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So about 25 years ago I was on AOL, drunk and went into a Local M4m room. I was just curious and I guy started IMing me. We were chatting and he asked to come over. I said yes and he headed over. I figured he would blow me or I would fuck my first guy.

He came over and we chatted and headed to the living room, I was super nervous... he stopped me and pushed me up against the wall and then grabbed my head and started kissing me. I didn't know what to do so I went with it and still shocked this was happening. Then he got on his knee and pulled my short down. I was not wearing any underwear. He then lightly but firmly grab my penis and start sucking my off. His grasp was much firmer then a woman but just the right amount. How he held my penis in his hand while the pressure and suction of his mouth all the way down my dick. The way his finger touched me as he played with me balls. At the same time I was just like.. I can't believe I am naked with another guy and he is blowing me. After a while he stopped and asked if I was ready. I said yes but had no idea what to do next. He stood up and he kissed me again and then turned me around and then bend me over with my face side to the couch. He started rubbing my back and ass. I have never done this before I was not sure what was going on. I had never thought about even bottoming before. It never accrued to what it be prepared for. He stopped for a minute and I started to over think what was happening while he was putting the condom on. He then put is hand down of the crack of my ass. I didn't know what to think as he put a little lube around and inside me asshole. I then felt his finger starting in my ass. I was just dumb founded as I thought this was going to be my first blowjob from a guy. I then felt one hand on my hip and then his top of his dick burrowing in my ass. I couldn't move as I thought if I was anything I'd be a top. I had never done this before so I didn't know what to do, how to move, what was ok to do or say. He then started putting his dick further inside me. OMG did it hurt but oddly ok. He keeps asking me if I am OK. I don?t know what sounds I was making but I let him keep going. He asked if he wanted me to stop and I said NO, so we continued. It had been about 10 minutes and then he pulled out and had me sit on the couch. He split my legs apart leaned over me and then put my each leg on a separate shoulder. He then inserted his cock inside me again. I then really saw the size of him and how big he was and how that was inside me. He was slow to start and worked his way fast and a little deeper from time to time. He was always checking if I was ok and again not sure what sounds I was making but he asked again if he should stop. I asked you cum yet and he said no. I said go until you finish. He start faster in and out of me and he slowed and said are you ok? I said keep going! It hurt but I wanted / felt he should finish. I didn't know what was right or wrong way when having sex with another male. Like it was any different than sex with a female. My logic was definitely not working at that time. He pulled out and cum. Everything was my first, first male on male experience, first blow job from a guy, first time a penis was in my asshole, the first time I saw another man face he made while ejaculating and the first time I got a man off with my body. There was a towel on the table and he grabbed it and wiped me down and then himself. He then kissed me and then asked for the shower.

While he was in the shower I sat thinking oh what the fuck just happen? I have just been blown and fucked by another man. Was this right? Was this wrong? Am I gay? Why do I still like woman? So many things going through my head. I got up and cleaned myself up hoe bath style. He then came out of the both room and got dressed while we talked, I was still completely naked. We chatted for about another 20 minutes and he said he needed to go. I walked him to the front door. He started to open the door and then turned around and we started making out again for another few minutes. He said we want to meet up again and he would see me online.

He came over 2 more times over the next couple month while I was still living at that same place. There is a part two I may share one day we I moved to a different state, I found out he was also living in the same city...

I was questioning for so long by the time I tasted my first man I knew I was ready for more, not 100% but knew if the right safe guy came along who was handsome and right for me I would move quickly, I checked personal ads and found a and met a couple gay guys I hooked up with with no hesitation, once I knew I wanted and craved cock it was a done deal, I wouldn't cheat on my then girlfriend to do it so broke up with her and posted a person ad on a dating site, what a waste of F'ing time, all these older guys and their secrets and lies, I am very clear I don't want anyone in the closet or questioning, testing the waters, but yet, every single one of the replies are vague, or you have to drag things out of them, then they admit they have a partner, so while I understand being nervous or questioning, if you jerk off to cock and only think about men, which I did while with women, once you get a taste and decide you want more, be honest like I was and tell your suitor your situation, lots of guys are willing to let you test the waters. But I can see why most gay guys stay away from straight dudes and bi's, it's all wishing and wondering. If you say you are bo or gay, don't waste peoples time, be honest if you messaged them, and stop with the likes or matches, just freakin say hi and what you are hoping to do, ask men what they prefer in bed, don't just say hi there and expect us to drag it out of you, you're the one reaching out, say something, say too much if you need to, don't be a mute.

