I lost my virginity when I was 21, officially. Up until then, I had sexually experiences, but not full blown intercourse. I thought that most of my sexually experiences were average, nothing really special.
I think for me, especially when it comes to culture, race, environment, area, location, etc, it really effects your dating life, and eventually your marriage life, etc. I haven't had much luck in either department but I chat with people online all the time.
Right now, I'm currently single, don't have any children, and I DO NOT LIKE PEOPLE AT WORK, NEIGHBORS, OR IN MY FAMILY OR EVEN SOME FRIENDS ASKING ME ABOUT MY PERSONAL LIFE. AT ALL. I came out about being bisexual when I was 20, and if I could take it back, I would, trust me.
A few months ago, a 6'3'' black cross dresser with blonde hair, had a conversation. I wanted to ask him how does it feel to be treated like a animal, like a freak show in public but adored and treated like a lady behind close doors. To have men who will sleep with you in private, as long as nobody knows, and to treat you like a stranger in public, like they never even meant you, or knew you. Are you okay with being used? I still have yet to have that conservation with him. I guess certain men are okay with that.
I know in my case, its quiet obvious that people look at me, for example, and don't see me as being a real woman. Somehow I'm not what a real woman should be. And its quite obvious that men are way more prized then women. Their more prized in public and even in private. More favored. In general, more liked and more respected.
I just started a new job and I'm trying not to get really personal with my coworkers. I pretty much just go to work, try to mind my own business, and I DO NOT LIKE PEOPLE ASKING ME WHY I'M NOT MARRIED AND/OR WHY I DON'T HAVE CHILDREN. Its quiet obvious that I'm hated, so therefore, I dont like talking about myself.
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