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  1. #1

    Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    After years of watching porn and jerking off, i gained a sexual response to seeing hard cocks in porn or thinking of the word like now as i type. I used to think i became bisexual because i get hard when seeing a cock now (wasn't always like that) and i like girls, always have. But i couldn't identify as such because i don't like men, sexually or romantically, but seeing a cock in a porn video now gives me an instant bulge, but with no actual desire in my mind, just a helpful, needed boner. On the kinsey scale, i would say I'm at a 2 for the moment? while I'm heterosexual, It's clear to me that being aroused by seeing another hard cock in some type of motion on my computer screen does not fit within the guidelines of being "straight" so i can't be 100% straight, or maybe I am but - the legs and thighs of a woman is a turn on for me and i would engage in interacting with a woman's legs/thighs in reality, yet a nice sized, hard cock (just being descriptive) on the screen gets me hard too but in no way would i want to engage with one, let alone a guy, in reality. I'm seriously confused, I'm afraid to "embrace" it and end up paying less and less attention to women in general and be lost in myself jerking off to cocks getting sucked, fucked, and jerked. But i doubt this sexual response will go away, so...what do i do? am i the only one here like that?

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    "I'm seriously confused, I'm afraid to "embrace" it and end up paying less and less attention to women in general and be lost in myself jerking off to cocks getting sucked, fucked, and jerked. But i doubt this sexual response will go away, so...what do i do? am i the only one here like that?"

    I was wondering about your comments but the above underlined section may be important. You have an internalized homophobia going on. A cock arouses you sexually and you are afraid if you bring it to real live action that you will turn gay.

    What do you do?
    I'm not sure but you are going to have to face yourself. You may want to take a deep breath and get naked with a guy but your fear may make you take a long time before that step is taken. You may also try it and find out that after it is over that you are ashamed and feel more guilt. (but you actually enjoyed it) That is probably telling you that it is homophobia and years of society telling you that to get hard looking at a cock is wrong. There is nothing wrong with enjoying pussy and dick. It is all good. You're ok.

    You are definitely not the only guy on this site who has gone through the fears and confusion.
    Last edited by tenni; Jun 14, 2014 at 3:18 PM.

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    Quote Originally Posted by tenni View Post
    You are definitely not the only guy on this site who has gone through the fears and confusion.
    And you're not the only one that has some interest in cocks but a lot of interest in women. Bi guy's tastes and preferences are all over the place.

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    To first statement: maybe i didn't word that correctly, I'm not scared of homosexuality. I wouldn't expect the average person to get it without me showing my full story i wrote on my 9 year porn addiction and how it affected it me. For since i could remember, i was the way i was, which i was fine with and loved, the way i was, the way things were. Years later, all of that changed, something different occurred out of the blue that didn't sit right with me for obvious reasons. I CHANGED, and it all started when i got into watching pretty girls get banged on TV. When i say embrace, i mean forget everything of what i like and cater to this new arousal. I already have, i have watched gay porn, etc, you name it, wasn't anything to what i thought i would like seeing as what can get me hard now. I am a chronic masturbator, i need stuff to get me off constantly. I don't want it to be something I don't even like, clouding what i really like, cause porn already drove me away from relationships, family, goals, and etc. That's my fear.

    To last statement: I don't see why i would want to get naked with a guy, when i don't want to be naked with a guy, ... all because of what visually makes me hard. So, are you convincing me that i like men too and want to be with a man? when i said "cock", that's exactly what i meant, cock, not men. Like how a person might like feet, of all people, but not actually like people themselves, or any other part of their body. A certain body part on a specific sex, makes me erect when i see it in porn, for over 9 years, i have had my hand wrapped around my own cock and i feel that is the connection to my arousal. What i was looking for was an elaborate explanation, one that complimented my theories, and people who too experience the same or similar. What i was not looking for but expected, was to be implied that i should basically fuck men. No one told me looking at a cock was wrong, no one tells me anything, I'm my own person, i don't confine myself to others beliefs, or the societies norms. I just don't want this to interfere with any future relationship i have, i want to know the cause or something logical. I don't want it to substitute my natural desires, if i can be perfectly fine in a relationship still with no issues, then i don't care.

    I apologize, I'm pretty tired, and frustrated, because It's more of the lack of a scientific (true) explanation than the actual situation which just upsets me. Knowing the "why" to something makes things better to understand and handle don't you think?, and i don't know it, so I can't be okay when I think about It. I appreciate the feedback though, nonetheless.