[SIZE=3][COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]I remember stumbling across the monthly issues of Penthouse Letters, Forum, and Variations sometime in the mid-seventies. I always went straight to the Girl / Girl sections because as a normal teenage boy, that really turned me on. Then they started to include a boy / boy section as well. The descriptions of sucking cock peaked an interest inside of my head that I had never even entertained. I started reading all of those stories I could find.[/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]It was around my late teens, when I wandered into an adult bookstore for the first time. I was excited to be able to buy porn mags. On one of the visits, I noticed that guys were walking through a beaded curtain into a dark room in the back of the store. One day I got up the nerve to walk through that curtain myself. I was amazed to find coin operated booths that you could go into, lock the door, and watch all the porn you wanted to see.[/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]It became immediately obvious that more than watching went on in those booths, as each one had gloryholes into the adjoining booths. That rachetted up my nervousness to new heights. Every time I was there, guys would beg for me to put my cock through the hole. One day, the movie clip I was watching was of two hot girls blowing a cock, and then sharing the cum by making out with each other. That put me over the top, and I plunged my teenage cock through the hole and into a mouth that devoured it instantly. It was the most amazing thing I'd ever felt! Within 15 seconds I was going to explode. I pulled back because I was afraid of how good that felt, and I certainly wasn't gay! I stood there trying to calm down, when he slipped his hard-on into my booth. Mesmerized, I watched as my hand reached out to touch the first cock ever besides my own. It felt good. "Oh My God!" I was overwhelmed, and zipped up and bolted out of there like a scared rabbit.

[/FONT][/COLOR][COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]After that brief encounter at the bookstore, I continued to read stories about m/m encounters in the magazines. My interest grew to the point that, while back in town a couple of years later for a friend's wedding, I knew I had to experience having a cock in my mouth! [/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]I still remember parking in front of the bookstore, and telling myself I wasn't leaving until I had actually sucked a cock. I was soooo nervous! I walked straight through the store into the back room, and into the first empty booth I could find. Immediately someone entered an adjoining booth. I didn't hesitate. I ran my fingers along the bottom of the gloryhole, and suddenly, there it was. The most perfect cut, white, and beautiful cock I could have imagined![/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]I quickly took it into my hand, checking it for anything wrong. Satisfied that nothing seemed amiss, I sucked it into my mouth in one fell swoop. I was amazed at how natural it felt. He had obviously prepared for this, as it was completely fresh and smelled slightly of baby powder. My tongue seemed to instinctively know to swirl around the underside as I sucked up and down the shaft. [/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]I pulled away for a moment to see that I was being watched through the opposite hole. Keeping the cock in my hand, I remember thinking "This is nice!" before sucking it back into my mouth. Feeling it grow hard as I sucked was amazing![/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]Alas, I took stock of where I was and what the risks were, and reluctantly decided that discretion was the better part of valor. So I thanked him, and left the booth. Walking to my car, and all the way home, my mind was a buzz with what I had just done.

[/FONT][/COLOR][COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]The vivid memory of having that cock in my mouth would have to sustain me through years of marriage, kids, work, etc. However, with the burgeoning of the internet, I found myself drawn to sites like Literotica and The Nifty Archives. Once again, cock lust began to pervade itself into my daily consciousness. [/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]During infrequent trips to the city, I always found myself visiting adult bookstore arcades. I discovered "buddy booths," where you could push a button and see into the next booth. That only fueled my desire to once again have a cock in my mouth. Fear of disease kept me from indulging that desire. [/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]The tipping point for me, was when I stumbled across a video called "Ultimate Cock Worship Hypnosis." Maybe you guys have seen it, on sites like XHamster, or Pornhub. I don't know how many times I came while watching and listening to it, but it was a lot! [/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]One day, I discovered a bookstore that sported a large arcade that actually had labels on it's doors. Signs like "Buddy Booth," "Gloryhole," "Two Gloryholes," etc. It was a clean and upscale place, and it was here that I would take the next step in my quest for cock.

