Originally Posted by
dafydd
dearest venus in fur..... take it from ... a man , who once knew the simple life of a body with one entrance and one exit: who even bought Armani pour homme at 18 simply because the pour homme bottlle clearly tesselated with the female version: It had a slight protusion in its glass profile that docked like a cock into a slight feminine concavity on the bottle bought for my girlfriend like an amulet that would get me laid.. surely this would make me a man. and so by his late teens every single impulse in a guy is to fuck blindly like a pneunatic drill....... though strangely we percieve the urge as simply to insert, launch, thrust, fire or spike our dicks into and within... to insert, to push and push again........"Penis fits vagina" Camillia Lapagia was notably said. as boys we were brought up with clear instructions on how our dicks should be used. as tools, to insert, as keys to unlock. always a 'thing' to be used, a job to be done. men moved around, agents of direction and erection....whilst women hunkered down to one spot, rooted by mother to the very Earth. (see artwork of ) Boys had the eminent rights to insert, fire, launch, divide, push through , collide into and girls were the prophetic targets that we could never hope to hit.....who be the judges of or sucess or failure to do our one unique job) oh ...and we hated them for it.... as if somehow subonsciously at 9 or 10 we clustered together away from females like weak eunachs horrified of how they could ruin us,,,half males, barely stronger than each other ...wrong...unless at 10 or 11, we ignore girls completley though still aware of our fates. we looked at our small pathetic armory with dismay. under pressure from our male role models, we fretted....how could we rule our promised kingdoms or aim to shoot, to move and effect women as our teaching has taught us is our place in this life... our penises clung to our childhood like caterpillers afraid of flying. and our biology begins to take over. manyy boys find girls gross (intimidating) at that age cos we know how powerless our penises are, how dismally theyd fail us, and be crushed. from 11-17 every mans life is tense, fraught, but a wonderful race, to see our agency grow. some of us get together for training sessions, and slowly we biologically smith our own swords as girls talk about bleeding. We study our growth something what it will into. every old male friend of mine remembers the day they went for a slash and the weight of it suddenly becoming apparent in their hand. like noticing in a glance, the way you suddenly look ur age or older in those facebook pics from last weekends party. though the change was gradual it seems to store itself up for a sudden moment of awareness. Alll rememeber when they felt a weapon rather than a willy in their hand. i remember it as pissing all over the edge of the toilet seat onto the bathroom floor one day as i sat for a morning crap after my 16th bday. Fuck. it didnt hang down anymore in that tiny gap between my nuts which now itched every morning with a new ass of thick course dark hair: aching packs of self replicating ammo that seemed to go off like friendly in our group smithing sessiond at the skater ralley grounds behind the half pipe. we became used to the woodish smell of our fresh semen, wed never seen such odd goo and behind the skater park we kissed girls again and wondered if they knew wwhat we coud with our bodies, as we were so amazed. we made out only with girls and tried to cop a feel. but were partly to blame for our own mutiny in the brotherward as slowlyy our smithing made differences in our bodies that caused sham or pride and as men we slowly learned to never look at another cock lest it be huge and gutting though the temptation to see a lesser one was always tooo greart. this competing for the best guns...yes it starts early this competition...but our group found that the bigger dicks often had poor range. so then someone drew 2 lines in the dirt and cnother half moon curve like a baseeball reach, and one by one alone in the dark, we practised struck out to became men... our loaded guns and thats how we stayed, cocked and ready until the ammo runs dry. later that yeart the small wooden toilet seat in my mothers house was soon involved in a 'accident' and had to be replaced with one that could accomodate a man, who like any man should be allowed abig enuf latrine to piss and crap at the same time. For nothing ever goes anywhere but out and away like a miissle (and certainly never ever returns 'inward' for surely is self destruction. to the human males idea of his own duty to push forward into the world.. it took 2weeks to remember how much further to sit back on the loo seat just so 2 years of my ripenining thickness could be accomodated. Boys devolve quickly nto their egos when toilet seats arent big enub and wlike evlolving bipedal apes again we have to stand though leave the women below us this time. and so boys believe they devolve again because of their sex, and so we begin to idolise. when men stand up to piss in bar toilets theres an air of reverendce for what it symbolises. we were forced to hold it like a gun every day and aimed at dirt spots on th enamel like they are enemy hostiles to be neutralised on a radar in another Call of Duty. many public urinal have targets actually paiintd on them..power over working guns takes us over and we believe our own hype at their final bestowed powers to quell and turn womdn toward . mans triumph over the natural mother earth and the heavens. the moon the tides, winning thewar of the roses by planting oue sees is nothing then aa poorwayof describing how godlike amanfeels e themoment of orgasm if hes in control of his thunder.. The first of us to get ammo, juice, something we can fire......is the likeliest to survive the battle. Cat, whatever he says, hes struggling to turn his body from a gun to a flower, from a key to the lock. Its massive alteration from iron to ink....ur well to give this man the gift of alchemy that hes desperately seeking
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