Originally Posted by
silkyhoselover
If I were doing it behind her back, I would feel ashamed and guilty. I would not be ashamed that I was with a man, but that I was doing it without my wife's knowledge and consent. That's cheating, and she's a wonderful wife who deserves my fidelity.
So, anticipating my first 'allowed' sexual rendezvous with a man, when I return home, I won't feel ashamed at all, but probably a little guilty. Guilty, because my wife wasn't involved, even though she would choose not to be and not begrudge my activity. But this isn't what she 'signed up for' when we married. I had no clue that I would eventually seek to have sex with another man. Because sharing myself with another man is, in a way, taking away from her, I'd have some pangs of guilt. Hopefully, they won't be too strong when it happens.
At my age, I'm sure I'd be sexually satisfied at the conclusion of the liaison -- so doubt I'd be horny. (at least, until sometime later, when thinking about the encounter...)
Hoping that I can just feel 'fine' about it, when all is said and done.