[/FONT][/COLOR][COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]I always use disposable surgical gloves when cooking, and one day I grabbed a handful of them and headed for the bookstore. I was going to suck a cock! When I arrived at the store, I went to the counter and bought several strawberry flavored condoms, and headed into the arcade. I found an empty booth marked "Gloryhole," and went inside and locked the door. Putting a $5.00 bill into the machine, I selected a blowjob channel, and sat down to wait. Within a few minutes, sure enough, a guy entered the next booth and started a movie. [/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]I watched through the hole to see him pull a very nice looking cock out of his pants, and begin to stroke it. I ran my fingers along the bottom of the hole, and he pushed his cock through. This was it! I was finally going to suck a cock to completion, and feel it throb as it came in my mouth! I slipped the strawberry condom over his cock, and dove right down on it.[/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]God, it felt nice to once again have my mouth around a cock! And I didn't waste any time. I sucked it like a starving man! My mind was a whirl with a million thoughts and sensations. I couldn't believe it was finally happening! I was sucking a cock, and I was loving it. It must have borne through to him how much I was enjoying it, because within a short time I felt him swell and begin to pulse his seed into the condom.

[/FONT][/COLOR][COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]I can't describe the elation I felt as his cock throbbed in my mouth. Pulse after pulse of cum erupting through his shaft and filling the condom. My tongue felt every spasm. As his orgasm slowed, I kept him in my mouth, flicking my tongue every few seconds to elicit little spasms as he came down. I was as content as I can ever remember, sitting there with his softening cock in my mouth. I had done it! I had sucked a cock and had it explode in my mouth![/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]Eventually he withdrew, back through the hole, and I was left with all the thoughts racing through my brain. Driving home, I couldn't help but smile. I had just passed another milestone on my journey towards becoming the cock sucking, cum swallower I knew I wanted to be.[/FONT][/COLOR][COLOR=#2C2C2C][FONT=Open Sans]
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There is nothing better than making love to my wife, Encounters with others are "recreational sex." In that context, we recently had a fabulous experience. We are both Bi and enjoy swinging and participating with each other during Bi experiences. A few weeks ago, we met a Bi friend (male) for three days in Las Vegas and were joined by another friend (a straight male). My wife has known both over ten years and I have known them over 8. The straight friend, while being comfortable with Bi activities taking place around him, had never participated, maintaining that he was totally straight.

As it turns out, the straight friend disclosed his curiosity, saying it stemmed from the one time he had been stimulated by a vibrator. It was about 7 years ago when the wife had used an almost pencil-thin anal probe and hit his prostate.

Deciding to satisfy his curiosity, the wife pulled out her strap-on and attempted to penetrate him. He was excited, but despite copious amounts of lube, his tight little hole refused any access. The next morning the wife declared that a trip to the adult store was in order. While there, among the purchases was a set of two vibrating eggs with a single control. That night changed his life.

As play progressed, she got out the lube and was able to insert the vibrating eggs in his orifice. His grimace turned into a Cheshire Cat grin and he savored the exciting new feelings he was having. After a while, he was standing next to the bed I was laying on when I positioned myself with my head near him and partially hanging over the edge of the bed. I told him "Now that the ice is broken, come here." I pulled him closer, straddling my head as I engulfed his soft, and previously "for women only cock."

Sucking softly and using my tongue to stimulate his entire member and lick his ball with him still in my mouth, we began hearing those moans and groans so common when one is experiencing ecstasy through the ministrations of another. As he continued to grow, he became more and more involved, rubbing my chest and telling us how good it felt. In the meantime, the wife pulled out the Hitachi Wand and began stimulating is ass while the vibrating eggs furnished internal pleasure. My sucking and the wand exponentially increased his excitement and he began to push back against the head of the wand. He got more and more involved, laying across my chest and taking hold of my cock, pumping slowly. Pushing more and more against the wand, the vibration and pressure began to relax his sphincter and, ever so slowly, its bulbous head moved into the previously "exit only" tunnel.

With the heightened excitement of the moment, I began emitting precum which he noticed while pumping my now rock hard cock. As he hesitantly licked the moist head, while pushing back, the bulb of the wand entered him and made contact with a vibrating egg. It was like an electric shock running through his body. He let out a deep, loud moan, his balls tightened, and he let loose a stream of cum while deep in my throat. I wrapped my arms around his legs, holding him tightly and his shuddering orgasm continued. I kept him in, slowly sucking as his cock softened, draining him, but keeping a bit without swallowing. The wand was removed, we separated, and he attempted to stand up on wobbly legs, but need this arms on the bed for support.

With the vibrating eggs still working their magic, I turned around and kissed him, probing his lips with my tongue and transferring some of his cum to him for his tasting pleasure. His eyes widened and a perplexed crossed his face. I'm not sure if he was shocked at having been kissed by a man or his first taste of his own cum. Soon his Cheshire Cat grin returned as he expressed awe and wonder over his experience and new found pleasure.

