenging and at least get people thinking, to have a laugh, and sometimes be a little raunchy.. o yea.. and nowtiness is my middle name.. but I am human after all..
It may all be because I am not bisexual any longer that this feeling of frustration and schism with the site was inevitable.. I dont have an answer to that I am afraid.. but I do need the break and should have taken it months ago when I first felt the need.. but u are a very difficult bunch to put down (and I mean that in a nice way) and there have been some frantabulous barneys too good to miss. You're gonna havta do without me now for a while at least cos I just want to live my life and concentrate 100% on the real world... and the causes there for which I have so much passion..
Will I be back? The intention is to have a sabbatical.. not a permanent leaving. Maybe if and when I do return I will feel no different, maybe the separation I feel will been heightened I just dont know and you wouldnt expect me to know. Who can tell what is down the road a week from now far less 3, 6 or 9 months or even longer.
Maybe when I come back you wont want any nowty, opinionated, smart arsed, left wing, Jambo luffin, gay bird from the frozen north telling you whats good for you! Until then, good luck to u all.. luff n kissies huggles n stuff... an try an behave wile me not 'round willya? May ya kismet b kind..:)
When I joined I considered myself bisexual. My partner remains bisexual and because of my friendships with so many of you I remained.. Being gay, I have more in common with bisexual people than simply an interest in my own sex. Like bisexuals I am not considered entirely "safe" in the company of normal people (whatever that means). I am not one who denies your existence as do some of my orientation. I know bisexuality is a reality in all its wierd and wonderful forms. I still care but somehow there has grown within the bisexual community and increasing distrust of gay and lesbian people and we keep being stereotyped from an increasingly large quarter of the bi community, as something nasty picked up on someone's shoe (a favoured use of our language). I am all too aware that there are gay and lesbian people who feel just the same way about you but these are not the majority believe me, just as I do not think it the majority of the bisexual population who have the sauce to express so much loathing toward us.. I have noticed a quietening of that loathing and resentment of late in forums, happily, but it is still there I think, certainly in the outside real world.
I am unsure whether I have just grown apart from the site or not.. there seems to be no real closeness any longer, and even within the community itself a loathing of anyone who expresses a different view on so many different things.. so many of the weel kent faces have passed and others keep talking of moving on.. I just dont feel the same any longer about .com and do think I need the break if only to recharge what are very run down batteries and an increasingly short fuse. I am no angel and know I have been at least as challenging to the patience as others have to me. Some of you dont half talk bollox though.. u have to admit.. and often very nasty unpleasant bollox too..and no doubt, there are those who will feel the same about me.. I can be unpleasant at times, but I dont think I am as such, very nasty.
Throughout the years I have tried at the same time to be constructive, challenging and at least get people thinking, to have a laugh, and sometimes be a little raunchy.. o yea.. and nowtiness is my middle name.. but I am human after all..
It may all be because I am not bisexual any longer that this feeling of frustration and schism with the site was inevitable.. I dont have an answer to that I am afraid.. but I do need the break and should have taken it months ago when I first felt the need.. but u are a very difficult bunch to put down (and I mean that in a nice way) and there have been some frantabulous barneys too good to miss. You're gonna havta do without me now for a while at least cos I just want to live my life and concentrate 100% on the real world... and the causes there for which I have so much passion..
Will I be back? The intention is to have a sabbatical.. not a permanent leaving. Maybe if and when I do return I will feel no different, maybe the separation I feel will been heightened I just dont know and you wouldnt expect me to know. Who can tell what is down the road a week from now far less 3, 6 or 9 months or even longer.
Maybe when I come back you wont want any nowty, opinionated, smart arsed, left wing, Jambo luffin, gay bird from the frozen north telling you whats good for you! Until then, good luck to u all.. luff n kissies huggles n stuff... an try an behave wile me not 'round willya? May ya kismet b kind..:)