So I've been trying to figure out if I'm bisexual or not the past few years. Whenever I want to masturbate, 3/4 of the time I watch some type of gay porn and while going on, I love it. However, as soon as I finish I feel all weird like that wasn't even something I liked. Everytime I tell myself I'm probably not bi and stop watching gay porn, I always come back to it and watch more. I've had one sexual experience with another guy and honestly looking back on it I kinda liked it. However, after he made me cum with a blowjob,
I don't know how to describe how I felt. It wasn't remorse but more of the thought "what the fuck did I just do". So I needed up leaving and tried texting my ex to get my mind of of it (We were already talking so it wasn't like it was a complete desperate attempt to talk to her). Idk sometimes I feel like I'm definetely bisexual and other times I wonder if I'm just lonely and it will pass. But the thoughts have been there way over two years. And idk if this helps but I have memories from my early teens where sometimes I would fantasize about kissing one of my friends at the time who was gay. They never lasted long but I remember them for sure. Thanks guys, and sorry for any grammar mistakes I'm typing from my IPhone.
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