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    Quote Originally Posted by fredtyg View Post
    And you're not the only one that has some interest in cocks but a lot of interest in women. Bi guy's tastes and preferences are all over the place.

    I don't like the word "interest", i call it porn-related interest. So these bi guys, they actually find men sexually attractive i assume? I wouldn't fit in that category, I'm not attracted to men, just the sight of a cock in the video makes me hard. I really don't know the clearest way to make sense out of it, It's visual stimulation for me, dudes hard, seeing him hard makes me hard, we both got the same thing, It's like an empathy type of thing. If you ever seen gay porn, or any porn with a guy in it, you would see a comment or two mentioning the guy, and their desires about what they would do or what they want done to them? that is not me when it comes my response when seeing a cock, the only possible thought i would ever have would "wish i was that size, or i wish i was shaped liked that, etc" It's like visual stimuli really.

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    I agree. I found myself in a similar situation and started experimenting. I discovered that I don't like cuddling etc., way too masculine for that to be a thing I like...definitely not kissing. I did, however, find that I like sucking cock (and swallowing), but I am not really "attracted" to men in general nor interested in a long term 'love' relationship. I am interested in 'regular' meetups in which I can service a cock though.

    I have found it difficult to find such a scenario to this point.

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    Quote Originally Posted by DLBJdude View Post
    I agree. I found myself in a similar situation and started experimenting. I discovered that I don't like cuddling etc., way too masculine for that to be a thing I like...definitely not kissing. I did, however, find that I like sucking cock (and swallowing), but I am not really "attracted" to men in general nor interested in a long term 'love' relationship. I am interested in 'regular' meetups in which I can service a cock though.

    I have found it difficult to find such a scenario to this point.
    I see your situation is far beyond mines, and too much information though there ain't nothing i haven't seen nor heard, almost. Are you attracted to women?

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    Sorry if it was TMI. Yes, Very attracted to women.

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    It's okay. Ahh, when would you say you had this desire to give guys oral sex? what age?

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    Quote Originally Posted by strangecolour View Post
    So these bi guys, they actually find men sexually attractive i assume? I wouldn't fit in that category, I'm not attracted to men, just the sight of a cock in the video makes me hard..
    Again; bi guys tastes can vary remarkably. Me for example:

    I consider my sexual preference to be pretty much 98% in men right now and have for probably the better part of two decades. I jack off pretty much exclusively to m2m fantasies. Yet I find very few men sexually attractive. You could march 1000 guys from my town past me and I might find two or three sexually acceptable, with maybe one or two I'd consider hotties.

    Yet I find something sexually attractive in most women. If you marched 1000 women past me I'd probably find something sexually exciting about 980 of them (it might have been 998 of them 30 years ago), yet I'm really not interested in chasing women for at least a couple reasons.

    Whatever the reasons are doesn't matter. Those are my preferences and I've never heard from another guy with those same feelings in the hundreds of bi guys I've heard from over the years. I've heard from at least one guy in this forum who posted a picture of what he thought was a hot guy. I thought that guy looked gross. Some guys only want cock, others want more.

    Some guys are pretty much just into women, but will take a guy once in a blue moon if the situation is right, or he's desperate. Others, as I was in my late teens and 20s, will take guy or gal- whatever is available. Others, as I am now, are mostly in to men, but even with that their tastes in men and what they're interested in doing with men vary widely. Our preferences are all over the place.

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    We pretty much think alike. My wife brought out my bi side by introducing me to strapon sex. When we watch porn, it is gay or bi porn. I am a bitch for a thick seven inch dildo. We have discussed her watching me with another man, but have not gone there.It makes both of us hot thinking about it. But it is all about the dick. I really like looking at cocks. Other than that, i am physically attracted to the beautiful curves and scent of a women

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    strange colour, you could be a autosexual with mild anhedonistic aspects ...... simply its a person whos primary form of sexual expression is masturbation rather than sexual interaction and the anhedonic aspect simply means that social interaction and sexual interaction with others, do not give you as much pleasure as the average person..... its something that can be quite common with people that have had a porn addiction, they are very capable of having a relationship, but the sex in the relationship may not be as intensely passionate and emotionally charged as the masturbation.....