As the wife sought to retrieve the eggs from him, his sphincter resisted and she had to reapply the wand to the outside to relax it enough to release the vibrating orbs. His countenance turned to a wan look bordering on disappointment as the last bit of stimulation was removed from his shivering body.

He can't wait until or next trip so we can further his bisexual education. It was a joy and a pleasure to have had the opportunity to ensure that another's (especially a good friend's) first time was a positive, desirable experience that left them craving for more.

[FONT=arial][FONT=arial].[/FONT]I had my first taste of cock in high school, then tried to suppress [/FONT][FONT=arial][/FONT][FONT=arial]the urge until later in life, although I was always interested in seeing cocks especially when they were about to enter my wife's pussy or mouth. When I was a freshman in high school, I joined the cross-country track team. After the first few weeks, our coach determined that I might be varsity material. He assigned two senior members to mentor [/FONT][FONT=arial][/FONT][FONT=arial] me in the various strategies of competitive running. One day, after practice, it was late and most of the team were gone. I went in to take my shower and was joined by the two teammates. Curious to how 'big' I would be when I became a senior, I kept looking over at their penises as they lathered up. One of them caught me looking, and turned away, to say something to the other senior. The two came over to me and asked what I was up to. I explained that I admired how built they were, and thought that I would have no problem getting girls if I was in that great shape. They laughed, then one grabbed the cheek of my ass. I was startled, and started to get an erection. The other held his cock in his hand, and asked what I thought of it. I didn't know what to say, so he took my hand and placed it on his cock. I hesitated and began to move away when the two of them backed me into the corner of the shower room. They both were thin, but bigger than me, so a fight would be fruitless. It was late, and the showers were running, so if I yelled, no-one would hear me, and I would probably just get slapped around. By now my cock was sticking straight out, and so were the cocks of my "mentors[/FONT][FONT=arial][/FONT][FONT=arial]". One of them, Vinny, told me I must "jack-them-off" as part of a secret initiation ritual, and that all varsity players must go through it in order to make the team. I stayed silent until the other guy said that they ALL went through it. He then grabbed Vinny's hard cock and began stroking it. See, he said, nothing to it. Now let's see if you are worthy to make the team. I asked if this would be only between us, and nobody else would know, and they assured me that's what 'secret' was all about. By that age, I was an expert at masturbating, and with either hand, but with them in front of me, it was awkward. So I asked them to turn back to back, then reached around and grabbed a cock in each hand. Having their cocks in my hand made me excited, and I would have loved to have MY cock stroked too, but I didn't dare ask. I began playing with them both at the same time. The one guy came within a minute, but Vinny was holding out. Suddenly he tells me that this isn't working, I am doing it too rough, we need to try something different. Get on your knees, and blow me. What? I asked. You heard me. Put my cock in your mouth and suck it good. I protested, and Vinny tells the other kid to run and find the janitor. We have a queer in the showers who likes to pull on men's cocks. Oh great, I think, I'll have to run away from home, to keep from getting beat up if this gets out. So I drop to my knees in front of Vinny's loins and open my mouth. Vinny then grabs the back of my head, and sticks his cock in my waiting oral cavity. He begins to fuck my face like a cunt. He grabs my hair, pulling my head forward and back, telling me if my teeth scrape him, he was going to knock them out. Shoving his hard rod so deep in my throat that I gagged until he pulled back. Saliva was drooling out both sides of my mouth. He then tenses up and starts to cum. In my mouth! He kept pumping for several minutes, until finally he pulls his cock out completely. I then spit out his fluid, but the taste stayed with me. The two of them left me kneeling on the floor, and went back to their lockers. I sat down, crouched in the corner for around a half hour, during which time I cried a little. The next day I told the coach that I was quitting the track team.
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I like girls but somethimes i like to play around with guys. I always top a guy and thats all i would do.For the last few days i been wanting to take a dick up my ass. I just want to know how does it feel? Will it hurt? If i do try what is a good size to start with? Any thoughts on this?

I had a great time last night with a stripper friend of mine and her new boyfriend. She's 20 and lives with a roommate, while he's 21 but lives with his parents. They needed a place they could go to have sex, and I was more than happy to oblige. At first they were both shy, but quickly grew into someone watching, and eventually joining in. Only later did I learn that it was the first MFM for both of them.