I was 13 and my first gay sex partner - and also my best friend - was 11 and a half years old when we had our first ever gay sex experience together. We both loved that first time so much that we had our second time the next day. And almost every weekday after that and our secret gay sex affair lasted almost 6 years before it came to an end.
He told me he was in love with me first - about two months into our new sexual relationship. I knew the sex we were having 5 or more times each week was the reason for the new and different feelings I began to have for him around that same time, but I didn't know if these feelings meant I was falling in love with him too or not. But hearing him say he loved me felt nice and I decided I was in love with my best friend and new gay lover and I told him I was in love with him too right then and there.
I still don't know what being in love means or what it is or isn't. So who knows what we were feeling for each other way back then.
We called each other "my secret boyfriend" and we kissed like real lovers kiss and we held hands when we were alone. We always agreed our sex was NSA and either of us could end it any time and the other one of us would be cool and not argue or ever mention our sexual relationship or anything related to it ever again. With no drama no matter how much one of us wants the affair to go on when his lover says it's all over. Which made things between us easy but neither of us ever ended it. I left for college and we hooked up twice - both times were great sex too - and we never had sex after that. We saw each other only a few more times after our last and very hot sex hookup - he also left for college and we just moved on and lost contact.
I've been thinking of him and our relationship - and also about the sex we had and the couple of very hot sexual moments we shared together - thinking of all this a lot lately and I've also asked myself if our relationship was or wasn't really being in love with each other. I think of things a lot for a while then I move on no matter what the results of my thoughts are or aren't, and I'll do the same with this topic soon enough. But I do miss him and I do miss being intimate and naked with him since he was my first true love of my life.
Question to all of you:
Were you in love with the first person you had a same sex encounter with in your life? Or did you have other similar feelings coming from the gay/lesbian sex you had with that person? Were these feelings mutual or just from you to your first ever gay/lesbian sex partner? What else would you like to share with us about your first same sex encounter or the person you did it with?
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