    the * energy * of the masturbation is intense... its like a drug, a natural occurring high in your own mind, without having to smoke or inject a single thing.... and the object of your interest can be anything but more often than not, its not the idea of fucking somebody......its having the cock that you see on the screen, in your hand, its the feel of that woman thigh as your fingers run across the skin, the way it would shift and move, the way you would feel and respond in yourself, that creates the intense high in you and the need to take it to the peak so you can have the release and the after glow.... and its changed you... its not the same as the wank as a teenager, wanking til you came, was different, now its all about the sensations, the feelings, the emotions and the high, that high where you feel the dips and raises in you, and you know when to change the pressure, the rhythm and how to hold it as a point for a while because soaking in that feeling is so nice, its the point of being aroused, your body and mind is reacting and riding the wave.. like soaking in a spa bath.... and you may not want to cum for a good 20 minutes while you enjoy the energy.......

    you are not nuts or broken.......addictions can be real roller coaster rides, specially when they are perfectly legal, there is very lil side effects on your body, its a natural high... but yes, its hell on your social and relationship life.....


    it is not always a a indication of your sexuality.... there is a difference between your interest in the cock on the screen and a interest in enjoying that cock in your hand and your mouth.... and it does not make you a bisexual, it does not mean that you are homophobic if you have no interest in touching another mans cock.....it means that you have a image of a cock on a screen as a focal point....... and if playing with and enjoying cocks was a clear sign of sexuality, most straight guys that play with their own cock, would be bisexual.....and most straight females that touch themselves would be bisexuals....... just because its another cock on a screen means nothing......you are seeing it as your own cock, not somebody elses
    Last edited by Long Duck Dong; Jun 14, 2014 at 9:52 PM.
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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    OK, I did have two experiences when I was a kid. A friend and I jacked each other off once and I let an older guy suck me several times when I ran away from home at about 15. Then there was no thoughts of it for years.

    I've always been the type to try anything. Heck, in the military I was a master parachutist, did scuba, and about anything else I could volunteer for.

    My wife agreed to explore swinging with me a couple of different times in our marriage. I'd have continued but she didn't want to. I missed the excitement and adventure of it.

    When I was almost 40, I remembered the man of one couple we swapped with and how he admitted to being bi. I remember thinking that I should have kept in touch with him because my wife wouldn't mind if I was seeing him, she just wouldn't like it if I was seeing other women.

    So, on a spur of the moment thought, I went to a gay bar I knew of and sucked my first cock. I just wanted to know if I'd like it and I did.

    Since then I progressed to trying about everything. Some things I enjoyed more than others but I did try them all.

    Like you, I love the feel and smell of a woman so much more than any man. The only men that I've really found a turn on, other than their cocks, were rather petite cross dressers.

    Exploring sex with men has never changed the way I'm attracted to women. I wouldn't think it would you either. The only way you'll know for sure is to try it.
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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    I'm a 'mature' man of 63, married to a wonderful woman for 43 years. For the first 60 years of my life, I considered myself straight. I always been attracted to women and revere their bodies to the point that I often wished I were born female. But there was no perceptible desire to be with a man, even if that were the case -- I always thought if I were a woman, I'd still want to be with women, sexually. (lesbian, in essence...)

    But I've evolved over the years, and, like most men, have an intimate relationship with my own cock, having stroked it to orgasm thousands of times. I like how it looks, I like how it feels in my hand, and I like the pleasure it gives me when I pump it. Having dabbled a bit in swinging with my wife, I found it very arousing to be with her and another man, and seeing his cock being sucked and plunging into her pussy. It was almost inevitable that I would find myself first guiding an erect cock into her, and, eventually taking one in my mouth as we participated in a 3-way.

    I'm now very much enamored with the idea of sucking cock, however, I STILL am exclusively attracted to women. When we're in public, I casually look over the women and men who pass by, and often think 'Boy, I'd love to fuck that one!' And it's ALWAYS a woman who inspires that enthusiasm, never a man. In fact, I can't think of a single time when I've looked at a guy and thought, 'I'd love to see him naked.' or 'Wonder how big his cock is?' I even sometimes question why I have the desire to suck cock when I see the average guy walking down the street.

    But my bottom line is, when we get naked and I see a cock, I generally want to touch it, stroke it, and put it in my mouth! I don't think it will ever change.

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    Their age or the age I had this desire? If you mean the age I had the desire, it was 48 years old (about a year and a half ago)

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    The image of an erect cock tells you that something sexual is going on. In porn, the bloke can eat all the pussy he likes, lick her tits, kiss her etc, BUT the party really gets started when the big old stiff dick comes out to play. It's the main course, and what all the other stuff leads to.
    If there's an image that says "I'm in fucking mode!", it's of a hard cock.
    No other still image, whether drawn on an Egyptian wall, on a toilet wall, in oil painting, on a bus shelter etc, can convey a specific emotion state with such unmistakable clarity exists.

