As a female, I have never told anyone except an old friend that I was always sexually attracted to women. Even as a young girl I was only attracted to women's bodies. Seeing breasts and vagina's would excite me to no end. I am attracted to men sexually by having them hug me or care about me. Only after knowing a man emotionally, can I feel sexual attraction but still......looking at a penis, abs, butt, muscles-none of this excites me. I married but my husband passed away at a young age and felt this way with him, even though I loved and cared about him. I have always felt very confused. I know the argument about not using "labels", but for argument sake I'd like to know if I am lesbian or bisexual. I think of myself as bisexual and need to know it's OK to feel this insatiable attraction to women's bodies. I feel my or rough and raw fantasies with women are abnormal in some way. I can then instantly switch and desire sex with a man but only think of the "act" by itself and it's not as spiced up as I feel it would be with a woman. Once someone told me to not worry and to feel I have the best of both worlds, but I would feel better if I could define it.
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