Changing Curiosity

[whistle1]

I know this is nothing unique, as I've read several stories about it. My own situation has compelled me to write about it anyway.

I am in my mid 50s and have become "curious" in the last few years. I am very much attracted to women and don't even notice men. I guess I am what would be called "cock curious" only. I have never had any type of sexual interaction with another man. I simply have thoughts, fantasies, etc.

Not surprisingly, these are strongest when watching porn or jerking off. While taking matters into my own hands, I conjure up all kinds of images of me and other men. They basically involve me seeing, stroking and sucking a cock - nothing more.

The second I finish cumming, however, the fantasies disappear - along with any and all thoughts of men. This is also often followed by a feeling of being a loser. After all, If I weren't such a loser, I would have a girlfriend or wife and wouldn't have to resort to fantasizing about men.

In the intervening period, I am "back to normal" - checking out women constantly and wondering what it would be like to boink them. The next time I jerk off or watch porn, however, I revert back to the male fantasies and the cycle starts again.

Just wondering how many others can relate to this...

[tenni]

Hi
What you describe is a fairly common experience for bisexual men. The post cum loss of interest is also very common even when you are will a woman for a lot of men...the arch..is sometimes more than getting hard again. What holds you firmer to women than m2m porn may be all the social aspects of m/f relationships. I get the impression that you're luck has not been as good as you might want based on your loser comment.

So, are you normal? Yes, you are basically a normal bi guy.

[pole_smoker]

I know this is nothing unique, as I've read several stories about it. My own situation has compelled me to write about it anyway.

I am in my mid 50s and have become "curious" in the last few years. I am very much attracted to women and don't even notice men. I guess I am what would be called "cock curious" only. I have never had any type of sexual interaction with another man. I simply have thoughts, fantasies, etc.

Not surprisingly, these are strongest when watching porn or jerking off. While taking matters into my own hands, I conjure up all kinds of images of me and other men. They basically involve me seeing, stroking and sucking a cock - nothing more.

The second I finish cumming, however, the fantasies disappear - along with any and all thoughts of men. This is also often followed by a feeling of being a loser. After all, If I weren't such a loser, I would have a girlfriend or wife and wouldn't have to resort to fantasizing about men.

In the intervening period, I am "back to normal" - checking out women constantly and wondering what it would be like to boink them. The next time I jerk off or watch porn, however, I revert back to the male fantasies and the cycle starts again.

Just wondering how many others can relate to this...

So why not actually go and have sex with a man like you want to, and suck his dick? Your profile says you're single so it's not like you would be cheating on a spouse or partner.

[sysper]

i think i would wanna do more with a guy than u would but i have definately felt like this after cumming, the guilt, the embarassment. when i 1st started to become curious it would be months before i would consider thinking about being with a guy. each time i thought it would be the last, but it kept coming back. i sometimes still have the bad feeling but now i know the desire will come back & these days it comes back pretty quick sometimes half an hour. maybe because i have grown to accept this part of me more. but i still haven't done nething with a guy so it will be real interesting to see what kinda feelings i would have right after having sex with a guy. still so much to figure out lol.

[charles-smythe]

I know this is nothing unique, as I've read several stories about it. My own situation has compelled me to write about it anyway.

I am in my mid 50s and have become "curious" in the last few years. I am very much attracted to women and don't even notice men. I guess I am what would be called "cock curious" only. I have never had any type of sexual interaction with another man. I simply have thoughts, fantasies, etc.

Not surprisingly, these are strongest when watching porn or jerking off. While taking matters into my own hands, I conjure up all kinds of images of me and other men. They basically involve me seeing, stroking and sucking a cock - nothing more.

The second I finish cumming, however, the fantasies disappear - along with any and all thoughts of men. This is also often followed by a feeling of being a loser. After all, If I weren't such a loser, I would have a girlfriend or wife and wouldn't have to resort to fantasizing about men.

In the intervening period, I am "back to normal" - checking out women constantly and wondering what it would be like to boink them. The next time I jerk off or watch porn, however, I revert back to the male fantasies and the cycle starts again.

Just wondering how many others can relate to this...

…this is how I got started…first I was as you say ‘cock curious’…then I acted on it & have never been sorry…FYI: I never lost my interest & appreciation of the female body…once you get curious it never goes away….

[chances]

you are a normal guy, I agree with tenni

[GolfNutt]

I know this is nothing unique, as I've read several stories about it. My own situation has compelled me to write about it anyway.

I am in my mid 50s and have become "curious" in the last few years. I am very much attracted to women and don't even notice men. I guess I am what would be called "cock curious" only. I have never had any type of sexual interaction with another man. I simply have thoughts, fantasies, etc.

Not surprisingly, these are strongest when watching porn or jerking off. While taking matters into my own hands, I conjure up all kinds of images of me and other men. They basically involve me seeing, stroking and sucking a cock - nothing more.

The second I finish cumming, however, the fantasies disappear - along with any and all thoughts of men. This is also often followed by a feeling of being a loser. After all, If I weren't such a loser, I would have a girlfriend or wife and wouldn't have to resort to fantasizing about men.

In the intervening period, I am "back to normal" - checking out women constantly and wondering what it would be like to boink them. The next time I jerk off or watch porn, however, I revert back to the male fantasies and the cycle starts again.

Just wondering how many others can relate to this...

I can 100% relate to this. As tenni said, what you're experiencing is quite normal. It's also the reason I've never followed through on my fantasies and desires.

Guilt is a wonderful emotion when it accurately reflects a person's compromised standard of conduct and their ownership of that conduct. It's what guides many people into doing what's right or wrong. But, it' a terrible, misguided emotion when someone else's inaccurate, biased beliefs are forced upon a person which results in a great deal of unneeded remorse.

Consider this. The majority of 'facts' that were once considered to be absolute truths (i.e. the Earth is flat, our world is the center of the universe, men are better drivers than women) have been shown to be absolutely false. Same sex relationships or encounters (for the most part) are not socially accepted. That may change in the future as our culture evolves.

You're not a loser, you're normal.