    With 9 years of porn addiction under your belt (pun intended.lol) it's no surprise that the sight of a hard cock triggers a state of sexual arousal. Same as a pic of a seafood dish may trigger hunger, even if you don't like seafood.
    The moment you want that seafood, you enter into seafood-curiosity. Same goes for cock and bicuriosity.
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    I have noticed that now with fair research and understanding, seeing as the past few nights, my masturbation sessions while in bed consisted of highly intense/visual thoughts of intercourse and 4-play with women (which hasn't happened in a long ass time, and felt so damn good). It indicated that I was desiring real women more strongly now since I started understanding everything. Eh lol, I was a seafood fan as a kid, but not as of now, it might look and smell good, but generally I have no natural taste for it, It's more like "oh, you cooked shrimps, I'll have a few" type of thing, but never will I actually ask for or have a need for it. I like the comparison, but there are notable differences, the only thing I'm curious about is why I'm not his size lol. So it makes a lot of sense, like you said, it's a symbol of sex respectfully, and as for as porn goes (because I found out girls don't go 'goo goo ga ga' for big cocks in reality often, pussy is like what 4 in. deep?), a pretty girl and a decent sized cock make for an enjoyable video vs with a 3 incher or something (I'll turn that off instantly lol). Honestly, I don't find it bisexual or beyond for a guy to be turned on by seeing another cock, only if actions towards it or the guy is desired as well. I feel masturbating to another guys cock in porn is for a different reason vs masturbating to a woman in porn (mutual means of satisfaction + admiration for the art of masturbating for the guy, and actually wanting her/a girl like her or imagining having sex with her for the girl). But I think too much of that type of exposure leads to that In the first place, because they then acquire different sexual responses to both genders which of course confuses them, and they either look too far into it and find themselves in a different pool or study it carefully and be able to flow calmly in the same spot they were always in, just with an added perception.

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    Before I thought of bisexual as a real alternative I used to try to "prove" to myself that I was either gay or straight. I didn't want to start a family, only to figure out later on that I was gay.. One of the most frustrating things was for months being all about the sausage, fixated on the sausage, and then I would see a woman in porn pleasuring herself as well and I would be just as aroused. It used to be so frustrating, because I would think I had myself figured out, only to start all over again.

    When I found this site I started to realize that there was a whole spectrum of both romantic and sexual desire..and that many people fall somewhere on the scale that is not necessarily at the extreme ends. It sort of makes sense actually, very few things in nature are truly black or white - but rather many different shades..

    If nothing else, I think google did a half-witted study of people's search results and they found that many male users also watch a lot of "penis porn" - not necessarily because they are attracted to other males, but because they are attracted to the thought of getting off ..

    I have felt both - there have been times pretty much I have been in heat for sex, but also times that I genuinely wanted to be loved by a man in a deep/caring way .. and also a few times I remember benig in the arms of a woman, just enjoying holding each other.
    Last edited by elian; Jun 23, 2014 at 6:06 PM.

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    If I think about it or see it turns me on

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    Quote Originally Posted by strangecolour View Post
    After years of watching porn and jerking off, i gained a sexual response to seeing hard cocks in porn or thinking of the word like now as i type. I used to think i became bisexual because i get hard when seeing a cock now (wasn't always like that) and i like girls, always have. But i couldn't identify as such because i don't like men, sexually or romantically, but seeing a cock in a porn video now gives me an instant bulge, but with no actual desire in my mind, just a helpful, needed boner. On the kinsey scale, i would say I'm at a 2 for the moment? while I'm heterosexual, It's clear to me that being aroused by seeing another hard cock in some type of motion on my computer screen does not fit within the guidelines of being "straight" so i can't be 100% straight, or maybe I am but - the legs and thighs of a woman is a turn on for me and i would engage in interacting with a woman's legs/thighs in reality, yet a nice sized, hard cock (just being descriptive) on the screen gets me hard too but in no way would i want to engage with one, let alone a guy, in reality. I'm seriously confused, I'm afraid to "embrace" it and end up paying less and less attention to women in general and be lost in myself jerking off to cocks getting sucked, fucked, and jerked. But i doubt this sexual response will go away, so...what do i do? am i the only one here like that?
    I know EXACTLY what you are saying because it's the same for me! I'm not attracted to men. I'm sexually attracted to a faceless male torso, no face, no personality, that responds to sex and cums! I guess many of us sort of respond to bisexual cravings limited to almost a masturbatory concept. If I had my way I would create an exact clone of myself and have all aspects of gay sex with it and leave it at that. Of course that's impossible. I want to try a man at least once, hopefully regularly? It has to be the perfect scenario, perfect timing, perfect person. We'll see.

