Originally Posted by
Corvette
NI am 26 and went through a bicurious phase in 2014. I have been girl crazy my entire life, even before most guys experienced puberty, and done some things some people might consider odd, like using the Facebook photos of women I know to masurbate to, and thinking off many erotic fantasies with them. At age 23, my bicurious phase led to me to being penetrated. I hated it, despite the guy trying to make it as comfortable as possible. I also had no interest in oral, or physical/emotional interest in guys. This however was my first sexual encounter. I had tried with women before, but my shyness and social awkardness made it difficult to get with a woman. The encounter with a male was a CL hookup. I also felt uncomfortable looking at the guy, despite them trying to make it as comfortable as possible. The sex itself felt like a reverse bowel movement. A year later I had a hookup with a girl on campus, which I loved everything about. My confusion began recently and is based off a comment I read in a fetish chat room. I have many fetishes, such as incest, forced sex, voeyur, and more. The one in this predicament however is gender bending/feminization. I started dabbling into that one some in 2015. I existed with that fetish fine for three years, until a person in a chat room said the only reason I liked that cap of a womanizer being turned into a housewife was because I only envied women. That comment stayed in my mind constantly for weeks, putting me in a consistent state of distress. Prior to this, I had felt my best ever. I had finally got the courage to ask women out and engage them more. I had low confidence and a huge fear of rejection before. The confusion I felt hindered my improvements, sadly. The user from that site's comment would not leave my mind, causing me a lot of frustration and confusion. I feel bad about myself for letting some random comment do that to me. I caused me so much stress that I went through a period of anxiety and depression. My interest in women also went away for awhile during that period, but seems to slowly be returning now that I am starting to calm down. Outside that gender kink, I felt asexual for awhile. My biggest fear in all this was losing interest in women, as I so badly want to marry a woman one day, have children with her and grow old with her. The thought of losing that caused me sleepless nights and depression. Odd as it may sound, admitting I am somewhat bi due to some of my kinks has relieved much of that stress, and has resulted in my lust for women starting to come back. I have no real life interest in males, but some of kinks have an element of bisexuality to them at times. I am still not entirely sure what to make of this ordeal. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced anything similar or had their opposite gender atrraction suffer during their questioning period. This stressed me a lot the last few months, but
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