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    Quote Originally Posted by Curious me View Post
    I know EXACTLY what you are saying because it's the same for me! I'm not attracted to men. I'm sexually attracted to a faceless male torso, no face, no personality, that responds to sex and cums! I guess many of us sort of respond to bisexual cravings limited to almost a masturbatory concept. If I had my way I would create an exact clone of myself and have all aspects of gay sex with it and leave it at that. Of course that's impossible. I want to try a man at least once, hopefully regularly? It has to be the perfect scenario, perfect timing, perfect person. We'll see.
    This is me...... and yes.... i want to try at least once....

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    I found myself turned on by cock but I do not fear it , still like women but I'm embracing the fact cock turns me on . It's just a side of my sexuality that probably always was there I just discovered it.
    I was happy about it not sad because it just means more options for sex and now dick is part of it, I felt much better coming to terms with it.

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    i have thought about fucking myself as u described too lol. i also have a fantasy about being with a younger guy who reminds me of myself at his age. maybe a way to relive my younger years, to feel young again with energy & hope.
    Quote Originally Posted by Curious me View Post
    I know EXACTLY what you are saying because it's the same for me! I'm not attracted to men. I'm sexually attracted to a faceless male torso, no face, no personality, that responds to sex and cums! I guess many of us sort of respond to bisexual cravings limited to almost a masturbatory concept. If I had my way I would create an exact clone of myself and have all aspects of gay sex with it and leave it at that. Of course that's impossible. I want to try a man at least once, hopefully regularly? It has to be the perfect scenario, perfect timing, perfect person. We'll see.

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    As I get older I find that I am more attracted to men!! I have a very frigid wife and our sex life has been in the tank for some years now!! The attraction is purely sexual and I wonder is he cut or uncut!! I love uncut cock and it stems back to my early teen years and an uncut friend OMG how I loved playing with his cock, from stroking, to sucking and being fucked by it!! A pretty lady can still turn my head and give me thoughts of how great it would be to have her in my bed for a night!!

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    I’d have to say that I’ve never found it strange or odd that guys just like dicks... and not the guys so much. Get excited to see naked guys and cocks? Sure! Want to get all down and dirty with a guy? Eh, maybe not so much but I’ve always said that being bisexual isn’t all about what you do - it’s what you think, how you feel and if one does get around to doing something, fine. I see a guy... and all I see is another guy, one of many I see on a daily basis. Maybe I think they’re handsome or uglier than the original sin... but if they wanna get personal and thinking about pulling out the dicks, okay, he’s got my attention.

    Guys can be bisexual in whatever way works for them - it’s the only way one really owns their bisexuality. Some of us will suck a cock in a heartbeat; some will get on their knees and await the feel of a hard cock sliding into them. And some just like the look of another man’s cock. It’s whatever floats your boat and not so much what everyone else might expect.

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    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    I have had a real problem with this one, for most of my adult life. I started out life strongly heterosexual. As a child, I would actively take part in a sort of childish orgy with some of the neighbor kids, and I was always focused on a particular girl. As childish as the sex play was, it had intense erotic feelings associated with it, and I got tense erections long before I was able to cum. One of the boys in the group was gay, and that was already obvious when we were children, and when it was his turn to select someone to "play with," it would be me. He'd stroke me and I'd stroke him to be fair, because it was his turn, but it was entirely for that reason, and I just anxiously waited until it was my turn again, to turn toward Mary and play with her pussy and her breasts.

    For as far back as I can recall, even as a quite young boy, I was drawn to girls. As I got older, I developed relations with girls and my only sexual interest was in girls. I can recall even wondering what on earth girls saw in the penis that would attract them to it. I just didn't get it at all.

    Without going into details of how I think it happened, in my mid-teens, I suddenly found myself dramatically turned on by hard cocks and the idea of playing with them erotically, and I had a brief, entirely sexual relationship with that same neighbor boy who was and is, of course, gay. I found it amazingly erotic and enjoyable, but it was entirely sexual, and I did not feel any sort of romantic attraction to him. We enjoyed sharing activities together, as friends with some non-erotic shared interests in life, but there was no sense in which I ever felt toward him any sense of romantic attraction, if you can understand what I mean to separate erotic attraction from romantic attraction.

    I have never wanted to be involved in multiple simultaneous relationships. I have always been monogamous and faithful. With women, I can find them beautiful, and that is part of the sexual attraction, whereas with men, I may recognize them as being a good looking man, but I am not sexually attracted to their facial appearance. Similarly, with women, I can be very physically attracted to their figure, with particular focus generally on their chest and their bottom, the way they dress, and the way they carry themselves, whereas with men, I can recognize them as being athletic and well-built and perhaps a good dresser, but I don't find them sexually attractive for it. When I am in public, my eyes fall naturally on women, and I can find myself getting an erection eyeing an attractive woman. That doesn't happen with men, at least in terms of finding myself eyeing men, and I have gotten an erection rarely and even thoughts of sexual attraction to a man in public perhaps a handful of times in my entire life. When it happens, I haven't got a clue why. I often find myself interacting with women in public, and I have a sort of warm feeling toward them that I just don't feel toward men, and it is always as if a part of my mind is considering if we were in the same age range and otherwise unencumbered by relationships, I might like to be with them. I just have a tendency to develop warm interpersonal feelings with women that I don't feel toward men.
    Beyond all of that, even though I am quite certain I am bisexual, when I am in public and look at men and think of the possibility of having sex with a particular fellow, in general, the idea just turns me off. It's like, "What on earth am I thinking about?" Even when it comes to pornography, I can enjoy watching a couple of guys sucking each other off, but anal sex, even though I think I'd enjoy it, turns me off, and passionate foreplay between men, like hugging and kissing and breast fondling are like, what on earth would you want to do that for? It looks silly to me (and I don't mean to be derogatory in saying that). I am much more turned on by women in porn, like most men into porn, but watching a gal suck off a guy turns me on much more than watching a guy sucking off a guy, and even watching lesbians going at it turns me on much more than watching guys sharing sex.


    I have always had a thing about being faithful and monogamous in relationships, and all of my relationships have been with females, but despite everything I said in the last paragraphs, and all of it being absolutely true, the thing that has always turned me on erotically more than anything, is to jerk off fantasizing about having sex with a guy, hands, mouths, cocks, balls, ass, cum, and all. I've always had a ridiculous sex drive, so I have enjoyed fantastic erotic relationships with the women I have been with, and those relationships have included the warmth and romantic feelings that I just don't get toward men, while allowing me to play the straight masculine role of husband and father that fit my early life awareness of being only straight, but the entire time I've really enjoyed the relationships with the women, in the background, between sexual interactions with them, I have had crazy, powerfully enjoyable jerk-off sessions with fantasies of having sex with all sorts of men. Again, as bizarre as it at least strikes me as being, even though I have that history of powerful homoerotic fantasy life, when I am in public and look at men, and think about it, they just don't turn me on, at all, except on a rare occasion.

    I could take this discussion into other directions, but I will leave it at that for now. I just wonder how unusual that is, to have powerful homoerotic fantasies but not feel attracted to men in real life.

  27. #27

    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    Yes there are,I want to taste a man and feel him inside me,and feel me inside him, I remember experimenting as a young teenager, talking about girls, jerking each other off ,and wishing I had taken him in my mouth and finish him. But I was afraid.I remember him putting his dick between my buttcheeks and pumping till he shoots on my balls and ass, realizing when I got older I wished he had entered me.

  28. #28

    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    I never used to look at guys, but now when I do I'm usually looking at their ass, or trying to see if they have a big dick!

  29. #29

    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    There is a guy at work that I'm pretty sure is gay. He is outwardly masculine but he mentioned having a partner once when I was talking to him in private. I'm not at all attracted to him, as with most guys I meet. Last week I was in his cube talking about work stuff and I caught him making a quick glance down at my cock. When I returned to my cube I noticed I was a little stiff. The fact that he was curious about by dick turned me on. In public I am attracted to women but I catch myself getting aroused when I interact with men and something like this happens. I don't think I was like that before my first sexual experience with a man. But then, the first time I was with a guy I got hard just by seeing his cock after pulling off he underwear.

  30. #30

    Re: Is anyone else like me? sexually?

    That's being heteroflexible. I know, i am that way too. I do not kiss or cuddle with men. I see myself as a spicy heterosexual (aka heteroflexible)��
    Heteroflexible:
    in between bi and straight. Like, being straight, but you would consider doing something with a member of the same gender should the situation
    arise
    . Mainly for pleasure and adventurous reasons, you probably wouldn't date them. Also can be called bent. Not quite straight, but not quite bi either.


 

 

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